Today I cried. I am sad. I miss my friend.
I have decided that it is time to live and I have decided that living is not such an easy feat.
I have come to the realization that a lot of the problems and lonelyness can be traced back to losing him. He gave me the life I have and his was stolen away from him by someone he loved. He was my true confidant. He was the one that I could talk to about everything... he would listen. It is so hard to find someone who will listen and not be so wrapped up in their own problems that what you need to talk about turns into what they need to talk about I wonder if figuring this out will help me to get past some of my stuff.
I am tired of waiting for something to change to make things better; I am tired of needing someone to talk to to help me deal with my fears; I am tired of my life feeling like it is on hold. I just need to get it together and make it happen.
I have missed so much, I am tired of it. Maybe this year I will make New Years resolutions!