Here are all the things that have gone wrong lately ( Read more... )

So much has changed sine last I wrote. I'm moved into my apartment now with Mittens and Alice. I've started going to school at OSU- classes started last Wednesday. I'm still working at the Vicki's at Easton even though I have no car. People have been chauffering me around (I have no idea why, I guess maybe I'm not so unloveable). Living ( Read more... )

Last week my car died on my way home from work. My precious car. The only one I have. Now I have no transportation... period. What I would not give for the ability to ride a bike right now. So I can't work at Easton any more because I have no way to get there. Teresa won't transfer me to City Center unless I try to work something out here ( Read more... )

I am now missing half of my thyroid. I look like I was attacked by a wild marmot and I kind of feel like it too. But mostly i'm really stir crazy and can't wait to get out of this house.. even if it means going back to work. The other day Chris got on the phone to say hello while I was talking to Tyler. That made me feel a bit better- less than ( Read more... )

Chris and Tyler go back to Miami tomorrow. Without me. I didn't know how sad I would be, but I am. I'm empty. I feel out of place, like how could I not be there with them? How could I have given that up? Of course I forget how lonely I was and how they never came to visit me. Forget all about how Chris would go into one of his moody phases ( Read more... )

I've been trying to apply for credit cards tonight and no one will let me. Again I get the feeling that you have to be somewhere to get somewhere. I can't even order freaking checks without a re-order form. How's a girl supposed to get started around here?

Samuel bought me a cd the other day. Very nice of him to do, but it kind of creeps me out a little. Makes me nervous. Makes me feel he's expecting something of me (not to mention his continual looking down my shirt). That moment has passed... many years ago. Figures that the music would remind me of someone else whom I am also trying to pass ( Read more... )

I posted this on my xanga after reading some comments written by Star's friends. They seem to be mini zealots from the way they talk, wishing everyone could find Jesus and pittying those who don't. There are girls at work who feel the same way. It disgusts me. How can people be so arrogant and self-righteous. This is my view on relgion ( Read more... )

Tonight I am typing this "entry" on my brand new laptop! Thank you Mommy!!!

I found the perfect apartment today. It is huge and has a tower room. It has character. Here's to hoping I can afford it (and it's not already taken by someone else).