Comments | neverclock: A Note

neverclock

A Note

Dec 05, 2007 21:33

I have dreamed a dream, and now that dream is gone for me.

I don't know what else to say but quote someone else, really. A year and nothing from me and now this in a most dismal time.

Don't know why the fuck I logged onto this thing anyway. I just can't ever let go.

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genuinebeauty December 6 2007, 15:01:33 UTC

It's been a while. How are you..?

mad_hatter_88 December 6 2007, 15:09:48 UTC

Well it always happens when you hold all your cards in one hand. There is always some other fucker just waiting for you to drop your guard so they can snatch em away from you.

And now you have the chance to dream a better dream. A less underhanded dream

hellangel901 December 6 2007, 17:04:30 UTC

Just make sure you take the time to look after yourself first and foremost. Perhaps then your dream will turn into something better than what you expected.

insighttomylife December 6 2007, 22:48:49 UTC

take time out for yourself right now. figure out what you NEED to be happy, not what you WANT. I can't stress that enough. Once you're happy with yourself, everything else just falls into place. Believe it my friend. Look where I was 2 1/2 years ago. Look where I am now. I'm a walking testament.

neverclock December 6 2007, 23:04:31 UTC

Thank you, Mark. Its just hard to see or deal with it right now. I didn't want to say anything to anyone and I've just been sort of hiding. Trying to sort my head out. Its not really working. I can't even see a difference between what I want and need. Or between my past or future. Or really anything. I guess I'm just fucked up in the head right now and everythings still a blur.

insighttomylife December 7 2007, 04:41:10 UTC

like iggi said, just let the emotions/feelings run their course. Afterwards, work at what I suggested.
We've all been there many times and we all know we can get through it. It just doesn't seem like it at the time. Which is why we have such great friends to help us out in such a situation.

sertorious December 7 2007, 02:01:09 UTC

You know exactly why you logged in bro. I remember a very certain, very miserable day in my life once a few years back. Someone took the breath right out of me, hurt me and shook my faith in myself. You should remember that day too because a few hours later i showed up on your front door, bewilderd and close to tears. I remember that moment clear as yesterday, you looked me in the eye and simply said "I know, come in brother, got some beer in the fridge". You, Waller and Chants kept me sane for the first few weeks it took to get back on my feet. Hell lets face it, the whole Shinanigans thing started from the endless bar crawls it took for me to get over someone i loved and wanted to be with. This is not the time to run away or to hide because you'll stew in this misery until it turns you in to someone you are not. Life is teaching you a lesson right now, through harsh methods of course but those lessons are usually the most profound. Breathe, let the emotions run their course and see what you can learn from the whole experiance. Trust ( ... )