[FIC] You’re My Only Audience
Title: You’re My Only Audience
Pairing: Yunjae
Author: nic88
Length: One-shot
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Warning: Bad ending, lame story.
Summary: N/A
A/n: I’m desperate, so I wrote this. But only read it if you’re free to do so, I think it’s a fail.
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I opened my eyes difficultly.
I could still hear the buzzing sound in my head which made me realized that I got knocked out by someone.
I wondered I could have get back to home while I remembered that I fainted somewhere on the street after I encountered that sudden attack.
Jaejoong was standing in front of me. I could see tears rolling down on his pale cheeks.
I wanted to wipe off his tears but I found myself not able to lift my hands, because my hands were tied with ropes behind the chair I was sitting and my legs were tied too.
I wanted to call his name, but my voice didn’t come out. The sticky substance I felt around my mouth when I tried to speak hinted me that my mouth was now being covered by cello tape.
I furrowed my eyebrows, signaling to Jaejoong, asking why I was in current state.
He did not reply, instead he smiled.
Then I noticed the rope and scissors he was holding in his hands.
Could it be that he was the one who tied me up?
But why?
I tried to struggle off, the knocking sound between the chair legs and the wooden floor was echoed in the quiet room.
I failed and looked at Jaejoong in misbelieve.
Why was he doing this?
He placed his index finger onto his mouth, “Shhh…… Be quiet, we don’t want anyone to hear us.”
Jaejoong…… was acting unusual.
I watched as he turned and took a knife from the drawer.
Although I did not know what he was planning to do, it seemed to be something bad.
He once again stood in front of me, his right hand holding on the knife.
I had no choice but to lift my head slightly to look right at his face.
He was still smiling.
“Yunho.” He spoke softly, which gave me goosebumps.
“Now, you’re looking at me. You’re looking at me. Should I be happy?” I could hear the shiver in his voice.
What happened, Jaejoong? I wanted to ask him but I could not speak and I could not move.
“You know, I only want you as my only audience all the time, but you like to look elsewhere. I always think that it would be lonely to die by myself and to die without an audience, it would be pathetic.” He continued as he held the knife close to his left wrist.
“And now……” He pushed the knife deep inward of his wrist, “You are my only audience to witness my death and you’ll remember me for the rest of your life.”
No, Jaejoong, no!
I shook my head at the sight of red blood rushing out from his wounded wrist.
I wanted to break free of the tie but I could not.
I could only barely watch his life fading away as many seconds and minutes passed.
I watched as he slowly knelt down on the floor, his face was as pale as a sheet of white paper.
His innocent eyes still gazing at me, he tried hard to speak, “Now…… will you only……look at me? You won’t look at…… that girl anymore.”
Jaejoong knew it. He knew what I had been doing behind him
He knew…… I was cheating on him…… with a girl I don’t even love.
Jaejoong and I moved out and lived together two years ago.
Life had been wonderful but as time passed by, we had more frequent quarrels than precious time we spent together.
Our relationship worsened as Jaejoong started to act like a jealous lover.
I was too bothered with his frequent calls asking my location and his repetitive yet unreasonable questions, I need my privacy too.
I got tired of him that I wanted to avoid him as much as I could. So as a girl who had a crush on me approached me, I accepted her.
I thought I was good in keeping it a secret but Jaejoong knew it. He knew it.
Jaejoong……
“Yun……ho……” His weak voice snapped me out from my thoughts.
I could feel him panting hard as his shoulder was trembling.
I felt useless because I could not help him and I was guilty for making him to act this way.
A loud thud sound sounded as his body fell on the floor, his face fell straight on the floor.
Jaejoong! Jaejoong! Wake up!!
Kim Jaejoong, I demand you to wake up!
He did not hear me, I guess.
If not, he would be bouncing up and hug me as he always did.
Jaejoong, I still love you.
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7 days later……
Two male bodies were found in the small house at xxx district. It was believed that one had committed suicide while another one was starved to death……
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I’ve killed Yunjae, so someone please kill me too~ I was just writing this when I thought how pathetic it was if no one witnesses your death, I’m crazy I know.
Need to get back to assignments and tutorial homeworks.