[oneshot] Like A Rose, TegoPi, PG-13
Title : Like A Rose
Author : nichiya
Pairing : TegoPi
Rating : PG-13
Genre : au, angst?
Disclaimer : none are mine, except the plot T_T
Words : 5,964
Summary : He could smell her rose scented hair. He just hoped she couldn’t feel his pounding heart beat. She fell asleep first, he secretly kissed her hair. He still could hear her steady breathing sound and how he wished time would stop, and two of them would be together like this forever.
A/N : My first writing after months of hiatus. I always wanted to write Tegoshi as a girl and I used to write het so why not?
Beta-ed by : chartre, thank you so much <33
Like A Rose
Rain poured heavily on the day Yamashita Tomohisa entered his new school. He didn’t like the smell of rain, he never did. He ran with all his might from the gate to the main entrance while covered his head with his new school bag. He sighed when he finally reached the main entrance. Some students were changing their outdoor shoes with their indoor ones. Yamashita’s appearance suddenly caught their attention. Whispers spread like bugs in an instant, but Yamashita didn’t care much. He approached one of male student and asked where he could find the teacher’s room. The boy pointed the direction, Yamashita mumbled an almost barely audible thanks. Then he walked away, still with a cold face.
Around 10 minutes later Yamashita found himself walking slowly behind Nakamura-sensei, his supposed to be homeroom teacher. Nakamura-sensei opened the door with a small banner printed 2-D above it. He waited outside until Nakamura-sensei signaled him to come inside. Again, he could hear whispers around his class. Being transferred in the middle of semester surely wasn’t a normal thing. But he didn’t need anyone to gossip about him in his first day of school. He never asked for one anyway. But despite being annoyed with the strange welcome he received, he still wrote his name on the blackboard, by Nakamura-sensei’s order of course.
“I am Yamashita Tomohisa, a transfer student, please give me guidance,” a simple introduction escaped from his mouth, received another yet whispers around his new classmates.
Do you think he did something bad in his old school?
He’s really cool, I don’t mind dating him.
Are you crazy, he could be a bad boy! Look at his earrings!
Those were some of the whispers he could hear faintly and he clenched his fingers, tried hard not to snarl. He hated being judged like that.
“Yamashita, you can sit in the empty table over there. Tegoshi, please help Yamashita.” Nakamura-sensei’s order somehow made him back to reality. He loosened his fingers down. He had made a decision. He didn’t need friends in this school.
“Yes, sensei!” answered so called Tegoshi, but Yamashita couldn’t tell which one Tegoshi was.
He just simply walked to the empty table. He threw himself to the chair and almost shoved his bag on the table. He clearly wasn’t happy. He had never been happy ever since his father got a new job in this boring town. He had no choice but to move along because he didn’t want his father to live alone. Being the only child, his father has been taking good care of him ever since his mother passed away 5 years ago. He just couldn’t bear to abandon his father for his own selfishness. Yamashita Tomohisa had a heart after all.
“Hi, welcome to 2-D!” he could hear a familiar voice welcoming him.
Was it the same voice he just heard before?
He looked to the source of the voice and found a girl next to him, smiling radiantly at him. It was the first genuine smile he ever received since the day he moved to this town. He could feel his heart beat faster than usual.
He nodded sheepishly. He wondered why suddenly he couldn’t speak any words.
“My name is Tegoshi Yuya, I’m the class head,” said the girl again.
“Ehh?” he never imagined the head class was a girl before. More over a very pretty girl, with beautiful big brown eyes, cute nose, small lips and high cheek bone. A short fringe framed her face and long brown hair fell down by her shoulder. He was stunned once again.
“Haha yes, my name is a bit masculine, right? My parents always wanted a son, but yeah they have a daughter instead,” she chuckled upon Yamashita’s reaction.
“Ohh!” once again Yamashita could barely say anything, he wanted to respond this nice girl properly, but his lips couldn’t cooperate with his brain.
“If you didn’t make the introduction in front of class earlier, I would have thought you couldn’t speak Japanese,” she teased and cause Yamashita’s face turned red all the sudden.
“I-I speak Japanese,” Yamashita defended himself weakly. He was so embarrassed.
“Well, Japanese speaker Yamashita-kun, we will have English class shortly, do you have the textbook already?”
Yamashita’s eyes grew larger, he didn’t have the textbooks yet, he even didn’t know the daily class schedule. He shook his head. He was surprised when she moved her table close to his, and spread the textbook in the middle so both of them could read together. They stayed like that for the rest of the day.
***
Yamashita exhaled when the bell finally rang. He survived on his first day in this new school. He stretched his hands up behind his ears. He looked around, almost all his classmates have already gone, or so he thought. Tegoshi Yuya was still there, still sitting next to him. Rain was still pouring though not as heavy as before.
“Tegoshi-san?” he took all his courage to call her name. He never really had experience with girls before. He always entered an all boys’ school since elementary school.
“Yes, Yamashita-kun?”
“Why you are still here? Don’t you want to go home?”
“Home? Ahh, in a minute, I have some documents to be handed out to Nakamura-sensei. Could you give me a hand?” she asked with her sweetest smile.
How I could resist that smile?
Being a gentleman, he picked the heaviest books and only let her carry light papers. They walked to the teacher’s room side by side. He finally noticed how small she was. Her height barely passed his shoulder. She looked so thin and fragile under that sailor uniform. Her skirt wasn’t as short as the other girls had, just around her knees. He didn’t know why he kept on observing her until they arrived in front of the teacher’s room.
She knocked on the door. They came inside and handed all the books, papers and documents to Nakamura-sensei. He never thought how hard it was to be a class head. They excused themselves and bowed before stepped out from the office.
After changing shoes, they walked to the main entrance and saw the rain suddenly turn heavy again. Both of them stood there for a while until …
“Yamashi-“
“Tego-“
Both chuckled for being trapped in the awkwardness.
“Well, ladies first,” said Yamashita.
“Thank you for helping me.”
“Ahh, no problem. You also helped a lot today by lending the books for today’s lessons.”
He got a smile as a reply. Silence came between them once again.
“Uhm, I better go now, see you tomorrow!”
“Hey! Wait!”
Yamashita stopped at his track and turned around to face her with a questioned look on his face.
“You didn’t bring an umbrella, right? If you don’t mind, you can use mine.” She suddenly opened her school bag and picked out a pink patterned foldable umbrella and passed it to him.
“Ehh, how about yourself?”
“It’s okay, I can wait until the rain stops.”
“No, I can’t accept this. You should go home soon too! Your parents must be worried.” He handed back the umbrella to her. She bit her lips.
“How about we share this umbrella?” she suggested.
They ended up walking together under the same umbrella.
***
They didn’t say any words during the journey home. Her umbrella was so small, so they had to shift their bodies close to each other. He could smell the scent of her shampoo, it was sweet like roses. He liked it instantly. Once she tripped a little and Yamashita had to grasp her waist to prevent her from falling. She was light like a feather and so fit in his arm, both were blushing. She whispered thanks and he nodded coolly.
They remained silent, until they reached her house. She asked for his address before and told him that her house was nearer, therefore they would stop at her house first and Yamashita could bring home her umbrella. He stunned seeing her house, it was big and he could tell she came from a wealthy family. He felt so small all of a sudden. He only lived in a small flat with two tiny bedrooms for him and his father. He was nothing compared to her.
“Well, thanks for walking me home, Yamashita-kun. I’ll see you tomorrow, kay?”
“Thanks for the umbrella too.”
She smiled, waved him goodbye and disappeared inside the big house. Yamashita sighed. He lost the battle even before he started it. A boy from a poor family would never match with a girl from a rich family. He shrugged and got ready to continue walking home until something bothered him. He stared at the name engraved on her gate. It was written as “NISHIKIDO” not “TEGOSHI”.
***
The next day, Yamashita was given the daily schedules for his class, text books and also training packs for P.E. class by Nakamura-sensei. He just noticed that the first lesson for that day was P.E. and it already started 5 minutes ago. He hurried himself to the nearest male toilet and got changed. He tore the plastic of the training packs and cringed upon the t-shirt, it was soft pink! Yamashita would never wear something pink, ever! He always thought pink never suited for male specimen. He hesitated to wear it, but he had no choice. He changed quickly, but something was wrong. The t-shirt was kind a little too tight for him. Damn, sensei gave the wrong size for me! he cursed inside his mind. He was late. He had no time to change the t-shirt.
Yamashita entered the sport hall. The first thing he heard was number of giggle sounds from the girls. He could feel some of them pointing at him as well. Some boys started to laugh, and he finally realized he became the object of their laughter. It took him a while before he noticed all boys actually wore white t-shirt not pink. The pink ones were for girls. He could feel all the blood rushed up to his cheek, he never felt so embarrassed like this before.
Nakamura-sensei approached him.
“Yamashita, why are you wearing pink? Did I give you the wrong t-shirt?”
He gritted his teeth. He was almost this close to punch Nakamura-sensei right into his face. But somehow he managed to stay calm and nod.
“Tegoshi! Go help Yamashita!” ordered Nakamaru-sensei.
Yuya went up from the floor. She was waiting her turn for the volley practice. Yamashita swore he could see her evil grin before she spoke, “Yes, sensei!”
She led Yamashita out of the hall, and they walked side by side with her smiling widely and sometimes stole a glance at his t-shirt.
“You must be very happy right now. Please stop it!”
“I’m sorry for being rude, Yamashita-kun. But you do look good in pink!” replied her with hands covered her mouth trying hard for not laughing.
“I AM NOT!” retorted Yamashita.
“Ok ok, I won’t laugh anymore. But hey, I think I have a nickname for you now. Ya-Ma-Pi! Isn’t it cute? I’m a genius after all.”
Yamashita blinked.
“Y-Yamapi? What do you mean??”
“Friends have nickname for each other right? So I give you a nickname. Do you like it?”
His heart raced and he could feel his cheek was flushed like a red tomato. He didn’t like the idea of getting a nickname from a pink t-shirt, but it was from Tegoshi. And it was his first nickname ever.
“But Tegoshi, I don’t have a nickname for you.”
“Call me Yuya or whatever you like. But you have to promise me one thing.”
“What is it?” asked Yamapi curiously.
“Only I can call you Yamapi.”
Yamashita stopped at his track. He looked Tegoshi with questioning eyes, but he didn’t see a smile on her face. She was being serious. Deep inside, he was happy for getting that nickname. Despite how silly it might sound, but still it was something precious that Tegoshi gave him.
“Sure Yuya, it’s a promise.”
They linked each other pinkies as a sign of promise. And it was the start of their friendship.
***
Day by day, they became closer to each other. She helped him a lot with his studies as he realized his old school was quite left behind from the curriculum of his new school. He also always waited for her to finish her task as head class after school. He wondered why she had to do everything by herself and why she didn’t have any friends. All the girls in their class ignored her, or so he thought. They never invited her to join lunch or whatever. And it bothered him more once he caught some of them gossiping her one day.
“Ne Yuya is fast, ne! Look on she claimed Yamashita-kun as hers already!” spurred a girl.
“Hell yeah! She doesn’t give us a chance to know him,” replied another girl.
“She is such a slut. I thought she was dating that Nishikido-senpai, they live in the same house now,” added the third girl.
Yamapi never cared to remember their names, but he hated how they gossiped about his friend behind her back. The truth was he and Yuya were running some errands for Nakamura-sensei, but Yuya said she left something in the class and asked him to bring it immediately. So the girls didn’t aware of his sudden come back.
“Could all of you shut up?” snapped Yamapi as he barged inside the class.
The girls stopped talking. They were surprised to see him and were scared of his angry expression.
“Yamashita-kun, please don’t take it seriously. We are just joking,” said the first girl.
“If you all have problem with her, just tell it in front of her, don’t talk behind her back!”
“Hey, what are you? Her boyfriend? You have no idea how slut she is!” hissed the third girl.
“PLEASE STOP!”
All heads turned to the door and saw Yuya stood there with tears in her eyes. They were speechless. The girls looked away, didn’t dare to face her. She quickly grabbed her school bag and ran away. Yamapi followed her. It was easy to catch her. He caught her by her arm and embraced her from behind, not caring pairs of eyes looking at them in the corridor. She stood dazed but suddenly struggled.
“Stop following me!!” she shouted before she ran again, faster this time.
But Yamapi didn’t give up easily. He still followed her and found her sitting on the grass in the park near their school. No more tears in her face, she just gazed blankly. He slowly walked to her direction, afraid she might run again. She seemed calmer and she let him sat next to her. She sighed.
“Yuya, are you okay?” worried Yamapi.
“I’m fine, Pi.”
“I’m sorry for what happened. I wish I could stop them.”
“It’s okay, Pi. They used to be my friends, so I know them. It’s not your fault.”
“Used to?”
“Four of us used to be best friends until my parents died in accident early this semester.”
Yamapi felt stunned at her words, he had known her for couple of weeks already, but he knew nothing about her family. He always wondered why the name in the gate wasn’t her surname but he couldn’t ask about it. Now everything was somehow clear to him.
“I’m so sorry to hear about your parents, Yuya.”
“Since I live with my aunt’s family, I couldn’t hang out with them anymore. I always said no if they invited me to karaoke or shopping after school, coz I simply don’t have any money for that. And soon after they stopped inviting me and we just stopped being friends.”
Yamapi was speechless, he never understood how cheap friendship could be.
“I actually don’t mind. They could just do whatever they like. It’s not the first time they talked bad things about me,” started Yuya again.
“They are just jealous, Yuya.”
“Jealous? Why?” her eyes grew larger, and Yamapi was just lost in her beautiful eyes.
“You are smarter and prettier, that’s why!”
“I’m not pretty,” denied Yuya, but he could see a pink blush in her cheeks.
“Believe me, you are!”
“Thank you, Pi! I’m glad that I have you as my friend.”
Yamapi’s heart ached upon hearing the “friend” word escaped from her lips. He didn’t want to be just normal friend with her. He wanted more, and it’s not best friend either. He wanted to be her boyfriend, he wanted to protect her. This whole thing was new to him, he never been in any relationship before. He wasn’t ugly or nerdy, he knew most girls in their class have a crush on him. He received an amount of love letters in his locker, but he never opened and replied to them. He only wanted one girl right now, and that girl was Tegoshi Yuya. But he didn’t know how to express his feeling, he was afraid of rejection.
“Yuya, let’s upgrade our friendship to best friends.”
He got an excited nod from her as a reply. He admitted how cowardly he was.
***
She arrived home later that afternoon. It’s still strange for her to call that big house as home. She realized it would never be her home. She just stayed there because of her aunt’s kindness. Her aunt was her mother’s cousin. She was the only relative she has in that small town. She adored her, and always said she wanted a daughter and was so happy to have Yuya in her house. Her husband died few years ago and she has a son named Nishikido Ryo. He was her senior at school, Ryo graduated last year and now studying at University, he went home only on holidays.
“I’m home.”
No reply.
Ah, Auntie must be still at work.
She walked to the kitchen and surprised to see a figure there.
“Ryo-kun?”
Ryo turned around and smirked at her. His face was red, his step was tipsy, and he held a bottle of beer in his hand. He was definitely drunk. And she had a bad feeling about this.
“Yuya-chaaannn!! Long time no see! Don’t you miss meeeee??” Ryo greeted her with his unusual cheerfulness. Alcohol was taking over him for sure.
“You are drunk, Ryo-kun,” replied her, taking some steps behind. She didn’t like the smell of alcohol in his breath.
“Where are you going? I miss youuuuuu!” Ryo tried to hug her but she managed to escape from him.
“I-I’m going to study. Good night, Ryo-kun!”
She made a run to her bedroom upstairs. She never felt so afraid like this before. She wished that her aunt would come back soon. She locked the door behind her and shoved her bag to her bed. She started changing her sailor uniform to her pajamas. Suddenly the door was unlocked, and Ryo showed up with his creepy grin. A duplicated key in his hand. He locked the door again and tossed the key somewhere on the floor. She quickly grabbed back her sailor top to cover her upper body. Lucky she was still wearing her bra.
“GET OUT!”
“Tsk Yuya, don’t be so tense! I have seen more than that.”
“W-what?”
“Your beautiful naked body under the shower, that’s what I mean.”
“Y-You are sick! Get out please!!”
She took few steps behind until she felt a cold wall met her back. She was trapped. She could feel tears started falling from the corner of her eyes. Ryo harshly took her sailor top from her hands, she was still wearing bra and skirt and but she already felt totally naked in front of him.
“Please don’t touch me, please!” she begged with tears still flowing from her eyes.
“Psst, don’t worry. I will make you feel good, you will like it,” whispered Ryo with his hoarse voice full of lust.
His left hand forcedly chained both of her hands up across her head. His right hand started touching her tight and disappeared inside her skirt, between her legs. She felt disgusted. She wanted to scream but her mouth was sealed with his gross sloppy kiss. She tried kicking him away from her, only to receive a slap on her face and some punches in her stomach which made her fall down on the floor.
But the pain she got from the violence wasn’t even half of the painful she received when Ryo raped her virginity.
***
She woke up the next morning, feeling sore in whole of her naked body. She winced when she tried to move her legs, her intimate area hurt like hell. She covered her face with both hands and started crying. She just couldn’t believe what had happened last night. Ryo was technically her cousin, but he still raped her, not just once, but multiple times until he was satisfied. She felt so dirty and ashamed of herself.
She got up from her bed with all the power she had left, she glanced and saw stain of bloods in her bed sheet. She sighed and reminded herself to change and wash before her aunt found it. She loved her aunt, she always treated her like her own daughter, the daughter she never had. But she also knew that her aunt adored her son more than anything in this world. So her words against his wouldn’t make any difference. She wouldn’t believe her after all.
She slowly walked to the bathroom, looking herself in the mirror. The girl with swollen lips, bruised eyes, hickeys all over her neck and breasts. She wished the girl she saw in the reflection wasn’t her. She knew she wasn’t in the state of going to school today. She took a shower, cleaned and washed her face and body in excessive way, but she still felt dirty no matter how hard she brushed and cleaned herself. She hated Ryo.
***
Yamashita looked around his class in disbelief. He hadn’t seen Yuya the whole day. He thought she was doing some errands for Nakamura-sensei when he saw her empty table beside him. But after lunch, still no sign of her. He started to worry and regretted for not exchanging cell phone numbers. He forgot to ask yesterday. He decided to visit her house after school.
***
He nervously pressed the bell of the Nishikido household. It was only on his third attempt when he saw her opened the door and blinked her eyes in surprise. She never expected him to visit her that day. She relieved that she could cover the bruises on her face with make-up and she wore turtle neck shirt.
“Yamapi? What are you doing here?”
“You didn’t come to school. I-I’m worried.”
Silence.
“Yuya?”
“Ah, I’m fine,” she startled a bit.
“But why you didn’t go to school today?” he demanded. He could sense something was wrong.
She seemed reluctant, she looked around. She hadn’t seen Ryo the whole day, and her aunt already informed her by phone that she would have 3 days of training in Tokyo. She was actually scared to be alone in the house with Ryo again. Traumatized would be the right word actually. But she had no one else to turn to, until Yamapi came.
“Ne Pi, can I stay at your place tonight?”
“W-What??”
“I will be alone in this house, and I’m scared.”
“But my father won’t be home tonight, he has to do extra hours at the office. So there will be only two of us.”
Another silence.
“Yuya?”
“It’s okay. At least I won’t be alone.”
She didn’t know why she trusted him. She only knew that she felt comfortable around him. She didn’t wait for his answer, she told him to wait outside while she hurriedly packed anything she needed for the next 2 days. She wrote a messy note saying that she would stay at friend’s house and stuck it on the fridge.
She went outside and he was still standing there waiting for her.
***
They arrived at Yamashita’s flat. He apologized for having such small flat, and she chuckled and told him to stop worrying. She liked his flat. It was very clean and neat. It reminded her for her old flat with her parents. They weren’t a wealthy family but at least they had each other. She almost shed a tear remembering her late parents. She shook her head. She didn’t want him to see her crying. She had enough of crying that day.
She cooked spaghetti for dinner. She was delighted as he finished everything and praised her cooking. They washed the dishes together. Somewhere in his mind, he thought they were like a married couple already. And he blushed. He was glad she didn’t notice it. She copied the lessons she missed when she was absent that day. No homework so he spent the night watching TV. Rain started to fall outside.
She finished copying his notes, few yawns escaped from her mouth. He told her to sleep in his room and he would sleep in his father’s room. She nodded and entered his room. She teased him for his bed cover, it was doraemon. And he denied saying it was a gift from his mother long time ago. She just smiled seeing him panic like that.
He finally excused himself and went to the room next door. She changed her clothes to her pajamas and crawled to the bed. Rain still fell heavily with thunders. She hated the sound of it. Suddenly lighting hit the sky and everything was pure black. She gasped in the darkness. Soon after she could hear knocks on the door, she opened it and saw him on the dim light of small candle he held in his hand.
“Sorry, but I think we just have a black out,” informed Yamashita with a regret expression.
“Yamapi, I’m scared of darkness,” she was just about to cry.
“I can get more candles, please wait a mo-”
“Will you sleep with me?”
“Ehh?”
“No no no, I mean not that kind of “sleep”. I just want you to sleep beside me, at least until the light goes on again,” she explained with a red face.
“But Yuya, I’m a boy and you are a girl.”
“I believe in you, Pi.”
They ended up sleeping together in his small bed, still wearing pajamas with him cuddled her from behind. He could smell her rose scented hair. He just hoped she couldn’t feel his pounding heart beat. She fell asleep first, he secretly kissed her hair. He still could hear her steady breathing sound and how he wished time would stop, and two of them would be together like this forever. They stayed in that spoon position until morning came.
***
They went to school together. She was relieved the hickey marks somehow disappeared, so she didn’t need to cover her neck anymore, but she still borrowed his muffler. Everyone at school started gossiping them as a new item. They didn’t care. They seemed to live in their own world, just two of them. Pairs of eyes starring at them with jealousy, but some thought how they became the perfect couple. They were always together, always. They didn’t need any lame lovey dovey words to describe how they love each other.
School already finished an hour ago. They stayed behind doing some errands for Nakamura-sensei. They were ready to go home when she stopped at her track to see a figure at the gate. Nishikido Ryo was leaning his back on the wall with cigarette on his hand. He smirked once he saw her and threw his half-finished cigarette to the ground. She shifted her body closer to Yamapi, shuddered. Yamapi knew something was wrong. He wrapped her arm to her shoulder in protective way. They didn’t move an inch. He stared at Ryo who walked freely to their direction.
Ryo stopped in front of them, just a meter away. He snorted.
“What are you doing here?” her voice broke the silence.
“Yuya, I miss you. Let’s go home, shall we?” replied Ryo with his sweet voice. His hand stretched out to reach her. But Yamapi shoved his hand and pulled her closer to him. Ryo’s face changed, he was annoyed.
“Who are you? Her boyfriend?” asked Ryo with angry voice.
“I’m Yamashita Tomohisa, and yes I’m her boyfriend!” retorted Yamapi with same angry voice. She gave him a puzzled look, but she nodded, agreeing his statement.
“Haha, you could be her boyfriend like I care, but you have to know, she’s mine already,” mocked Ryo with evil grin on his face.
Her face turned pale all the sudden. And she surprised when Yamapi released his arm around her and walked to Ryo in anger then blew a fist on his jaw. Hard. Ryo didn’t see it coming, he was taken aback and nursed his jaw. He spitted blood from his mouth and was ready to punch Yamapi back.
“ENOUGH! PLEASE STOP! BOTH OF YOU!!” Yuya screamed out loud. The two guys looked at her, but they calmed and took some steps back from each other.
“Ryo, please go! Or I will tell what you have done to the police!” she said again, she didn’t mean it, but she knew she had to threat him.
“You wouldn’t dare!” replied Ryo cynically.
“Try me!” dared her.
Ryo saw the serious look in her eyes. He retreated himself. He didn’t want to deal with the police. He was a coward bastard after all.
“Remember Yuya, you are mine!!” declared Ryo before he went away.
She was relieved that he was gone, she could feel her body getting weaker and so she fell to the ground. Yamapi caught her just in time. She cried in his chest. He caressed her hair and whispered her everything would be okay. She pulled herself from him after a while. She looked for a tissue and wiped her tears. She looked Yamapi into his eyes. He was obviously confused.
“I’m sorry Pi. But I think I can’t be your girlfriend,” started Yuya, not daring to face him anymore.
“But why Yuya? You don’t love me?” replied Yamapi with miserable voice.
“I do love you, Pi. But you don’t deserve me. I’m dirty.”
“What are you talking about?”
“That guy … Ryo, he raped me. And I don’t want to talk about this right now. So please don’t make it harder for me. We can’t be together.”
“That bastard!! We have to report about this!”
“NO!! DON’T DO THAT!”
“Why Yuya? What he did was a crime. He deserved to be in jail.”
“I don’t want to make my aunt sad. She has been so kind to me. Please understand my situation, Pi.”
Yamapi grunted in depression. He felt useless. He didn’t want to lose her. He didn’t care if she had lost her virginity with someone else, it wouldn’t change his feeling to her at all. He still loved her.
“Yuya, you can stay in my house. It’s a small flat, but you can use my bedroom, I can sleep in the living room. When we are legal, I will marry you.”
Her eyes widened in surprise. She felt really touched with his offer. But she couldn’t accept it. She didn’t want to ruin his future. Her future. Their future. They were both still young; being tight in marriage in such a young age was never crossed in her mind.
“Yamapi, you are so nice. I wish it will be that easy. But I can’t do that.”
Before he argued her back, she hugged him tight. He was surprised at her action, but he hugged her back. They stayed like that for a while. Then she released her hands from him. She tip-toed and kissed him on the lips. Their first kiss, soft and sweet.
“Goodbye Yamapi. Please leave me alone for a while. I need to think everything out, kay? Thank you for everything.”
Yamapi could only watch her back when she walked away from him. He cried without he realized it. His first tears after his mother passed away 5 years ago. Goodbyes always hurt. Always.
***
Tegoshi Yuya never went to school again. Nakamura-sensei announced that she had been transferred to another school, and no matter how many times he asked where she moved, sensei would never tell him. It was her own request after all. Yamapi checked Nishikido’s household after school. It was very quiet. No matter how many times he pressed the bell button, no one opened the door. He asked the neighbors around. They didn’t inform him much except that Nishikido family moved out in the middle of the night.
***
5 years later
Yamashita Tomohisa finally graduated from his university. His application to work in a famous bank in Tokyo was accepted. Soon he would start his new life as a salary man. He was happy to be back in the city. His best friend from university Akanishi Jin invited him to his birthday party. He wasn’t a party type of guy but Jin would kill him if he didn’t show up. So he decided to come to the party.
The party was held in a famous club. He congratulated Jin then sat down in a secluded area. He didn’t feel like to party at all, but he ordered some beers anyway. He needed distraction. Some girls tried to get his attention, but he didn’t feel like playing around. In fact ever since Yuya went away, he never fell in love with another girl again. His love life was empty. He still couldn’t forget her at all.
“Yamapi?”
He was shocked when he heard someone calling him with that nickname. There was only one person who would call him that him, and that person was …
“Yuya!”
Yes, Tegoshi Yuya was standing in front of him. She was smiling to him, the same sincere radiant smile. He was speechless for a moment. She was still beautiful, no, even more beautiful in soft make-up and simple pink dress. Her hair still fell down her shoulder with lighter color and soft wavy curls. She was the prettiest girl in the club.
He stood up from his seat and still admired her.
“Will you stop staring at me?”
“Sorry Yuya, but you are so beautiful! How are you? And where have you been?”
“I’m fine, Pi,” teased her, simply ignoring his last question.
“Why you moved without telling me? 5 years, Yuya, 5 years!”
“I know Pi, I’m sorry! But I did tell you that I need to settle everything right? I have settled everything now. I’m a free girl.”
“What do you mean?”
“I eventually called my aunt, we sort made a deal. She didn’t want anyone in the town to know about what her beloved son did to me. It was a disgraceful thing for sure. So my aunt sent me to a dorm school and university. I told her that I didn’t need her money, just give me enough education so I can live on my own after I graduated. So here I am.”
“How about that bastard?”
“Ryo-kun? He already apologized, and I think I have forgiven him, sort of. It doesn’t matter. I have never met him again either,” she shrugged.
“I miss you, Yuya.”
“I miss you too, Pi.”
“Can we start over? I still love you.”
She didn’t answer his question, but instead she pressed her lips into his softly. She broke the kiss then smiled. Sometimes action was more efficient than word. He took it a yes and kissed her back passionately. Her hair still smelled like a rose and he still liked it.
***
The end
Finally it’s finished. I need almost 2 weeks to finish this almost 6,000 words fic ^^;; I’m such a loser. Hope you all will like it. The title is stolen from one of A1’s songs. A bit cheesy I know. Sorry no smut in this fic, I failed at smut. And I’m sorry for making Ryo a rapist bastard here. I still love Ryo, I really do.
Comments are love.
Author : nichiya
Pairing : TegoPi
Rating : PG-13
Genre : au, angst?
Disclaimer : none are mine, except the plot T_T
Words : 5,964
Summary : He could smell her rose scented hair. He just hoped she couldn’t feel his pounding heart beat. She fell asleep first, he secretly kissed her hair. He still could hear her steady breathing sound and how he wished time would stop, and two of them would be together like this forever.
A/N : My first writing after months of hiatus. I always wanted to write Tegoshi as a girl and I used to write het so why not?
Beta-ed by : chartre, thank you so much <33
Like A Rose
Rain poured heavily on the day Yamashita Tomohisa entered his new school. He didn’t like the smell of rain, he never did. He ran with all his might from the gate to the main entrance while covered his head with his new school bag. He sighed when he finally reached the main entrance. Some students were changing their outdoor shoes with their indoor ones. Yamashita’s appearance suddenly caught their attention. Whispers spread like bugs in an instant, but Yamashita didn’t care much. He approached one of male student and asked where he could find the teacher’s room. The boy pointed the direction, Yamashita mumbled an almost barely audible thanks. Then he walked away, still with a cold face.
Around 10 minutes later Yamashita found himself walking slowly behind Nakamura-sensei, his supposed to be homeroom teacher. Nakamura-sensei opened the door with a small banner printed 2-D above it. He waited outside until Nakamura-sensei signaled him to come inside. Again, he could hear whispers around his class. Being transferred in the middle of semester surely wasn’t a normal thing. But he didn’t need anyone to gossip about him in his first day of school. He never asked for one anyway. But despite being annoyed with the strange welcome he received, he still wrote his name on the blackboard, by Nakamura-sensei’s order of course.
“I am Yamashita Tomohisa, a transfer student, please give me guidance,” a simple introduction escaped from his mouth, received another yet whispers around his new classmates.
Do you think he did something bad in his old school?
He’s really cool, I don’t mind dating him.
Are you crazy, he could be a bad boy! Look at his earrings!
Those were some of the whispers he could hear faintly and he clenched his fingers, tried hard not to snarl. He hated being judged like that.
“Yamashita, you can sit in the empty table over there. Tegoshi, please help Yamashita.” Nakamura-sensei’s order somehow made him back to reality. He loosened his fingers down. He had made a decision. He didn’t need friends in this school.
“Yes, sensei!” answered so called Tegoshi, but Yamashita couldn’t tell which one Tegoshi was.
He just simply walked to the empty table. He threw himself to the chair and almost shoved his bag on the table. He clearly wasn’t happy. He had never been happy ever since his father got a new job in this boring town. He had no choice but to move along because he didn’t want his father to live alone. Being the only child, his father has been taking good care of him ever since his mother passed away 5 years ago. He just couldn’t bear to abandon his father for his own selfishness. Yamashita Tomohisa had a heart after all.
“Hi, welcome to 2-D!” he could hear a familiar voice welcoming him.
Was it the same voice he just heard before?
He looked to the source of the voice and found a girl next to him, smiling radiantly at him. It was the first genuine smile he ever received since the day he moved to this town. He could feel his heart beat faster than usual.
He nodded sheepishly. He wondered why suddenly he couldn’t speak any words.
“My name is Tegoshi Yuya, I’m the class head,” said the girl again.
“Ehh?” he never imagined the head class was a girl before. More over a very pretty girl, with beautiful big brown eyes, cute nose, small lips and high cheek bone. A short fringe framed her face and long brown hair fell down by her shoulder. He was stunned once again.
“Haha yes, my name is a bit masculine, right? My parents always wanted a son, but yeah they have a daughter instead,” she chuckled upon Yamashita’s reaction.
“Ohh!” once again Yamashita could barely say anything, he wanted to respond this nice girl properly, but his lips couldn’t cooperate with his brain.
“If you didn’t make the introduction in front of class earlier, I would have thought you couldn’t speak Japanese,” she teased and cause Yamashita’s face turned red all the sudden.
“I-I speak Japanese,” Yamashita defended himself weakly. He was so embarrassed.
“Well, Japanese speaker Yamashita-kun, we will have English class shortly, do you have the textbook already?”
Yamashita’s eyes grew larger, he didn’t have the textbooks yet, he even didn’t know the daily class schedule. He shook his head. He was surprised when she moved her table close to his, and spread the textbook in the middle so both of them could read together. They stayed like that for the rest of the day.
***
Yamashita exhaled when the bell finally rang. He survived on his first day in this new school. He stretched his hands up behind his ears. He looked around, almost all his classmates have already gone, or so he thought. Tegoshi Yuya was still there, still sitting next to him. Rain was still pouring though not as heavy as before.
“Tegoshi-san?” he took all his courage to call her name. He never really had experience with girls before. He always entered an all boys’ school since elementary school.
“Yes, Yamashita-kun?”
“Why you are still here? Don’t you want to go home?”
“Home? Ahh, in a minute, I have some documents to be handed out to Nakamura-sensei. Could you give me a hand?” she asked with her sweetest smile.
How I could resist that smile?
Being a gentleman, he picked the heaviest books and only let her carry light papers. They walked to the teacher’s room side by side. He finally noticed how small she was. Her height barely passed his shoulder. She looked so thin and fragile under that sailor uniform. Her skirt wasn’t as short as the other girls had, just around her knees. He didn’t know why he kept on observing her until they arrived in front of the teacher’s room.
She knocked on the door. They came inside and handed all the books, papers and documents to Nakamura-sensei. He never thought how hard it was to be a class head. They excused themselves and bowed before stepped out from the office.
After changing shoes, they walked to the main entrance and saw the rain suddenly turn heavy again. Both of them stood there for a while until …
“Yamashi-“
“Tego-“
Both chuckled for being trapped in the awkwardness.
“Well, ladies first,” said Yamashita.
“Thank you for helping me.”
“Ahh, no problem. You also helped a lot today by lending the books for today’s lessons.”
He got a smile as a reply. Silence came between them once again.
“Uhm, I better go now, see you tomorrow!”
“Hey! Wait!”
Yamashita stopped at his track and turned around to face her with a questioned look on his face.
“You didn’t bring an umbrella, right? If you don’t mind, you can use mine.” She suddenly opened her school bag and picked out a pink patterned foldable umbrella and passed it to him.
“Ehh, how about yourself?”
“It’s okay, I can wait until the rain stops.”
“No, I can’t accept this. You should go home soon too! Your parents must be worried.” He handed back the umbrella to her. She bit her lips.
“How about we share this umbrella?” she suggested.
They ended up walking together under the same umbrella.
***
They didn’t say any words during the journey home. Her umbrella was so small, so they had to shift their bodies close to each other. He could smell the scent of her shampoo, it was sweet like roses. He liked it instantly. Once she tripped a little and Yamashita had to grasp her waist to prevent her from falling. She was light like a feather and so fit in his arm, both were blushing. She whispered thanks and he nodded coolly.
They remained silent, until they reached her house. She asked for his address before and told him that her house was nearer, therefore they would stop at her house first and Yamashita could bring home her umbrella. He stunned seeing her house, it was big and he could tell she came from a wealthy family. He felt so small all of a sudden. He only lived in a small flat with two tiny bedrooms for him and his father. He was nothing compared to her.
“Well, thanks for walking me home, Yamashita-kun. I’ll see you tomorrow, kay?”
“Thanks for the umbrella too.”
She smiled, waved him goodbye and disappeared inside the big house. Yamashita sighed. He lost the battle even before he started it. A boy from a poor family would never match with a girl from a rich family. He shrugged and got ready to continue walking home until something bothered him. He stared at the name engraved on her gate. It was written as “NISHIKIDO” not “TEGOSHI”.
***
The next day, Yamashita was given the daily schedules for his class, text books and also training packs for P.E. class by Nakamura-sensei. He just noticed that the first lesson for that day was P.E. and it already started 5 minutes ago. He hurried himself to the nearest male toilet and got changed. He tore the plastic of the training packs and cringed upon the t-shirt, it was soft pink! Yamashita would never wear something pink, ever! He always thought pink never suited for male specimen. He hesitated to wear it, but he had no choice. He changed quickly, but something was wrong. The t-shirt was kind a little too tight for him. Damn, sensei gave the wrong size for me! he cursed inside his mind. He was late. He had no time to change the t-shirt.
Yamashita entered the sport hall. The first thing he heard was number of giggle sounds from the girls. He could feel some of them pointing at him as well. Some boys started to laugh, and he finally realized he became the object of their laughter. It took him a while before he noticed all boys actually wore white t-shirt not pink. The pink ones were for girls. He could feel all the blood rushed up to his cheek, he never felt so embarrassed like this before.
Nakamura-sensei approached him.
“Yamashita, why are you wearing pink? Did I give you the wrong t-shirt?”
He gritted his teeth. He was almost this close to punch Nakamura-sensei right into his face. But somehow he managed to stay calm and nod.
“Tegoshi! Go help Yamashita!” ordered Nakamaru-sensei.
Yuya went up from the floor. She was waiting her turn for the volley practice. Yamashita swore he could see her evil grin before she spoke, “Yes, sensei!”
She led Yamashita out of the hall, and they walked side by side with her smiling widely and sometimes stole a glance at his t-shirt.
“You must be very happy right now. Please stop it!”
“I’m sorry for being rude, Yamashita-kun. But you do look good in pink!” replied her with hands covered her mouth trying hard for not laughing.
“I AM NOT!” retorted Yamashita.
“Ok ok, I won’t laugh anymore. But hey, I think I have a nickname for you now. Ya-Ma-Pi! Isn’t it cute? I’m a genius after all.”
Yamashita blinked.
“Y-Yamapi? What do you mean??”
“Friends have nickname for each other right? So I give you a nickname. Do you like it?”
His heart raced and he could feel his cheek was flushed like a red tomato. He didn’t like the idea of getting a nickname from a pink t-shirt, but it was from Tegoshi. And it was his first nickname ever.
“But Tegoshi, I don’t have a nickname for you.”
“Call me Yuya or whatever you like. But you have to promise me one thing.”
“What is it?” asked Yamapi curiously.
“Only I can call you Yamapi.”
Yamashita stopped at his track. He looked Tegoshi with questioning eyes, but he didn’t see a smile on her face. She was being serious. Deep inside, he was happy for getting that nickname. Despite how silly it might sound, but still it was something precious that Tegoshi gave him.
“Sure Yuya, it’s a promise.”
They linked each other pinkies as a sign of promise. And it was the start of their friendship.
***
Day by day, they became closer to each other. She helped him a lot with his studies as he realized his old school was quite left behind from the curriculum of his new school. He also always waited for her to finish her task as head class after school. He wondered why she had to do everything by herself and why she didn’t have any friends. All the girls in their class ignored her, or so he thought. They never invited her to join lunch or whatever. And it bothered him more once he caught some of them gossiping her one day.
“Ne Yuya is fast, ne! Look on she claimed Yamashita-kun as hers already!” spurred a girl.
“Hell yeah! She doesn’t give us a chance to know him,” replied another girl.
“She is such a slut. I thought she was dating that Nishikido-senpai, they live in the same house now,” added the third girl.
Yamapi never cared to remember their names, but he hated how they gossiped about his friend behind her back. The truth was he and Yuya were running some errands for Nakamura-sensei, but Yuya said she left something in the class and asked him to bring it immediately. So the girls didn’t aware of his sudden come back.
“Could all of you shut up?” snapped Yamapi as he barged inside the class.
The girls stopped talking. They were surprised to see him and were scared of his angry expression.
“Yamashita-kun, please don’t take it seriously. We are just joking,” said the first girl.
“If you all have problem with her, just tell it in front of her, don’t talk behind her back!”
“Hey, what are you? Her boyfriend? You have no idea how slut she is!” hissed the third girl.
“PLEASE STOP!”
All heads turned to the door and saw Yuya stood there with tears in her eyes. They were speechless. The girls looked away, didn’t dare to face her. She quickly grabbed her school bag and ran away. Yamapi followed her. It was easy to catch her. He caught her by her arm and embraced her from behind, not caring pairs of eyes looking at them in the corridor. She stood dazed but suddenly struggled.
“Stop following me!!” she shouted before she ran again, faster this time.
But Yamapi didn’t give up easily. He still followed her and found her sitting on the grass in the park near their school. No more tears in her face, she just gazed blankly. He slowly walked to her direction, afraid she might run again. She seemed calmer and she let him sat next to her. She sighed.
“Yuya, are you okay?” worried Yamapi.
“I’m fine, Pi.”
“I’m sorry for what happened. I wish I could stop them.”
“It’s okay, Pi. They used to be my friends, so I know them. It’s not your fault.”
“Used to?”
“Four of us used to be best friends until my parents died in accident early this semester.”
Yamapi felt stunned at her words, he had known her for couple of weeks already, but he knew nothing about her family. He always wondered why the name in the gate wasn’t her surname but he couldn’t ask about it. Now everything was somehow clear to him.
“I’m so sorry to hear about your parents, Yuya.”
“Since I live with my aunt’s family, I couldn’t hang out with them anymore. I always said no if they invited me to karaoke or shopping after school, coz I simply don’t have any money for that. And soon after they stopped inviting me and we just stopped being friends.”
Yamapi was speechless, he never understood how cheap friendship could be.
“I actually don’t mind. They could just do whatever they like. It’s not the first time they talked bad things about me,” started Yuya again.
“They are just jealous, Yuya.”
“Jealous? Why?” her eyes grew larger, and Yamapi was just lost in her beautiful eyes.
“You are smarter and prettier, that’s why!”
“I’m not pretty,” denied Yuya, but he could see a pink blush in her cheeks.
“Believe me, you are!”
“Thank you, Pi! I’m glad that I have you as my friend.”
Yamapi’s heart ached upon hearing the “friend” word escaped from her lips. He didn’t want to be just normal friend with her. He wanted more, and it’s not best friend either. He wanted to be her boyfriend, he wanted to protect her. This whole thing was new to him, he never been in any relationship before. He wasn’t ugly or nerdy, he knew most girls in their class have a crush on him. He received an amount of love letters in his locker, but he never opened and replied to them. He only wanted one girl right now, and that girl was Tegoshi Yuya. But he didn’t know how to express his feeling, he was afraid of rejection.
“Yuya, let’s upgrade our friendship to best friends.”
He got an excited nod from her as a reply. He admitted how cowardly he was.
***
She arrived home later that afternoon. It’s still strange for her to call that big house as home. She realized it would never be her home. She just stayed there because of her aunt’s kindness. Her aunt was her mother’s cousin. She was the only relative she has in that small town. She adored her, and always said she wanted a daughter and was so happy to have Yuya in her house. Her husband died few years ago and she has a son named Nishikido Ryo. He was her senior at school, Ryo graduated last year and now studying at University, he went home only on holidays.
“I’m home.”
No reply.
Ah, Auntie must be still at work.
She walked to the kitchen and surprised to see a figure there.
“Ryo-kun?”
Ryo turned around and smirked at her. His face was red, his step was tipsy, and he held a bottle of beer in his hand. He was definitely drunk. And she had a bad feeling about this.
“Yuya-chaaannn!! Long time no see! Don’t you miss meeeee??” Ryo greeted her with his unusual cheerfulness. Alcohol was taking over him for sure.
“You are drunk, Ryo-kun,” replied her, taking some steps behind. She didn’t like the smell of alcohol in his breath.
“Where are you going? I miss youuuuuu!” Ryo tried to hug her but she managed to escape from him.
“I-I’m going to study. Good night, Ryo-kun!”
She made a run to her bedroom upstairs. She never felt so afraid like this before. She wished that her aunt would come back soon. She locked the door behind her and shoved her bag to her bed. She started changing her sailor uniform to her pajamas. Suddenly the door was unlocked, and Ryo showed up with his creepy grin. A duplicated key in his hand. He locked the door again and tossed the key somewhere on the floor. She quickly grabbed back her sailor top to cover her upper body. Lucky she was still wearing her bra.
“GET OUT!”
“Tsk Yuya, don’t be so tense! I have seen more than that.”
“W-what?”
“Your beautiful naked body under the shower, that’s what I mean.”
“Y-You are sick! Get out please!!”
She took few steps behind until she felt a cold wall met her back. She was trapped. She could feel tears started falling from the corner of her eyes. Ryo harshly took her sailor top from her hands, she was still wearing bra and skirt and but she already felt totally naked in front of him.
“Please don’t touch me, please!” she begged with tears still flowing from her eyes.
“Psst, don’t worry. I will make you feel good, you will like it,” whispered Ryo with his hoarse voice full of lust.
His left hand forcedly chained both of her hands up across her head. His right hand started touching her tight and disappeared inside her skirt, between her legs. She felt disgusted. She wanted to scream but her mouth was sealed with his gross sloppy kiss. She tried kicking him away from her, only to receive a slap on her face and some punches in her stomach which made her fall down on the floor.
But the pain she got from the violence wasn’t even half of the painful she received when Ryo raped her virginity.
***
She woke up the next morning, feeling sore in whole of her naked body. She winced when she tried to move her legs, her intimate area hurt like hell. She covered her face with both hands and started crying. She just couldn’t believe what had happened last night. Ryo was technically her cousin, but he still raped her, not just once, but multiple times until he was satisfied. She felt so dirty and ashamed of herself.
She got up from her bed with all the power she had left, she glanced and saw stain of bloods in her bed sheet. She sighed and reminded herself to change and wash before her aunt found it. She loved her aunt, she always treated her like her own daughter, the daughter she never had. But she also knew that her aunt adored her son more than anything in this world. So her words against his wouldn’t make any difference. She wouldn’t believe her after all.
She slowly walked to the bathroom, looking herself in the mirror. The girl with swollen lips, bruised eyes, hickeys all over her neck and breasts. She wished the girl she saw in the reflection wasn’t her. She knew she wasn’t in the state of going to school today. She took a shower, cleaned and washed her face and body in excessive way, but she still felt dirty no matter how hard she brushed and cleaned herself. She hated Ryo.
***
Yamashita looked around his class in disbelief. He hadn’t seen Yuya the whole day. He thought she was doing some errands for Nakamura-sensei when he saw her empty table beside him. But after lunch, still no sign of her. He started to worry and regretted for not exchanging cell phone numbers. He forgot to ask yesterday. He decided to visit her house after school.
***
He nervously pressed the bell of the Nishikido household. It was only on his third attempt when he saw her opened the door and blinked her eyes in surprise. She never expected him to visit her that day. She relieved that she could cover the bruises on her face with make-up and she wore turtle neck shirt.
“Yamapi? What are you doing here?”
“You didn’t come to school. I-I’m worried.”
Silence.
“Yuya?”
“Ah, I’m fine,” she startled a bit.
“But why you didn’t go to school today?” he demanded. He could sense something was wrong.
She seemed reluctant, she looked around. She hadn’t seen Ryo the whole day, and her aunt already informed her by phone that she would have 3 days of training in Tokyo. She was actually scared to be alone in the house with Ryo again. Traumatized would be the right word actually. But she had no one else to turn to, until Yamapi came.
“Ne Pi, can I stay at your place tonight?”
“W-What??”
“I will be alone in this house, and I’m scared.”
“But my father won’t be home tonight, he has to do extra hours at the office. So there will be only two of us.”
Another silence.
“Yuya?”
“It’s okay. At least I won’t be alone.”
She didn’t know why she trusted him. She only knew that she felt comfortable around him. She didn’t wait for his answer, she told him to wait outside while she hurriedly packed anything she needed for the next 2 days. She wrote a messy note saying that she would stay at friend’s house and stuck it on the fridge.
She went outside and he was still standing there waiting for her.
***
They arrived at Yamashita’s flat. He apologized for having such small flat, and she chuckled and told him to stop worrying. She liked his flat. It was very clean and neat. It reminded her for her old flat with her parents. They weren’t a wealthy family but at least they had each other. She almost shed a tear remembering her late parents. She shook her head. She didn’t want him to see her crying. She had enough of crying that day.
She cooked spaghetti for dinner. She was delighted as he finished everything and praised her cooking. They washed the dishes together. Somewhere in his mind, he thought they were like a married couple already. And he blushed. He was glad she didn’t notice it. She copied the lessons she missed when she was absent that day. No homework so he spent the night watching TV. Rain started to fall outside.
She finished copying his notes, few yawns escaped from her mouth. He told her to sleep in his room and he would sleep in his father’s room. She nodded and entered his room. She teased him for his bed cover, it was doraemon. And he denied saying it was a gift from his mother long time ago. She just smiled seeing him panic like that.
He finally excused himself and went to the room next door. She changed her clothes to her pajamas and crawled to the bed. Rain still fell heavily with thunders. She hated the sound of it. Suddenly lighting hit the sky and everything was pure black. She gasped in the darkness. Soon after she could hear knocks on the door, she opened it and saw him on the dim light of small candle he held in his hand.
“Sorry, but I think we just have a black out,” informed Yamashita with a regret expression.
“Yamapi, I’m scared of darkness,” she was just about to cry.
“I can get more candles, please wait a mo-”
“Will you sleep with me?”
“Ehh?”
“No no no, I mean not that kind of “sleep”. I just want you to sleep beside me, at least until the light goes on again,” she explained with a red face.
“But Yuya, I’m a boy and you are a girl.”
“I believe in you, Pi.”
They ended up sleeping together in his small bed, still wearing pajamas with him cuddled her from behind. He could smell her rose scented hair. He just hoped she couldn’t feel his pounding heart beat. She fell asleep first, he secretly kissed her hair. He still could hear her steady breathing sound and how he wished time would stop, and two of them would be together like this forever. They stayed in that spoon position until morning came.
***
They went to school together. She was relieved the hickey marks somehow disappeared, so she didn’t need to cover her neck anymore, but she still borrowed his muffler. Everyone at school started gossiping them as a new item. They didn’t care. They seemed to live in their own world, just two of them. Pairs of eyes starring at them with jealousy, but some thought how they became the perfect couple. They were always together, always. They didn’t need any lame lovey dovey words to describe how they love each other.
School already finished an hour ago. They stayed behind doing some errands for Nakamura-sensei. They were ready to go home when she stopped at her track to see a figure at the gate. Nishikido Ryo was leaning his back on the wall with cigarette on his hand. He smirked once he saw her and threw his half-finished cigarette to the ground. She shifted her body closer to Yamapi, shuddered. Yamapi knew something was wrong. He wrapped her arm to her shoulder in protective way. They didn’t move an inch. He stared at Ryo who walked freely to their direction.
Ryo stopped in front of them, just a meter away. He snorted.
“What are you doing here?” her voice broke the silence.
“Yuya, I miss you. Let’s go home, shall we?” replied Ryo with his sweet voice. His hand stretched out to reach her. But Yamapi shoved his hand and pulled her closer to him. Ryo’s face changed, he was annoyed.
“Who are you? Her boyfriend?” asked Ryo with angry voice.
“I’m Yamashita Tomohisa, and yes I’m her boyfriend!” retorted Yamapi with same angry voice. She gave him a puzzled look, but she nodded, agreeing his statement.
“Haha, you could be her boyfriend like I care, but you have to know, she’s mine already,” mocked Ryo with evil grin on his face.
Her face turned pale all the sudden. And she surprised when Yamapi released his arm around her and walked to Ryo in anger then blew a fist on his jaw. Hard. Ryo didn’t see it coming, he was taken aback and nursed his jaw. He spitted blood from his mouth and was ready to punch Yamapi back.
“ENOUGH! PLEASE STOP! BOTH OF YOU!!” Yuya screamed out loud. The two guys looked at her, but they calmed and took some steps back from each other.
“Ryo, please go! Or I will tell what you have done to the police!” she said again, she didn’t mean it, but she knew she had to threat him.
“You wouldn’t dare!” replied Ryo cynically.
“Try me!” dared her.
Ryo saw the serious look in her eyes. He retreated himself. He didn’t want to deal with the police. He was a coward bastard after all.
“Remember Yuya, you are mine!!” declared Ryo before he went away.
She was relieved that he was gone, she could feel her body getting weaker and so she fell to the ground. Yamapi caught her just in time. She cried in his chest. He caressed her hair and whispered her everything would be okay. She pulled herself from him after a while. She looked for a tissue and wiped her tears. She looked Yamapi into his eyes. He was obviously confused.
“I’m sorry Pi. But I think I can’t be your girlfriend,” started Yuya, not daring to face him anymore.
“But why Yuya? You don’t love me?” replied Yamapi with miserable voice.
“I do love you, Pi. But you don’t deserve me. I’m dirty.”
“What are you talking about?”
“That guy … Ryo, he raped me. And I don’t want to talk about this right now. So please don’t make it harder for me. We can’t be together.”
“That bastard!! We have to report about this!”
“NO!! DON’T DO THAT!”
“Why Yuya? What he did was a crime. He deserved to be in jail.”
“I don’t want to make my aunt sad. She has been so kind to me. Please understand my situation, Pi.”
Yamapi grunted in depression. He felt useless. He didn’t want to lose her. He didn’t care if she had lost her virginity with someone else, it wouldn’t change his feeling to her at all. He still loved her.
“Yuya, you can stay in my house. It’s a small flat, but you can use my bedroom, I can sleep in the living room. When we are legal, I will marry you.”
Her eyes widened in surprise. She felt really touched with his offer. But she couldn’t accept it. She didn’t want to ruin his future. Her future. Their future. They were both still young; being tight in marriage in such a young age was never crossed in her mind.
“Yamapi, you are so nice. I wish it will be that easy. But I can’t do that.”
Before he argued her back, she hugged him tight. He was surprised at her action, but he hugged her back. They stayed like that for a while. Then she released her hands from him. She tip-toed and kissed him on the lips. Their first kiss, soft and sweet.
“Goodbye Yamapi. Please leave me alone for a while. I need to think everything out, kay? Thank you for everything.”
Yamapi could only watch her back when she walked away from him. He cried without he realized it. His first tears after his mother passed away 5 years ago. Goodbyes always hurt. Always.
***
Tegoshi Yuya never went to school again. Nakamura-sensei announced that she had been transferred to another school, and no matter how many times he asked where she moved, sensei would never tell him. It was her own request after all. Yamapi checked Nishikido’s household after school. It was very quiet. No matter how many times he pressed the bell button, no one opened the door. He asked the neighbors around. They didn’t inform him much except that Nishikido family moved out in the middle of the night.
***
5 years later
Yamashita Tomohisa finally graduated from his university. His application to work in a famous bank in Tokyo was accepted. Soon he would start his new life as a salary man. He was happy to be back in the city. His best friend from university Akanishi Jin invited him to his birthday party. He wasn’t a party type of guy but Jin would kill him if he didn’t show up. So he decided to come to the party.
The party was held in a famous club. He congratulated Jin then sat down in a secluded area. He didn’t feel like to party at all, but he ordered some beers anyway. He needed distraction. Some girls tried to get his attention, but he didn’t feel like playing around. In fact ever since Yuya went away, he never fell in love with another girl again. His love life was empty. He still couldn’t forget her at all.
“Yamapi?”
He was shocked when he heard someone calling him with that nickname. There was only one person who would call him that him, and that person was …
“Yuya!”
Yes, Tegoshi Yuya was standing in front of him. She was smiling to him, the same sincere radiant smile. He was speechless for a moment. She was still beautiful, no, even more beautiful in soft make-up and simple pink dress. Her hair still fell down her shoulder with lighter color and soft wavy curls. She was the prettiest girl in the club.
He stood up from his seat and still admired her.
“Will you stop staring at me?”
“Sorry Yuya, but you are so beautiful! How are you? And where have you been?”
“I’m fine, Pi,” teased her, simply ignoring his last question.
“Why you moved without telling me? 5 years, Yuya, 5 years!”
“I know Pi, I’m sorry! But I did tell you that I need to settle everything right? I have settled everything now. I’m a free girl.”
“What do you mean?”
“I eventually called my aunt, we sort made a deal. She didn’t want anyone in the town to know about what her beloved son did to me. It was a disgraceful thing for sure. So my aunt sent me to a dorm school and university. I told her that I didn’t need her money, just give me enough education so I can live on my own after I graduated. So here I am.”
“How about that bastard?”
“Ryo-kun? He already apologized, and I think I have forgiven him, sort of. It doesn’t matter. I have never met him again either,” she shrugged.
“I miss you, Yuya.”
“I miss you too, Pi.”
“Can we start over? I still love you.”
She didn’t answer his question, but instead she pressed her lips into his softly. She broke the kiss then smiled. Sometimes action was more efficient than word. He took it a yes and kissed her back passionately. Her hair still smelled like a rose and he still liked it.
***
The end
Finally it’s finished. I need almost 2 weeks to finish this almost 6,000 words fic ^^;; I’m such a loser. Hope you all will like it. The title is stolen from one of A1’s songs. A bit cheesy I know. Sorry no smut in this fic, I failed at smut. And I’m sorry for making Ryo a rapist bastard here. I still love Ryo, I really do.
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