how?
One of my friend just shot himself in Wednesday. HOw the fuck do you deal with something like that? I haven't even begun to get over my other ex who shot himself and my other friends who were killed. HOw do you cope? I want to hurt myself in any way, shape or form because the mental torment is just too much. I need help immediately. I'm so incredibly lost. I'm scared to get close to anyone anymore for fear of losing them. I offer to be there for them if they need me and when they don't take it I feel so helpless. I feel like I've failed as a friend. Their faces are burned into the back of my eyelids. How do I make this hurt go away?