Happy Bday Baby !!
Riley is a month old today and what a shitty one month bday he had. We had to take him to the doctor. His first sickness and only a month old. Just a little cold, but he sure doesnt like it.
I cant believe how drastically my life has changed in a month. I never knew it possible to love someone the second you see them. I mean I loved him when I was pregnant too of course, but when I saw him for the first time, something inside me was just different. This little person had never done anything for me yet, but be there, and yet I was and am willing to do anything for him.
As amazing as he is, I am sooo exhausted. Between school and taking care of him and Mark (I swear sometimes it seems like I have 2 kids) I have hardly anytime to rest. I can't imagine what it'll be when I go back to AHS and start BCC next sememster and then work on top of that. I'll manage it all somehow. No matter what I have to do, I will support myself and Riley (Mark's helping too) and I will finish college. There's no debate on that subject, I will get my degree.
Of course drama with the friends. I swear JAK members, including myself, seem to be drama magnets. (Rileys first friend ?)People are always talking shit about one of us, and being how we are, of course we say shit back. We don't take anyones crap and we don't let people treat our friends wrong. Speaking of shit talkers. To those of you who seem to be writing about me having a kid lately, and hinting at the fact that you may not aprrove, go to hell. Maybe thats not the nicest or most mature thing I could say, but I dont care. I make NO apologies, none what so ever, for my son. He is a beautiful gift that God has given me and I dont give a shit what you think, so in the future don't even mention or refer to me in your journals. Rileys crying so I'm off.