I literally wish I could just stay right here at home and never leave at all. Getting just a text from my boss makes me feel like jumping off my balcony, which is pretty bad considering I am quite content at this point in my life. Her asking me to do something makes me seriously want to go shoot some heroin. I can't even deal... not sure what to ( Read more... )

Wow I really need to quit. I can't fucking handle this anymore. This is the first and only time I have cried since Zeus almost needed surgery. Obviously having this kind of stress in my life is not good. I don't know what the fuck to do, I am just stuck and it feels terrible. Everything in my life is just the way I want it except for this one ( Read more... )

Today... randomly, I noticed that I NOW HAVE BABY MUSCLES. Like real hard muscles that pop out when I flex my arms hahah... love it so much! It hasn`t even been very long since I started strength training, nor have I been doing it very much. Twice a week really... and then poling when I have a chance. I worked out with Simon on Sunday and holy ( Read more... )

So i've been clean for 4 years now. I have no idea the exact day, I haven't been counting the days and ticking them off on my calender. But I do know that the last time I did drugs was in Sprott house when I was 21. It's pretty neat and I have come so incredibly far. For the past few months I have hardly drank, and for the past year I drank ( Read more... )

Today I learned soo many of the machines with Greggory. Lower body was so much easier for me, and upper body was killer of course. Especially my lats I need to work on... and some other muscles which I don't know the names of yet ( Read more... )

LOLOL. This dude is actually trying to hit on me when we went for dinner he paid with change and I had to cover part of his portion which pissed me off because he doesn't work nearly half as hard as I do or pay as much rent? SERIOUSLY!?!?!?!? Are people in their right mind ever ( Read more... )

Hehe... Zeus is eating some seared tuna from Akai and loving it. My perfect little gourmet kitty cat. It's the first time I let him eat any fish because most fish isn't worthy of him! I needed to make sure it was good quality. Nom nom... i'm eating some too. It was leftovers from my dinner ( Read more... )

First let me start out with saying that I am not being racist here, but these are the facts and they are so fucking consistent there is no mistaking the TRUTH ( Read more... )

Weight - 90 lbs ( Read more... )

Second session with Greggory today :) He pretty much gave me a reality check haha... Apparently the move I so desperately attain to, he has been trying for a year and a half (and his strength is CORE/UPPER BODY strength)... he still can't do it. Whatever, it just means i'll feel that much better when I am able to do it :D ( Read more... )