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[nevaehrose]

sorry i'm yes still on the scale. i hate to say this because I know your going to think i'm being stupid and that its stupid i think this way. But I feel like I have invested so much into my scale I feel like we had a relationship like one a child has with her parent or a sister. And now my scale and has died and left me. And there is this

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[dressedd2kill]

baby im sorry im so sorry you never open up to me about ur dady im so sorry im soo sorry priscilla im so sorry

[nevaehrose]

I never talk about it to anyone. I've blocked so far in the back of my mind I very very very rarely think about it. I very rarely think about anything that hurts me and i wish i could keep it that way. thank you leah

[envinyata]

it's not stupid...i would never say something like that is stupid. like i said...sometimes you have to take things really slowly...especially when you have that kind of relationship with an object. you can't just wake up one day and toss it out...feeling abandoned and lost and sad is no less toxic than having the scale with you.

i'm not saying it's okay to keep the scale. just that i can understand why you would want to, for a time. but don't give up on yourself. you WILL get there. somehow. *loves*

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[nevaehrose]

I know its not ok to keep the scale.,.,.but this.,.,.this anxiety and sadness and fucking lost feeling sent me into throwing up at school it got so bad it just wouldn't stop. My scale did decide what I did or didn't eat that day. My scale did make me happy and sad or atleast justified both feelings. I feel so fucking out of control without my scale its hard to explaine. I miss it. I really feel as if I'm so bird trapped in this cage and its opened and I just don't know what to do I would fly but i'm scared I would fly but I don't think I even know how I would fly but I know no other life than this.
It means so much to me that you guys replied thats the best thing. I felt like I was totally alone on this feeling and you guys would think I was being stupid but knowing that i'm not alone and you dont think i'm being stupid means the world to me. I just wish I could move away from myself and my head.
(((((hugs))))) thank you xoxo
i dont know what to do with myself.

[a_lush]

I am unsure of the correct advice on this, if there even is such a thing.
But, to me it sounds like you need to do what makes to feel less abandoned, less hurt and less negativity. I know scales are evil, I know atleast they are my answer to how I will go about eating on a particular day. I don't want to tell you to keep it nor to get rid of it. I just feel so bad for you because I can only imagine how I'd feel without mine.
Sweetie, you just do what you feel you should. Good luck
xoxo