so i suppose i can admit i'm growing up. i can admit that it's been a fuck of a year, and that my priorities have shifted radically over the course of this previous year ( Read more... )

the days are fine and good ( Read more... )

how strange, these times ( Read more... )

i'm heading out of town for a week, starting saturday. going to goose rocks beach, maine, with my family. i could use some ocean ( Read more... )

it's still hard to articulate my surprise, my relief, my happiness. i know that it's still too early to really let go of the string, but i can feel that absolute buoyancy of hope and promise just above me ( Read more... )

this afternoon carlo walked out of the toronto general hospital, a free man. the specialist came by and said he had a 'perfect liver ( Read more... )

there's a fair chance that carlo might be released tomorrow ( Read more... )

things are still good at the hospital. he has been moved out of the ICU, out of the ACU, and all the way onto a regular ward. the clinical nurses from intensive care came down and signed off on him, saying they don't even need to be following him at this point ( Read more... )

i had whiskey and pancakes for dinner ( Read more... )

today was long and i am a little delirious. last night i tried to sleep, i lay face down, afraid, excited, knotted up with this giddy nausea that just rolled over me. when the alarm went at four a.m. i crawled out of bed, showered, dressed. carlo's mother and i had breakfast together at the table downstairs, she opened a few birthday gifts [he was ( Read more... )