i rode my bike all the way across the city by myself today. i was nervous to be without the usual escort of those more knowledgeable of the landscape, but i found i knew the way, cognitive maps linked. i know this city. at every point in the journey, i could fly up into a birds eye view and look down at myself as a little pin on a turquoise and ( Read more... )

last night i fell asleep fully dressed and with the light on, at the very end of diary of a country priest. it was nine o'clock. i woke up when it was nine o'clock again, and then spent the day cleaning house, reorganizing hellish kitchen with new housemate and michael. i finally changed my clothes and took a shower just now, after going to the ( Read more... )

yesterday i held my warm friend cat gemma in my arms, then watched the life slip out of her on a silver table as the vet administered the three injections. i came home to my house and she has entirely filled it up with her presence, the lack of her presence. her presence, her ghost in my neuropathways. in every spot she ever sat, i look and she is ( Read more... )

tomorrow my beautiful kitty friend gemma will be put to sleep ( Read more... )

i was just about to write the most emotional, frustrated livejournal post i've written in the past year, but then i opened the window to my new room, and i sat on the windowsill and looked down into the back yard, and at the electrical wire with vines creeping up it toward me, and the wind blew and now all i can write about is how much i love

i dreamed that someone, either james from twin peaks or richard, was doing very destructive things as a game. he slashed his neck, and was letting himself slowly bleed. i tried to get him to bandage it up, but he wouldn’t pay attention to me. flesh was hanging down around his neck like a tattered collar, slowly dripping. i held him close to me and ( Read more... )

a bender of a halloween ( Read more... )

i just applied for a job as a receptionist at an old folks home ( Read more... )

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