Theme Song :: The Walk
Theme song of the weekend: The Walk by Imogen Heap...
No it's not meant to be like this.
Not what I planned at all.
I don't want to feel like this.
So that makes it all your fault.
(Full lyrics & ysl behind the cut)
The Walk
by Imogen Heap
ysi
Inside-out, upside-down,
Twisting beside myself.
Stop that now,
'Cause you and I were never meant to meet.
I think you'd better leave.
It's not safe in here.
I feel a weakness coming on.
Alright then, (alright then.)
I could keep your number for a rainy day.
That's where this ends.
No mistakes no misbehaving.
I was doing so well.
Could we just be friends?
I feel a weakness coming on.
It's not meant to be like this.
Not what I planned at all.
I don't want to feel like this.
Yeah.
No it's not meant to be like this.
Not what I planned at all.
I don't want to feel like this.
So that makes it all your fault.
Inside-out, upside-down,
Twisting beside myself.
Stop that now.
You're as close as it gets
Without touching me.
Oh now don't make it harder
Than it already is.
I feel a weakness coming on.
It's not meant to be like this.
Not what I planned at all.
I don't want to feel like this.
Yeah.
No it's not meant to be like this.
Not what I planned at all.
I don't want to feel like this.
So that makes it all your fault.
Big trouble losing control.
Primary resistance at a critical low.
on the, on the double gotta get a hold.
Point of no return one second to go.
No response on any level,
Red-alert this vessel's under seige.
Total overload all systems down they've got control.
There's no way out.
We are surrounded.
Give in, give in and relish every minute of it.
Freeze, awake here forever.
I feel a weakness coming on.
It’s not meant to be like this,
Not what I planned at all.
I don’t want to feel like this.
Yeah.
No it’s not meant to be like this,
It's just what I don't need.
Why make me feel like this?
It's definitely all your fault.
Feel like this la la la la la la la la
It’s all your fault (feel like this) la la la la la la la la
It’s all your fault (feel like this) la la la la la la la la
It’s all your fault (feel like this) la la la la la la la la
It’s all your fault.
My last day of work is Friday. Then a week of vacation. Then a week to move. To move away. To Atlanta. For 2 years.
A part of my life is over. Is ending. All of my life is changing.
And I don't need *this* right now. Not that I even know what *this* is. All I know is that a month ago, I didn't want it him at all. And now I do.
You can't tell me that I'm special. That you like me. That you care. You can't try to break down and at the very least breach my long-standing and well-constructed walls. You can't let me let you in. Even with the promise and knowledge and understanding of no future whatsoever. Because the only future I want is the next two weeks. But now... I don't know what's happening.
I'm sure most of it is in my head. Which is where everything is nowadays. And I'm frayed. Pulled in so many damned directions and so taut. Every reaction is an overreaction - good or bad - and I'm sure that it is part of all of it. Everything is in the extreme now. For now.
But I need more time with him. And he's cutting me off or pulling away or just totally unsure.
And he was the brave one first. Which made me brave. But I can only stay out on the limb so long by myself. I coyly told him yesterday afternoon that my roomie was out of town, and that it was the last time I'd have the apartment to myself - implications clear. And there was this huge long chasm of a pause. And I could feel him waiting for me to cross it - to explicitly invite him over. Which I've already done on a few occasions with moderate success (usually due to work schedule conflicts.) But I couldn't. Not again. Couldn't ask when I felt so sure he would say no, and being even more certain he wouldn't ask to come over.
I didn't mean for this to turn into some huge RL confessional.
Sooper Sekrit Msg to serenitysea - Yes, clearly, I'm still here. And, no, the above drama is *not* about WG. WG is done. It's about WG2. Umm...yeah. *Blush*
Looking for more songs reflecting on my current situations... recs please???
Also looking for song recs for the upcoming 12 hour drive from Chicago to Atlanta. *Begs*
No it's not meant to be like this.
Not what I planned at all.
I don't want to feel like this.
So that makes it all your fault.
(Full lyrics & ysl behind the cut)
The Walk
by Imogen Heap
ysi
Inside-out, upside-down,
Twisting beside myself.
Stop that now,
'Cause you and I were never meant to meet.
I think you'd better leave.
It's not safe in here.
I feel a weakness coming on.
Alright then, (alright then.)
I could keep your number for a rainy day.
That's where this ends.
No mistakes no misbehaving.
I was doing so well.
Could we just be friends?
I feel a weakness coming on.
It's not meant to be like this.
Not what I planned at all.
I don't want to feel like this.
Yeah.
No it's not meant to be like this.
Not what I planned at all.
I don't want to feel like this.
So that makes it all your fault.
Inside-out, upside-down,
Twisting beside myself.
Stop that now.
You're as close as it gets
Without touching me.
Oh now don't make it harder
Than it already is.
I feel a weakness coming on.
It's not meant to be like this.
Not what I planned at all.
I don't want to feel like this.
Yeah.
No it's not meant to be like this.
Not what I planned at all.
I don't want to feel like this.
So that makes it all your fault.
Big trouble losing control.
Primary resistance at a critical low.
on the, on the double gotta get a hold.
Point of no return one second to go.
No response on any level,
Red-alert this vessel's under seige.
Total overload all systems down they've got control.
There's no way out.
We are surrounded.
Give in, give in and relish every minute of it.
Freeze, awake here forever.
I feel a weakness coming on.
It’s not meant to be like this,
Not what I planned at all.
I don’t want to feel like this.
Yeah.
No it’s not meant to be like this,
It's just what I don't need.
Why make me feel like this?
It's definitely all your fault.
Feel like this la la la la la la la la
It’s all your fault (feel like this) la la la la la la la la
It’s all your fault (feel like this) la la la la la la la la
It’s all your fault (feel like this) la la la la la la la la
It’s all your fault.
My last day of work is Friday. Then a week of vacation. Then a week to move. To move away. To Atlanta. For 2 years.
A part of my life is over. Is ending. All of my life is changing.
And I don't need *this* right now. Not that I even know what *this* is. All I know is that a month ago, I didn't want it him at all. And now I do.
You can't tell me that I'm special. That you like me. That you care. You can't try to break down and at the very least breach my long-standing and well-constructed walls. You can't let me let you in. Even with the promise and knowledge and understanding of no future whatsoever. Because the only future I want is the next two weeks. But now... I don't know what's happening.
I'm sure most of it is in my head. Which is where everything is nowadays. And I'm frayed. Pulled in so many damned directions and so taut. Every reaction is an overreaction - good or bad - and I'm sure that it is part of all of it. Everything is in the extreme now. For now.
But I need more time with him. And he's cutting me off or pulling away or just totally unsure.
And he was the brave one first. Which made me brave. But I can only stay out on the limb so long by myself. I coyly told him yesterday afternoon that my roomie was out of town, and that it was the last time I'd have the apartment to myself - implications clear. And there was this huge long chasm of a pause. And I could feel him waiting for me to cross it - to explicitly invite him over. Which I've already done on a few occasions with moderate success (usually due to work schedule conflicts.) But I couldn't. Not again. Couldn't ask when I felt so sure he would say no, and being even more certain he wouldn't ask to come over.
I didn't mean for this to turn into some huge RL confessional.
Sooper Sekrit Msg to serenitysea - Yes, clearly, I'm still here. And, no, the above drama is *not* about WG. WG is done. It's about WG2. Umm...yeah. *Blush*
Looking for more songs reflecting on my current situations... recs please???
Also looking for song recs for the upcoming 12 hour drive from Chicago to Atlanta. *Begs*