Feelings and Whatenots..?
Somtimes I feel like shit warmed over and reach out to anyone I can or think I can reach. ... ...
Right now in my life I am very stuck. I am the single person taking care of a frail elderly parent So right now I littratly am stuck in a house doing whatever needs to be done next. I don't get paid and am terribly tired and feeling alone. Well after a early morning argument with my GF on the whole shebang..She convinced me that one I can not do this alone. at all! So this weekend we will actually starte looking into orginizations that can help my situation. somtimes when your inside of a situation you just can't see the easist solutions. Well here I am right in the middle of a tornado of a situation. The sad thinkg is my siblings won't even show up or call or even e mail me at this point. yeah they have shit going on in thier lives, but I feel it is still no excuss to totally blow off ones mother.
We have never had the strongerest functional family in the first place. But damn life is still life and this is part of it. I feel when my mother leaves this world that the "family" will be over and I will be alone. That scares me to say the least...I mean christmass, thankgiing, what will I do ? My GF has a very strong Family tie. I am not welcome because of our relationship.. But I support her viseting her family very much all the more so because I want that so badly. It is very important that she see her family.
well I am just kaveching..(sp) I just wanted to explain that right now because of lack of money and my mother I can't go many places and can't viset many people...so this coputer is somewhat it for me.
Right now in my life I am very stuck. I am the single person taking care of a frail elderly parent So right now I littratly am stuck in a house doing whatever needs to be done next. I don't get paid and am terribly tired and feeling alone. Well after a early morning argument with my GF on the whole shebang..She convinced me that one I can not do this alone. at all! So this weekend we will actually starte looking into orginizations that can help my situation. somtimes when your inside of a situation you just can't see the easist solutions. Well here I am right in the middle of a tornado of a situation. The sad thinkg is my siblings won't even show up or call or even e mail me at this point. yeah they have shit going on in thier lives, but I feel it is still no excuss to totally blow off ones mother.
We have never had the strongerest functional family in the first place. But damn life is still life and this is part of it. I feel when my mother leaves this world that the "family" will be over and I will be alone. That scares me to say the least...I mean christmass, thankgiing, what will I do ? My GF has a very strong Family tie. I am not welcome because of our relationship.. But I support her viseting her family very much all the more so because I want that so badly. It is very important that she see her family.
well I am just kaveching..(sp) I just wanted to explain that right now because of lack of money and my mother I can't go many places and can't viset many people...so this coputer is somewhat it for me.