Just memories on a page inside a spiral notebook
Pardon any typos. I think my desktop has a grudge against me because this is the third keyboard and mouse it's had and it still does this thing where it sporadically stops listening to any input for a couple seconds. Rude.
Feeling melancholy today. Been writing a bit more lately. Those two thigs seem to go together. Worked on a couple older novel projects. Felt nice to go back and add to them.
Work is going. Not particularly good or bad, just going. I don't think I mentioned that I took on a new set of clients to add to the ones I already had. I am glad that I took them, but the biggest of the bunch was left a diaster. Some context: At work, we split our clients alphabetically. I handled A and C-I, another person handled B and J-Q, and the third person handles R-Z. The coworker who handled B was always complaining that she had too much to do and one of her other vendors was just oh-so-terrible. I offered to our boss to take the letter B back, since it belonged to my predecessor whom I replaced. My boss thought it was a good idea, especially since it belonged to my position anyway and it would just be moving it back home. Well, the change did not go over well with my coworker. She was literally in tears over this. Like, you're always complaining that you can't keep up because of another vendor. You would think this would be a GOOD thing! But this is the same lady who has to reply to every email she gets even if she is just copied on something to have the info for later, who has to narrate everything she does all day even though no one cares, who is always trying to make herself look important and like the smartest person in the department even though her attempts to do so frequently have the opposite affect and she shoots herself in the foot while we all get to watch. And now I can add in that she is the same person who had a meltdown because a letter that she was temporarily handling was given back to the clerk that it belonged to. For the record, this is also the same lady who trained me.
Well, one of the B vendors is our third-biggest client. As soon as I had the account I set to work on their latest statement and my word was it an absolute WRECK! There were dozens of past due items dating all the way back through October that had not been addressed. The most recent statements hadn't even been touched, and the last one to be looked at was last saved on Nov 9. I went to my boss about it first just because she should be aware that little miss know-it-all, who constantly brags that she is so on top of things while simultaneously complaining about the one vendor of hers, was letting one of our biggest accounts essentially run itself when it is in no condition to do so. I feel kind of bad for bursting my boss's bubble about this lady, but it will turn out to be a good choice. My boss is ridiculously busy, so she can't keep detailed tabs on all 12 people under her. If no one speaks up she won't know there is anything wrong. Anyway, I spoke to my coworker after that, under the guise of comparing notes, and she got super flustered and talked in circles for half an hour. One of our coworkers who sits next to her messaged me right after and commented that we must be tired after all of that tap-dancing. She's not wrong, the whole discussion was a massive waste of my time. I'd be far less irritated if she just owned up to her mess and said that she hasn't been able to keep up with the account. Then I'd have known from the get-go that I was starting at square one, rather than hoping maybe, just maybe, she'd have even mildly useful information for some of the missing items. At leas I am geting a good handle on the account, though. When I took on the position I had a huge vendor in a similar situation, and getting it all sorted out was actually a lot of fun. This whole thing is problem solving, tracking, analyzing data, etc. Stuff that keeps me busy, focused, and interested. I am enjoying piecing it all back together and working with the vendor, but underneath of that I am still really irritated that my coworker let it get to that stage in the first place, and ven more irritated that she is constantly lying to everyone.
My social life is going ok. Been talking to a guy I knew back in high school. We haven't talked in 9 years. After two days of messaging, I remembered why I never esponded to his sporadic attempts at conversation. He got really creepy out of nowhere, talking about remoting into each other's computers to "mess with each other", right after I had said that I had trust issues and am a really private person. Nooooooooope. He pushed it for another few messages, then got the hint and dropped it altogether and talked about the weather where he is at. I thought after nearly a decade maybe he would have grown out of the creepy nonsense, but now I really wonder. It could have just been a one-off thing and I am willing to let it slide for now. Fingers crossed he has grown and that's no longer his norm.
In Trivia news, my team might be switching days of the week. I have very mixed feelings about this. On the plus side, the location we would be switching to has much better quality food, but the service is still on the same level of sub-par. Another plus side is that it is right near my folks' place and they are more than willing to give me a lift from their house so I don't have to fight for a space in the little parking lot. Down sides: We would be switching to Monday nights. Right now it is on Tuesdays, which I really like because it breaks up the week. Also, I go the the gym M/W/F, so Trivia would screw with that schedule. The biggest down side, though, would be seeing Draco. I've known him for over a decade, and I really like his family and they've basically adopted me. But Draco is an absolute asshole, which is the nicest way I can put it and is also a massive understatement. In the early years of our friendship he was an awkward, quiet, nerdy guy. I helped him open up, and when he went off to college for two years he actually thanked me for showing him how to open up and make friends. He was there for me when I went through some difficult stuff, and I have been there to support him though his own troubles. Over the past nearly two years since I moved back to the area, though, he has been getting meaner and more rude and just plain inconsiderate to everyone. I've tried to talk to him about it, but he brushes it off and just keeps being a colossal jerk. I've hit my limit. He finally got himself a job recently after a year of laying around doing nothing, and his hours made it so he couldn't do trivia on Tuesdays. It was so nice not having him there! I was able to talk with everyone else on the team like actual adults! With him there he would literally corner me in the table with himself between me and everyone else, and talk to me about shit I give zero fucks about. Sorry, language, I'm already losing my temper and we haven't even started the new schedule yet. My role on the team is his babysitter, so that he doesn't talk to anyone else and annoy them. The rest of the team is his own relatives and they are so irritated by his shit that they encourage me to keep him distracted so that he doesn't talk to them. What a fucking joke. I love his family like aunts, uncles, and cosins, but I just cannot stand him! I really want to keep up with trivia because it is a fun game and I like seeing his family, but he does not work on Mondays which means he would be joining us again and I am massively not looking forward to it. I already get irritated just thinking about having to see him every other weekend for D&D...
Anyway, that's enough ranting for now. Gonna go back to writing, I think.
Gaming:
Still working on Horizon: Zero Dawn. I finally made it nearly to the end of the main story and I stopped right before everything is about to come to a head. I headed up north and am finally exploring the DLC. I want to like it, but some of the enemies are really iriitating. To the point where I was actually saying out the "What the fuck was that?!" Now, I don't get mad at video games, but I do get irritated. The starting level for the area is 30, and I went in at 45 with max gear moded for max effectiveness. And promptly got my ass handed to me by the first monster. I'm playing on Normal difficulty and really don't want to adjust it for this nonsense. Ugh. Oh well, it's still really interesting to see the story and side missions play out. Plus, Aloy's personality comes through even stronger and there was one NPC she meets that had me cracking up watching her in the background while he was monologuing. The eye rolling and facepalming were a very nice tough.
Destiny 2 also released an exotic qestline for my scond-favorite weapon in the first game, The Last Word. It's a hand cannon, and it was my favorite PvP weapon. I have been slowly working my way through the quest for it, and made it through the worst of it the other day. I learned that when it comes to PvP I need to stick to Rumble, where it s a 6-player free for all. I was winning match after match, and even got up to a 10-kill streak without dying, and had a 4.0 KD in a match! For comparison, my usual KD is around 0.6 (meaning I die twice for approximately every kill I get) and I am lucky to get a 2-kill streak. But that is because I usually play 6v6 matches. I thought since I sucked in the other modes Rumble would be even worse, but I think I have just been mistaken and keeping myself from a mode I am actually good at! It was a great feeling, and I recorded a bunch of the matches as proof that yes I can, in fact, kick ass in PvP.
Reading:
The book club voted, and our February book is The Legend of Sleepy Hollow, by Washington Irving! I haven't read it in about 14 years, but I remember enjoying it. I am looking forward to it. Hopefully we will have more people join in the discussion at the end of the month. We only had three people, myself included, this time around. Rough, but honestly better than I anticipated.
Watching:
I have been watching a Netflix show called You. Creepy stalker dude becomes obsessed with girl, kills her ex and her best friend that suspects him, becomes her boyfriend, etc. It honestly took a turn about 7 episodes in that I didn't expect, but then it backtracked for kind of no reason and picked up where it was before. Still, it is interesting to see this scenario play out in a show, rather than a movie like you normally find it.
Feeling melancholy today. Been writing a bit more lately. Those two thigs seem to go together. Worked on a couple older novel projects. Felt nice to go back and add to them.
Work is going. Not particularly good or bad, just going. I don't think I mentioned that I took on a new set of clients to add to the ones I already had. I am glad that I took them, but the biggest of the bunch was left a diaster. Some context: At work, we split our clients alphabetically. I handled A and C-I, another person handled B and J-Q, and the third person handles R-Z. The coworker who handled B was always complaining that she had too much to do and one of her other vendors was just oh-so-terrible. I offered to our boss to take the letter B back, since it belonged to my predecessor whom I replaced. My boss thought it was a good idea, especially since it belonged to my position anyway and it would just be moving it back home. Well, the change did not go over well with my coworker. She was literally in tears over this. Like, you're always complaining that you can't keep up because of another vendor. You would think this would be a GOOD thing! But this is the same lady who has to reply to every email she gets even if she is just copied on something to have the info for later, who has to narrate everything she does all day even though no one cares, who is always trying to make herself look important and like the smartest person in the department even though her attempts to do so frequently have the opposite affect and she shoots herself in the foot while we all get to watch. And now I can add in that she is the same person who had a meltdown because a letter that she was temporarily handling was given back to the clerk that it belonged to. For the record, this is also the same lady who trained me.
Well, one of the B vendors is our third-biggest client. As soon as I had the account I set to work on their latest statement and my word was it an absolute WRECK! There were dozens of past due items dating all the way back through October that had not been addressed. The most recent statements hadn't even been touched, and the last one to be looked at was last saved on Nov 9. I went to my boss about it first just because she should be aware that little miss know-it-all, who constantly brags that she is so on top of things while simultaneously complaining about the one vendor of hers, was letting one of our biggest accounts essentially run itself when it is in no condition to do so. I feel kind of bad for bursting my boss's bubble about this lady, but it will turn out to be a good choice. My boss is ridiculously busy, so she can't keep detailed tabs on all 12 people under her. If no one speaks up she won't know there is anything wrong. Anyway, I spoke to my coworker after that, under the guise of comparing notes, and she got super flustered and talked in circles for half an hour. One of our coworkers who sits next to her messaged me right after and commented that we must be tired after all of that tap-dancing. She's not wrong, the whole discussion was a massive waste of my time. I'd be far less irritated if she just owned up to her mess and said that she hasn't been able to keep up with the account. Then I'd have known from the get-go that I was starting at square one, rather than hoping maybe, just maybe, she'd have even mildly useful information for some of the missing items. At leas I am geting a good handle on the account, though. When I took on the position I had a huge vendor in a similar situation, and getting it all sorted out was actually a lot of fun. This whole thing is problem solving, tracking, analyzing data, etc. Stuff that keeps me busy, focused, and interested. I am enjoying piecing it all back together and working with the vendor, but underneath of that I am still really irritated that my coworker let it get to that stage in the first place, and ven more irritated that she is constantly lying to everyone.
My social life is going ok. Been talking to a guy I knew back in high school. We haven't talked in 9 years. After two days of messaging, I remembered why I never esponded to his sporadic attempts at conversation. He got really creepy out of nowhere, talking about remoting into each other's computers to "mess with each other", right after I had said that I had trust issues and am a really private person. Nooooooooope. He pushed it for another few messages, then got the hint and dropped it altogether and talked about the weather where he is at. I thought after nearly a decade maybe he would have grown out of the creepy nonsense, but now I really wonder. It could have just been a one-off thing and I am willing to let it slide for now. Fingers crossed he has grown and that's no longer his norm.
In Trivia news, my team might be switching days of the week. I have very mixed feelings about this. On the plus side, the location we would be switching to has much better quality food, but the service is still on the same level of sub-par. Another plus side is that it is right near my folks' place and they are more than willing to give me a lift from their house so I don't have to fight for a space in the little parking lot. Down sides: We would be switching to Monday nights. Right now it is on Tuesdays, which I really like because it breaks up the week. Also, I go the the gym M/W/F, so Trivia would screw with that schedule. The biggest down side, though, would be seeing Draco. I've known him for over a decade, and I really like his family and they've basically adopted me. But Draco is an absolute asshole, which is the nicest way I can put it and is also a massive understatement. In the early years of our friendship he was an awkward, quiet, nerdy guy. I helped him open up, and when he went off to college for two years he actually thanked me for showing him how to open up and make friends. He was there for me when I went through some difficult stuff, and I have been there to support him though his own troubles. Over the past nearly two years since I moved back to the area, though, he has been getting meaner and more rude and just plain inconsiderate to everyone. I've tried to talk to him about it, but he brushes it off and just keeps being a colossal jerk. I've hit my limit. He finally got himself a job recently after a year of laying around doing nothing, and his hours made it so he couldn't do trivia on Tuesdays. It was so nice not having him there! I was able to talk with everyone else on the team like actual adults! With him there he would literally corner me in the table with himself between me and everyone else, and talk to me about shit I give zero fucks about. Sorry, language, I'm already losing my temper and we haven't even started the new schedule yet. My role on the team is his babysitter, so that he doesn't talk to anyone else and annoy them. The rest of the team is his own relatives and they are so irritated by his shit that they encourage me to keep him distracted so that he doesn't talk to them. What a fucking joke. I love his family like aunts, uncles, and cosins, but I just cannot stand him! I really want to keep up with trivia because it is a fun game and I like seeing his family, but he does not work on Mondays which means he would be joining us again and I am massively not looking forward to it. I already get irritated just thinking about having to see him every other weekend for D&D...
Anyway, that's enough ranting for now. Gonna go back to writing, I think.
Gaming:
Still working on Horizon: Zero Dawn. I finally made it nearly to the end of the main story and I stopped right before everything is about to come to a head. I headed up north and am finally exploring the DLC. I want to like it, but some of the enemies are really iriitating. To the point where I was actually saying out the "What the fuck was that?!" Now, I don't get mad at video games, but I do get irritated. The starting level for the area is 30, and I went in at 45 with max gear moded for max effectiveness. And promptly got my ass handed to me by the first monster. I'm playing on Normal difficulty and really don't want to adjust it for this nonsense. Ugh. Oh well, it's still really interesting to see the story and side missions play out. Plus, Aloy's personality comes through even stronger and there was one NPC she meets that had me cracking up watching her in the background while he was monologuing. The eye rolling and facepalming were a very nice tough.
Destiny 2 also released an exotic qestline for my scond-favorite weapon in the first game, The Last Word. It's a hand cannon, and it was my favorite PvP weapon. I have been slowly working my way through the quest for it, and made it through the worst of it the other day. I learned that when it comes to PvP I need to stick to Rumble, where it s a 6-player free for all. I was winning match after match, and even got up to a 10-kill streak without dying, and had a 4.0 KD in a match! For comparison, my usual KD is around 0.6 (meaning I die twice for approximately every kill I get) and I am lucky to get a 2-kill streak. But that is because I usually play 6v6 matches. I thought since I sucked in the other modes Rumble would be even worse, but I think I have just been mistaken and keeping myself from a mode I am actually good at! It was a great feeling, and I recorded a bunch of the matches as proof that yes I can, in fact, kick ass in PvP.
Reading:
The book club voted, and our February book is The Legend of Sleepy Hollow, by Washington Irving! I haven't read it in about 14 years, but I remember enjoying it. I am looking forward to it. Hopefully we will have more people join in the discussion at the end of the month. We only had three people, myself included, this time around. Rough, but honestly better than I anticipated.
Watching:
I have been watching a Netflix show called You. Creepy stalker dude becomes obsessed with girl, kills her ex and her best friend that suspects him, becomes her boyfriend, etc. It honestly took a turn about 7 episodes in that I didn't expect, but then it backtracked for kind of no reason and picked up where it was before. Still, it is interesting to see this scenario play out in a show, rather than a movie like you normally find it.