It shouldn't bother me. I should be used to this. But it hurts more than anything in the world. I haven't cried this hard in a while. It was just that I wanted it so badly. Why does this always happen Will I ever get my chance? I should be happy for the others, but I'm not. And that makes me horrible ( Read more... )

I am so happy for Kate because she is my hero!!! It is really cool that she got in. Well, pretty much got in. Surely. Pretty positive. She deserves it. Its about time she is getting happy again. She should be. Yeah! Well, there's always next year, right? I'm soo proud of her. Yeah!

Chillin at my grandparents house. Good times. They make me happy most of the time. I feel like ranting and I have nothing else to do, so I might as well. First, roomates. Have a bad feeling mine is going to disappear. Or, well, I don't know, but something not good. She's changed and I don't know what to think of it. Second, lumps. Fucking ( Read more... )

i like boobies...i wish i had some....i mean apples are nice...but sometimes you just want cantalopes....yah.

I am incredibly lumpy right now...I am thinking of naming them...maybe roger, and Mimi, and lets toss in Mark and Angel for kicks.

I like the Fab Five.

my ass is saggy.

my peircing itches.

and I'm done.

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Last night was so much fun. Bella, I apologize for never going before. Was so scared of being the weird awkward kid in the corner, like always. But I wasn't really. Even playing was so much. Really want to go back, if they'll let me. OMG IT WAS SO MUCH FUN!!! Yes, well that is it. Yes. Yes. OMG. yes.

Its 6:42 am and I am not asleep. Do you know how much that sucks? Had about a 30 minute sleep so far. Good times. REALLY. Yeah, just killing time before my body wants to finally sleep for a few. Well, enough rambling.

Things aren't good. As already established. Think I need a break. From what I don't really know, just everything. Just want to completely disappear for awhile. Everything at the moment just seems to go to shit. My family is being incredibly difficult. I am hurting people. Getting hurt way too easily. Doing bad things again, that I know I ( Read more... )

My actions tend to hurt people a lot more than I'd like. That's all I seem to be capable of lately. I'm sorry I hurt people, sorry that I make people angry, sorry I try so hard not to. I am a very selfish person. Look, things aren't always good, and right now they aren't good at all. I keep trying, but sometimes it sems as if there is no point ( Read more... )