why can't i be you...

[nerdcorex4life]

so i've reclused myself from the world again, moping around my house and skating to relieve the pressure of my thoughts running in my head when i'm alone and doing nothing. i guess i've drudged into a little depression lately, i feel empty and i feel like theres no way for me to end it. i leave for washington in october and i can't wait, the sad

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[evilshmo]

i thought you were moving to so. Cal!! What happened with that? I wish you the best of luck in Washington. People suck where ever you go, but i hope you find what you are looking for. I miss you, poo face!

[nerdcorex4life]

awww i miss you too my dear!! come visit me soon before i move dammit *shakes fist*

[scuzzyfatass]

I REMEMBER THAT GIRL. shes a hottie.

[nerdcorex4life]

hehehe, she's the best! and i miss her dearly... man the storys i had of our adventures and she'll always be in my book as the most incredible fun first date i ever had!! we still talk about to this day LOL.

[theonelike_moe]

:( u know how i feel about this.... well maybe i havent voiced my entire thoughts but u know how i feel about u running away from shit... i love u too death n obivously this isnt good enough for u but i know that dosent really hav anything to do w/ y u are moving. i just want u to be happy n i dont want u to hav runaway from ur problems or feelings to be happy...cuz shit will catch up...the scenery can always change berto but society/people/girls/problems/ur depression wont just remember that

[nerdcorex4life]

i haven't really been looking at it as me running away just as an opportunity for me to change and grow somewhere else. i've decided to be more selfish about what i want and what i expect from people, its my way or the highway kinda thing i guess... lol. i know people suck everywhere but i'm hoping changing my outlook and actions on people/society/GIRLS!/problems/and depression should help. i guess i just really want someone to bend over backwards for me instead of feeling like i do it for everyone else. so packing my bags and giving vegas the finger just seems like a huge opportunity for me to start fresh somewhere new. blah theres so much thoughts running through my head on this matter and i don't know how to express them that well at the moment. well back to my beer and getting ready to go out with the homies. maybe i'll update later when i'm not tired and been drinking so my thoughts don't sound so spacey =/.

[camp_arawak]

Why the hell Worshington? You ALLLLLWAAAYYYYSSSS say you are moving.

[nerdcorex4life]

cause vegas eats it wierdo and i wanna go somewhere else!! i've just been waiting for my lease to end here at the new pad but i think i might cut out earlier if things work out well =).

[nerdcorex4life]

awww, you are seriousily the best! i miss talking to you all the time cause you always seem to understand where i'm coming from with all my rants of odd depression and people sucking! and i'm gonna so go visit you before i move mad far away so we can cause some ruckus and paint the town red my dear... <3!

[anonymous]

Vegas DOES eat it. I have been here almost three months now, and I fucking hate it. People here are two faced and strange, and I know how you feel about not being able to connect with people. Hang in there, Burto. Vegas may suck, but many times when you go somewhere else, you have to change too, or else it's just a case of same people, different names. You know?
*Smooch*
Tracy

[nerdcorex4life]

i've been trying to look deep inside and see what i need to change too but my heart just protests and wants someone to finally care and see me for who i am instead of bending and molding for someone elses needs... does that make me selfish?