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[neverglass]

I don't feel good and I don't feel okay and I wish there was some way I could make this all okay but obviously there isn't and that isn't okay, either, and just ugh what the fuck do I do?!

But obviously there's nothing I can do.

And I just sort of hate everything right now.

And it's not like this isn't all very painter-entwined or like it won't be

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[gantai]

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i'm sorry you're not feeling well, bb. i'll do whatever you want me to do to make you feel better. ♥

[neverglass]

♥♥♥

I was having a spectacularly shitty night Saturday - first day of the painters + two really, really intense conversations. One of them worked out okay, but the other really didn't, and now X. is mad at me. =/ But what the fuck ever, he said he wouldn't be mad when we started talking about because it wasn't his deal and then he totally was. It was about my schedule change and art and shit, and he's really gung-ho about that for some reason. =/

Like, he thinks I'm taking the easy way out. And you know what? I am. Because the alternative is certain fucking failure. At least I have a chance of scraping by - maybe - in art. And I could spend a bunch of time explaining my thought processes to him, but I've had to do it once already, & I have to do it again for my art book, & I just can't be bothered. Like, I'm fairly certain he's not even speaking to me over this. Fuck that.

...Anyway, are you allergic to grass or anything like that?

[gantai]

i'm sorry my love. i'm so slow to check up on everything so now it's like two weeks later and i didn't do shit. D:

so what if you're taking the easy way out? humanity takes the easy way out everyday when we drive our cars and use our electric appliances. that's shitty logic.

...and yes, actually, i am allergic to grass. it bothers my feet when i walk through it in flip flops and when i go to picnics or something where i'm sitting near it and may lay on it it makes me itch like mad. why do you ask? :O