perhaps you are going through a transitional phase - it sounds like it's a rough one... if you start finding yourself pushing people away.. try to force yourself out of that.. force yourself to go out and do something.. anything whether by yourself or with someone else.. see how that works for you..how you react to certain situations..
if things get progressively worse - you might want to look into therapy. and if you are already in therapy - this is certainly something i would bring up to your therapist.
I've done a few select things with friends lately and I do have fun but at the end of the night when I get home I think about it too much and I feel...weird. It's like I don't know what I'm feeling anymore. It's not even loneliness...I know what that feels like, heh.
Gah, it's like I'm making more and more problems for myself.
But therapy is probably a good idea, I was looking into it like a month before summer but never actually got around to it. It's probably my best bet. Thanks for bringing it up, I wasn't even thinking about therapy. It did help, thank you.
You actually sound quite a bit like me! Well; in the withdrawn aspect. About a year and a half/two years ago I was very social. I loved friends, and tried to be around people. I could strut through rooms with confidence. I liked and WANTED to meet new people. Eventually I realized that friendliness and the social butterfly tendencies had just...gone away. I found myself not caring. For awhile, I said I didn't care but DID, actually. I missed them, but couldn't really imagine getting out of the house. I think I felt like it just wasn't 'worth it'. Wasn't worth getting dressed, putting on makeup, and risking getting hurt (I do think that subconsious abandonment phobias have something to do with this for me). However, now I really don't care about meeting new people. I have two best friends; my sisters, and that's about all. A few people I know, who I see once every other week; sometimes every three weeks. Aside from them, I leave the house usually once a week to go to the petstore for bird toys, but that's all. People with my illness
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Wow, the whole instant messenger thing is exactly what I do. I usually leave away messages up all day and people try to talk to me. Unless it's important I usually don't talk to anyone. I think I do it to see if people still care. Yeah, hanging out with a big group used to be my thing but lately it makes me claustrophobic. Even 3 is a crowd to me right now, I feel really really suffocated. It's weird to feel this way because I used to always be 'life of the party - social butterfly'. And I do miss it but at the same time I'm repulsed by it. It's a comfort to know I'm not the only one who feels these crazy things. If you ever need to talk you can contact me! hehehe, thank you for replying.
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if things get progressively worse - you might want to look into therapy. and if you are already in therapy - this is certainly something i would bring up to your therapist.
i hope that helped some.. eee.. <3
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Gah, it's like I'm making more and more problems for myself.
But therapy is probably a good idea, I was looking into it like a month before summer but never actually got around to it. It's probably my best bet. Thanks for bringing it up, I wasn't even thinking about therapy. It did help, thank you.
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Yeah, hanging out with a big group used to be my thing but lately it makes me claustrophobic. Even 3 is a crowd to me right now, I feel really really suffocated. It's weird to feel this way because I used to always be 'life of the party - social butterfly'. And I do miss it but at the same time I'm repulsed by it.
It's a comfort to know I'm not the only one who feels these crazy things. If you ever need to talk you can contact me! hehehe, thank you for replying.
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