Why does something bad always happen to me during rainy days? why the hell do i cry every friggen time it rains? why... why cant i ever do anything right? gRRRRRRRR! i wish i died in that car accident. thats all i ever wish nowadays... to die. i give up. screw basketball. im not going to play for the school next year or the year after that. unless ( Read more... )

man, i would be WAY happier in life if my dad wasnt such an asshole. damn him. i hate the way he laughs. its so fucking annoying. practice was ok today. quite easy. im going to start at the game tomorrow!! ^_^ but only cuz Ashley didnt show up for practice today and Danica is benched cuz she talked back to the coach. so i really shouldnt be ( Read more... )

Yeah, i fixed-ed my lj. new icon. all that jazz. today was good. basically stayed home and glued myself to the computer. geez, im so lazy. tomorrow im planning to work on my homework all day and finish everything. then i wont have anything to worry about. if i finish early i'll practice my free throws and shots at the park and play baseball with my ( Read more... )

We won Florin. coach actually put me in the game and i guess i did good. i rebounded, assisted, and scored only 5 points. but i guess woods and benson were happy about that. we lost tonight though. i screwed up again and coach didnt put me back in. i dont think anyone trusts me anymore. no one cant count on me to turn the game around. i wish.... ( Read more... )

Ive been getting close to NO playing time at the last 2 games. its all BS!!!! and yeah.. it really pisses me off that the coach thinks a few high fives and pats on the back are going to make things better. the fucking asshole he is. i run my fucking ass off in practice for nothing. it wouldnt matter because im NOT going to get any fucking playing ( Read more... )

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So as you all know, life isn't going very well for me. Its getting slightly better but not quite. My mom mighy leave as.. as in divorce but i hope she was just over reacting. i really love my mom... Anabel's b-day is on the 18th and Monique's is on the 21st. so i'll email Anabel and call Monique. I think they are playing Watsonville High. Man.. i ( Read more... )

Ok, Friday was probably the worst day ever. We lost to Sheldon by 20 points. I played really crappy but that hasnt changed because i play crappy anyways. iunno, being here just makes me feel like worth anything. i dont start and this team sucks. that would mean that i really suck cuz im not starting. and now i have no confidence and i dont think i ( Read more... )

ahhhhh... i feel sick and like throwing up. ahhhhhh man, i thought emotional pain was enough but physical?! shit... someone shoot me please! yesterdays practice sucked. we ran tons cuz the coach says we are an F team and that we need to step it up more. the he smacked us with the stupid pad thing while we were doing layups and whenever we missed 3 ( Read more... )

crap! i was just starting my entry when the damn window redirects me to a different page and now i have to start all over. yeah so.. CHRISTMAS WAS AWESOME! i got to spend the whole day with my great cousins; Larnelle, Jennifer, Glenny, Kirstyn, Khela, Kelsey, Justin, and Caitlan. we played football, ate, played games, watched tons of movies, then ( Read more... )