You make me wanna cry. Was very moved sara. i really was. im not tryin to be sarcastic or anything. i hate going to bed angry.. especially because i will have scary dreams.. but because i knwo that the next morning (normally megan and i) everything will be alright and nothing would have been solved or talked about. its like once the sun goes down the problem is in the past and not worth talking about. I do think that everyone takes life for granted. no one knows how long we all will be here for. its just a matter of time before another one of us goes.
and it shouldnt take a death in our family to see how much we all love each other. its rare that a group can be so large and be filled with such diverse people but we all love each other. i was the last one to come into this group. that actually stuck around anyway. ive seen all the random girls come and go. and the random girls friends. but the core group is still here. i came into this group objectively. and i was blessed with an outside perspective. i see all the fun. and i see how much love there is. its a shame. it really is. alot of it has to do with age. there is a threshold you go thru when you realize you have to work for a living. its the honest truth. when you finally "grow up" you tend to see that friends and weekends are not all that matter in life. but they can be a comfort.
hmmm when am i home. well. i wake up at 9 am every morning if dont have to work and watch dawsons creek. cause usually i dont work till like 11 or 12 or 1 or 3 or something. so i watch dawsons creek at 9 am. then another one at 10 am. then i leave for work at whatever time im supposed to.
then i get home. usually around 11 or 12. cause amanda cant hang out past then. ha. im really never here. but i love that you still call and still love. i really do. its nice just knowing. well amands cell is 543 7894 and if you ever feel like calling that im with her if im not at work! ha. weird? i duno. but fun.
yes, everyone is mad at me probably... some have a reason, others no but it's cool to hate.
i just don't need all of that right now. i've got other things on my plate.
and no leaving the panhandle will not help anything... you'll find the same problems everywhere you go. you can change a bad thing about yourself or change who you surround yourself with. (for idiotboy and btw, i delivered pizza to your parents tonight brian.)
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we all have our plans. or we all dont. but you know running isnt a solution to anything. except weight loss.
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i was the last one to come into this group. that actually stuck around anyway. ive seen all the random girls come and go. and the random girls friends. but the core group is still here. i came into this group objectively. and i was blessed with an outside perspective. i see all the fun. and i see how much love there is. its a shame. it really is. alot of it has to do with age. there is a threshold you go thru when you realize you have to work for a living. its the honest truth. when you finally "grow up" you tend to see that friends and weekends are not all that matter in life. but they can be a comfort.
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I call your house all of the time and your daddy tells me that you aren't home. When are you home? I love you!
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then i get home. usually around 11 or 12. cause amanda cant hang out past then. ha. im really never here. but i love that you still call and still love. i really do. its nice just knowing. well amands cell is 543 7894 and if you ever feel like calling that im with her if im not at work! ha. weird? i duno. but fun.
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i just don't need all of that right now. i've got other things on my plate.
and no leaving the panhandle will not help anything... you'll find the same problems everywhere you go. you can change a bad thing about yourself or change who you surround yourself with. (for idiotboy and btw, i delivered pizza to your parents tonight brian.)
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