Title: Miracle For Us Chapter 20
Characters: Yesung, Siwon
Pairing: YeWon, slight!KiSung
Genre: Mpreg!AU, Fluff
Rating: PG-15
Warning: Heavy Mpreg.
Disclaimer: Fiction. I only own the plot and the story.
Siwon suddenly awakens from his sleep. his bedroom is bright, as he forgot to turn off the lamp before he fell asleep. In reflect he reaches for the spot beside him, and it's still empty. Yesung is not here.
The lawyer now almost blindly looks for his cell phone, and the clock shows that it's still 4 am. He can't help but think about his pregnant husband, is he still in the kitchen waiting for him?
Still barely awake, Siwon walks to the kitchen to check for Yesung. And the pregnant man is still there on the dining table. But he is asleep by putting his head on the table. He also did not drink his milk.
Sleepy Siwon is still too sleepy to feel anything but pity towards the pregnant man. He walks back to their bedroom and comes back bringing a thick blanket. He wraps the blanket on Yesung's body, the petite man doesn't appear to realize what Siwon's doing at all, maybe he's too tired, Siwon shakes his head sadly.
He shakes his head in pity and turns the lamp off, to continue his sleep on the couple's bedroom.
In the morning, Siwon awakes again at 6 am naturally. Upon opening his eyes and seeing the empty space beside him, he recalls a dream he just had.
He dreamed about Yesung, walking in an airport with Kibum. Siwon desperately called his husband while running towards them but they did not hear and kept on walking. Until finally he's close enough and his face was ruined with tears, he patted Yesung's shoulder from behind.
Yesung turned to face him and Siwon's face fell upon seeing that his beautiful husband is carrying a small baby wrapped in a sky-blue blanket in his arm. And of course he's no longer pregnant.
Siwon looked at the small, beautiful baby in Yesung's embrace, and the baby looked back at him with their small eyes. The baby had Yesung's eyes...
"Sungie," Siwon pleaded, "don't go... Don't leave me...."
"I'm sorry Siwon-ah, but i've chosen Kibum," Yesung said and turned away, walking to the gate with Kibum smiling at the lawyer in regret.
Siwon thanks all the deities exists that it was just a dream.
Now he realizes that he can't let Yesung just walk away from his life like that. And bringing their lovechild away with him, leaving the taller man with a heart shattered in a million pieces. When even in a dream it hurt him so much, he can't imagine how much it could actually hurt him in real life.
Siwon shakes his head to clear his mind.
He runs to the bathroom to wash his face quickly, then he bolts to the kitchen to check on his husband. But Yesung is no longer there.
On the table there are a cup of coffee and a plate of toast, along with fried sausage and scrambled egg. Siwon turns around, his eyes scan the room for any sign of his husband, but he's not in the kitchen.
The handsome man searched for Yesung all around the house and he can't find the pregnant man. Then his eyes fall to the scenery outside the house.
The snow had fallen, must be when he was asleep. White snow covers the yard.
Siwon walks back to the bedroom to get his phone. He calls Yesung right away but the pregnant man's cell phone is off.
"Damn it, Yesung," Siwon mutters. "Why are you disappearing again?!"
He sits down on the bed, rubbing his head, annoyed.
He suddenly becomes angry all over again at Yesung. He's been disappearing and being so selfish these days. To add more to his anger, Yesung brings along his first love this time.
"How selfish and immature can you get!!!" Siwon kicks the bedside table in frustration. The bedside lamp falls and breaks, but Siwon really couldn't care less. "Alright, two can play the game," the lawyer balls his fists.
It's Saturday, so Siwon won't have to work, and his latest project with Kibum's company was just finished the first phase. At times like this, he really wants anything to divert his mind from his selfish husband. Siwon angrily browse for news on his phone, but in about fifteen minutes he has to stop because he can't even understand what he's reading.
His mind is too clouded with Yesung. With the beautiful man's childish actions. Refusing to drink pregnancy milk, going out in the cold without warm clothes, and now, disappearing again with no clue.
He walks out of the bedroom to find something to watch on the TV, but upon passing the kitchen, the smell of food makes his stomach growl.
So Siwon eats the breakfast Yesung made for him. Deep inside, he knows that Yesung maybe is not that selfish. The breakfast shows it, the petite man still thinks about his husband. But Siwon's rage makes the food tasted like cardboard.
After eating, Siwon washes his dishes as usual, but then his eyes catches the dirty laundry in the laundry room. The lawyer then proceeds to do the laundry. But of course with the state of the art washing machine, laundry activity doesn't really take time or effort.
He finds himself in a trance again while staring at the washing machine's swirling movement, so he decides to clean the house. The robot cleaner finishes sweeping the floor with Siwon absent-mindedly following it all around the house. Then the laundry is done, Siwon folds the clothes carefully and diligently. He puts all the clothes inside their wardrobe and starts to mop the floor while listening to some music.
He chooses a rock playlist from the iTunes, full with loud songs he has never heard before. The music works like whitenoise, calming him a bit. He then finished mopping the floor, and snaps in anger upon seeing the time.
"It's still 8 am, God damn it," the lawyer throws away the mop on the laundry room harshly. "I've done everything and it's still 8 am."
He then remembers that this mood is the best mood to work out, burning some calories, so he goes out to his gym.
In the garage, he sees that Yesung's car is not there, and he's angry again. At the gym, he runs like a madman on the treadmill, with unknown rock music blasting loudly on his earphones.
Siwon keeps running with high speed on the treadmill until really can't think about Yesung anymore. His count mounts to thousands and he only stops after he missed a step and falls from the machine.
"Hey, hey, are you alright?" someone comes near him and helps him gets up.
"Oh, ye...yeah, guess so," Siwon feels his legs wobbly like jelly.
"I've been watching you... You have been on the treadmill for like three hours nonstop with that speed," the person, who is a bulky man, holds Siwon's shoulder to help him walk to the nearest bench. "While i truly admire you, that is so not right."
The bulky guy leaves Siwon to turn off Siwon's treadmill and brings back Siwon's almost empty water bottle. "I'm a trainer here and i'm serious with this, don't do this again."
"Okay, i understand, thank you Sir..." Siwon pants and drinks his water.
"You might be stressed out and you divert your mind by running in the treadmill. I've seen people like you. Be careful next time, okay?"
The guy walks away but Siwon still catches his name on his shirt. "Thank you, Kim Jongkook-ssi."
Siwon takes a look at his wristwatch, and find that it's the lunch time already. He stays still on his sitting position to normalize his breaths and collect more energy to get up to walk to the cafetaria and gets his lunch.
One Saturday without Yesung, Siwon realizes. And he's completely out of his mind to get through half of it.
Siwon eats his lunch in the gym's cafetaria, his eyes scan the people around him. But actually, his mind is elsewhere with Yesung.
He really wonders what Yesung is doing right now. Where he is. Has he drank his milk? Has he eaten his lunch?
Is Yesung sad, like he is now?
Or is he with Kibum, suddenly a voice inside his mind speaks his worst nightmare.
Luckily, his phone chooses to ring right at that exact moment, before he goes deeper into despair and anger.
"Junjin Hyung," Siwon answers the phone from his colleague. "Oh? I didn't know about that," the lawyer frowns. "No, nobody let me know about this... I mean Dongwan hyung just met me last night and he didn't tell me anything..." Siwon tilts his head to the side to remember something, but then he shakes his head.
"Um, what if, I can't make it, Hyung? I feel a bit unwell," Siwon tries to get away from a social event. Who can blame him? With his current state of mind, he won't be a treat in anyone's party. "What? He really won't be back for two years? How come i didn't know?" the young lawyer's eyes widen. "Ah, okay. Konjiam Resort in Gyeonggi, ah, okay. I'll be there. Tell him that, okay. Bye."
Siwon ends the call and sighs. He's yet to find his missing husband, and now one of his closest friend in the office will suddenly go away to Sweden for two years? And why didn't Dongwan hyung mention this to me once, Siwon shakes his head in disbelief.
So Siwon goes home to get ready for his colleague's farewell party. It will be held in Gyeonggi, about 90 minutes drive from Seoul so he needs to be there at 6 pm sharp and now it's almost 3 pm.
The handsome lawyer blasts his rock music playlist in the car along the drive to Gyeonggi. He simply only wants to empty his mind. But he still manages to drive carefully in the icy road. The last thing he needs to see is his nosy lawyer friends seeing him being frustrated, and he would like to bid farewell to his Dongwan hyung with a proper mood.
The sky is dark when Siwon arrives in Gyeonggi. He turns on his GPS to find the resort, a place so exclusive for a private farewell party. Dongwan hyung really is classy, Siwon think as he enters the complex.
Finally he sees the main building from afar. SIwon parks the car and walks his way to the main building and as he gets closer, the view gets weirder.
The place is a little too dark and too quiet for a party. Well, maybe the party is a super private one inside a private lodge or something. While still walking, he calls Junjin on his phone.
"Hyung, the place is so dark, is the party really private, or something?" he asks. "Ah, okay, i'll just get in then. Bye," the lawyer is convinced by his senior's explanation.
But as he gets closer, he sees something he really didn't expect to see.
Yesung is sitting on the stair of the main building, carrying something that looks like a candle in his hands.
Siwon stops his steps right away. The petite figure has seen him too, and gets up from his seat. The fire in his hands is dancing due to the breezy wind.
"I've been waiting for you," Yesung says with a shaky voice.
"Yesungie," Siwon runs to the small figure spontaniously.
As Siwon gets closer to the small man who still wears his white suit from last night, he sees how swollen the beautiful eyes are. Tears are cascading the chubby cheeks and Siwon can't help but running his hands on those cheeks to erase them.
"Wonie I want you to believe me again," Yesung looks down to the fire on his hands. "So I wait for you here, with a light so you can find me."
Siwon looks at the fire and it is actually a fire lit in a candle on top of a heart-shaped cake, glazed with peach icing. And Siwon just realizes it... There are rose petals in the shape of heart on the floor around them.
"And I want you to know that you're the only one who has my heart," Yesung pushes the cake to Siwon. "Don't you ever doubt me again..."
"Baby... Aren't you cold?" Siwon doesn't understand Yesung's gesture and he asks the only thing that matters right now. "No jacket..."
"I'm crying waiting for you in the cold, because you know..." Yesung's words are stopped when Siwon takes off his jacket and puts it on his petite body.
"Alright, let's find a warm place," Siwon reaches for Yesung's hand to bring him inside the building.
And inside the building there are some people so familiar. Ryeowook, Junjin, and Zhoumi are smiling hopefully at the couple.
But Siwon only smiles while shaking his head at them. "Bring us to your room," he tells Yesung. "Then we can talk."
The bedroom that Yesung brings Siwon in is decorated with petals and candles. Siwon sit Yesung on the bed and with a serious face he examines his husband.
"You waited for me in the cold, because you cried thinking about Kibum in the cold," Siwon states and Yesung nods, still holding the heart-shaped cake with a candlelit.
"I don't get the logic, but i get what you want to convey..." Siwon sighs.
"And my heart is only for you," again Yesung pushes the cake to Siwon. "If me carrying your baby is not a proof enough..."
"Thank you," Siwon receives the cake. "I can't believe you would do this."
"I feel guilty, okay?" Yesung starts to sob. "You doubt me because of my own fault. I can't get more angry at myself."
"Did you punish yourself by waiting for me in the cold?" Siwon caresses Yesung's damp hair.
"I'm sorry, so sorry Wonie. Kibum is my past. Really. I swear to God..."
Siwon doesn't answer for a few minutes, only staring at Yesung sobbing in front of him. He really did not expect Yesung to feel this guilty that he punishes himself like this. Now he admits, maybe he was a little bit too much last night. Yesung had explained to him and he still couldn't believe him.
Not only his beautiful, petite, pregnant husband is sad and guilty, his baby inside him would also feel really bad about what happened.
Siwon puts the heart-shaped cake on a nearby table and hugs his husband, burying him in his warm embrace.
"I'm at the wrong too, for still doubting you. I've known you for years and i should've known that you've never lied to me," Siwon sobs as well now, whispering to Yesung's hair. "And Baby," he hesitates.
"Baby is cold, I'm so sorry for hurting both you and Baby," Yesung mewls.
"Baby is the one most suffering," Siwon releases his hug and goes down to check Yesung's bumpy stomach. "Daddy is so sorry, Baby, for not believing your Papa... You must've felt bad..."
That night, Yesung changes into the lodge's bathrobe and cuddles warmly with Siwon on the bed.
"By the way, how is Junjin hyung here? I understand Ryeowook and Zhoumi, they're your close friends but Junjin hyung?" Siwon asks curiously to the small man in his embrace.
"I... I asked for his help to lure you here," Yesung admits shyly. "I told the three of them that we are celebrating the anniversary of our first sex..." Yesung buries his face on Siwon's chest.
Siwon feels his heart bursts in warmth.
"This bedroom is... so romantic, you know?" Siwon whispers huskily.
"I... know..." Yesung whispers back. "Baby is sleeping, too..."
So, in order to feel warmth in the snowy day, the couple does some hot activities all night.
***TBC***
A/N: this chapter is dedicated to
choding_cloud eonnie which is having her birthday today yay!
A/N2: tomorrow we can go back to Hogwarts! happy packing wizards and witches!