Things are back to normal. Feeling pretty good! School is stressful as shit, but life is wonderful.

Feeling well, alive, stable, happy, and things of the sort. Adam and I have begun hanging out again, only once so far, but more to come. I'm already feeling better. I walked more confident today than I have in the past two months. He makes me feel fabulous and I still love him. We'll see where this gets us. :)

Just read through my entire livejournal to date. I'm a little bit in awe of how much fun I used to have compared to this current state of mediocrity. Currently I have felt, well, alright I guess. Not great, not horrible. I miss feeling great though. Is it all in my head? If it is, how do I rid myself of this funk I'm in ( Read more... )

As the days go on, I realize that no one I ever run across will amount to what Adam meant to me. No one will care as much, either. What do I do... I'm afraid I won't ever find out and we'll spend our lives apart when we should be together. I'm also afraid that if we get back together, something will go wrong. Ahhh, nervousness at it's finest. I ( Read more... )

So many realizations in the past couple of days ( Read more... )

I miss Adam and when I was happy all the time. Frustrated with school and life right now. The only place I feel happy is work. Obviously kids are my passion. Haven't cried like this in awhile. I'm feeling such a mixture of sureness about the rest of my life, and uncertainty about who I will spend it with and where I'll be. I'll be with kids, that's ( Read more... )

It will feel oh-so-good to skimboard this weekend at Ocean Shores. Oh-so-cold, yes oh-so-good. Nostalgia, here we come.

Broke down. Headache, heartache, footache ( Read more... )

I feel this intense need to cry and break down right now, but I can't. There is this achey feeling in the bottom of my stomach needing out, but I can't get it to leave. It's nights like these, when I don't feel sane in my body. Today has been weird.

Hey dudes! Purity organic apple juice is my new jam.

All is well, I feel like a kid. :)