Exactly One Month Until My 21st Birthday!!!!!!!!! Yesssssssssssssssss

I feel much better today. Off days suck for me. The depression rears its ugly head. I just have to work through it ( Read more... )

I cant stop crying. Everything seems so screwed up. I don't think I've ever felt so alone and afraid as i do right now. I'm scared I'll never mean anything to anyone and I'm afraid that I'll always think I am nothing. The only thing that makes me feel better is writing. So, here i am, writing in a journal once again. I can't look in the mirror ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm biding my time. I have this feeling in my stomach. All i want to do is call this guy and I know I cant. I mean, I just saw him yesterday =/ ... Seriously, its making me a little sick to my stomach but I really like him. I feel and I sound like a teenage girl and it makes me feel pathetic and I cant help it =/ I cant sit still I ( Read more... )

So, I went on another date with the guy from Sunday last night. How do i explain this?? He looked so spiffy. He wore the coolest hat I've ever seen. I like hats lol. We saw Walk the Line, which was actually very good. No matter that we had to drive an hour to get to a theater that was showing it. Stupid small town theaters SUCK! I had fun. a lot of ( Read more... )

Im not quite sure about anything anymore. Im so sick of knowing that this guy likes me and us playing games with each other.... yeesh

2 guys... which is a lot more than a couple of days ago... Life is so random, isnt it? Hmm.. Hope everyone had a wonderful New Year's Eve. I hope it was safe and all that jazz...

I'm in a wierd kind of mood today. I'm not sure what I feel anymore. I passed the wedding aisle of Wal-Mart yesterday and I sat there, staring at the little white flower petals. I'm so depressed and I'm not sure why. My friend, felicia, got engaged on Christmas Eve. It depressed me too. I think I'm that way because I want to be that happy. I look ( Read more... )

Sometimes, I do the stupidest things ever. Yeah- I am so not kidding. Last night was one of those times. I should beat my head against a wall. Maybe I'll beat some sense into myself

1 1/2 weeks down. 5 1/2 months to go....

I busted open a stitch. Its painful.
Yeah-

Merry Christmas everyone!!! I love you all, even if I hate you too!!