went to the bar last night, saw the good year pimps. pretty good for a more modern rock sound. smoked a joint with them, got a free cd, and was bought shots of yager by the band. Yet I was still in a bad mood.... Whats missing to make me still upset ( Read more... )

First day of college... it was ok. Though, nothings changed except for more worries and more debt. Because everyone in this damn town is up EIU's preppy elitist asses my work closed for almost 3 weeks because poor whininy students can see their parents. Can't afford gas to even get to lake land college. I'll never get out on my own. Loser ( Read more... )

A Return to the Dark Side of the Hemisphere ( Read more... )

So maybe just maybe i have no purpose. No unique quality, not one thing that makes me rise above people. I want one thing that spells out that I am special. God this post makes me sound like a whiney prepubescent 12 year old. I thought maybe politics and history were my knack, yet I am bad with dates of events unless they are major, like the ( Read more... )

So I am back, haven't blogged for awhile. Well I don't have a job anymore, yet I have gained a great girl. She is a sweet heart. I need a job though, I feel like a bum now. I love fall, the array of colors is always amazing, but that just means ugly winter is right around the corner

If there is such a thing as heaven then how can there be a hell? The inate feeling to love has passed and sections exist. Can you believe in the last hold out of your heart? Its burrowed into the membranes, and flashes the electric energy. Focusing on everything to be considered past our secular world. Lets instead lust after knowldege and the ( Read more... )

So maybe I just might have a drinking problem. Friday I had been drinking all day then after work there was a work party at Jessica's. The begining was quite clear, 2 hours later someone says hey lets get naked, so in good fashion I follow, so I barely remember and was told. then on the walk home someone yelled vulgar names at me so I got in his ( Read more... )

Maybe its the beer or my heavy heart, yet I feel as if I have every right to point out the negative attributes of my exs. Especially seeing as they have pointed them out to me several times before. The reason for even thinking of such a topic is lost to me. Though, I thought about which equals always in my mind ( Read more... )

Here I am. god I wish I had a bottle. Yet, I don't seeing as my stomach feels as if someone with a dull butterknife is stabbing it. So life again has not improved. I can't understand why I can't be happy. Every negative blow seems worse and worse each time. Going up chicago was ok, a little boring (not your fault miranda), but it wasn't ( Read more... )

correction the place was a piece of shit. Too much money to work on. stab myself in the neck? perhaps