[fanfic] Pain (Chap.12)
title : Pain (Chapter 12)
pairing : Yamapi x OC (Reiko)
rating : PG-13
disclaimer : i don't own Yamapi, if i do, i'd married by him already LOL!
a/n : it's the first time i ever write a POV (Point Of View) story, so excuse me if it's not good enough, and english isn't my mother tongue languange so please bear with my poor grammar etc.the prologue setting is taken in 6 years from now. so the rest of chapters are flashback which happening around year 2005 - 2006.
Chapter 12
Her mother condition wasn’t getting any better but stable, though the doctors couldn’t tell when she would get off from the hospital. Her heart was still weak therefore we should really careful on anything that might shock her, as Eto sensei warned us. We nodded and we went inside to room again to excuse ourselves since the visiting hours almost over and her mother needed the rest.
“Okasan, I’m leaving now, but I will be back tomorrow. Rest well ne?” said Reiko and kissed her forehead gently.
“Don’t think much of me, you also need rest. Yamashita-kun, please remind her to eat and sleep well.” her mother looked at me.
“Eh, sure, I will do that.” I replied nervously.
“Oh, can you come closer?” I hesitantly walked to the bed.
“Thank you for always taking care my Reiko.” said her mother and patted my hand.
“Iie, don’t mention it! She’s my best friend, I will always protect her.”
“If I’m gone, please continue look after her, she has no one else beside me.”
“Okasan! Don’t say that!” cried Reiko.
“I will!” I surely replied.
“Arigatou, Yamashita-kun! Nee Reiko, stop crying! You promise before, no more cry.” Reiko nodded and wiped her tears. She gave her mother last kisses and hugs before waving hand and saying goodbye.
We finally left the room and headed home.
***
After dinner, Reiko went to Rina’s room to sleep, she was really silence ever since we left the hospital, and I didn’t want to be nosy, she needed time to be alone and rest anyway. I was about to turn off the TV and also headed to my own room, when the phone rang. I cringed as I looked into the clock, it was almost 10 pm, who would crazy enough to call at this hour?
I lazily picked it up.
“Moshi moshi! Yamashita residence here.”
“Moshi moshi! May I speak with Miyamoto Reiko? It’s from Tokyo Hospital.”
“Oh chotto matte ne!” I rushed went upstairs and banged Rina’s door, I suddenly had bad feeling about the phone call, it must be emergency, if not why would they call so late like this, I thought.
Rina opened the door and gave me her deadly glare, I ignored her and went inside, Reiko hasn’t slept yet, she turned her head to me with question look on her face.
“Rei-chan, a call from hospital, hurry!” she reacted quite fast and followed me downstairs.
“Moshi moshi? This is Reiko!” I waited beside her and prayed it’s not a bad news. She listened carefully and then her eyes expanded, by that moment, I knew something bad has happened. I could only assumed the worst.
“It’s not a joke right? How come? She was so fine this afternoon when we left her!” shot Reiko hysterically, tears started falling from her eyes.
“A letter? Hai, ima sugu!” she ended the phone call, turned to me and cried in my embrace.
“O-okasan … okasan is gone.” she sobbed. I knew it though I didn’t understand why, Reiko was right, her mother was fine before we left her, it’s impossible her condition suddenly has gotten worst without any cause.
“The-the nurse said after receive a letter from her relative she … she …” Reiko couldn’t continue no more.
“Let's go to the hospital to find out ok?” I calmed her. She stopped crying and nodded helplessly, we changed our clothes and rushed to the hospital, another long night, I sighed.
***
We arrived at her mother room and found that her mother was covered with white sheet already. Reiko couldn’t hold her tears anymore, she ran to the bed and cried hysterically.
I could only calm her and stayed beside her. The nurses and doctors just stood there and watched us with their concern and sympathy looks.
Few moments later, Eto sensei approached us and bowed, we nodded as reply.
“I’m terrible sorry, it’s beyond our hands, we tried our best to save your mother, but he condition was really weak, and we lost her.” regretted Eto sensei.
Reiko bit her lips.
“Anoo, Reiko said about the letter, what is it?” I asked, as I knew Reiko wasn’t able to do anything that moment.
“Ohh, right after you two left, there’s a guy came in and passed me a letter, he said he’s a relative, this is the letter, we didn’t read it.” said a nurse and passed me the letter. Reiko grabbed it from my hand, and she went out, I wanted to chase her but the doctors came to me and asked about the funeral etc. I looked at Reiko’s back helplessly, a nurse assured me that she would be just fine. And she was right, 10 minutes later she came back. But her expression has changed, more like upset than sad.
“Rei-chan, what’s inside the letter?” I asked curiously.
“Oh nothing, a cousin just wrote okasan a family matter.” She answered it in nervous tone, I couldn’t tell if it’s a lie or not.
“Oh, maybe your mother was shocked and she couldn’t handle the news?” I wondered.
“Maybe …” replied Reiko shortly.
“Are you alright?”
“I’m fine, don’t worry about me! Oh I haven’t asked about the funeral!” exclaimed her.
“I have taken care of it, tomorrow morning we can make small ceremony for her. There’s nothing we can do now, it’s late.”
“Thanks Tomo-kun.”
“Let’s go home, shall we? You need rest.” and replied by her nod.
***
We walked to the parking lot, all the sudden she stopped and bent down crying. I fully understood, she just lost the most precious person in her heart. If I were in her situation I would also cry endlessly. I helped her stand up and offered her a hanky, she looked at me with her fluffy face, instead of grabbing the hanky, she held my hand and sobbed in my chest. I was thankful it was already midnight, no one could see my red face. I hoped she didn’t notice that my heart just beat 100x faster than usual.
Few minutes later, she released her head from my chest, once again I offered her my hanky, this time she accepted it and wiped her tears.
“Uh, I hope this tears will stop, sorry you have to see me like this.”
“I fully understand.”
“I must be look like shit right now!” she let out a bitter smile.
“No no, I don’t see anything different with you! You are still the same … “ I hesitated to continue, but she gazed me curiously.
“ … beautiful person in my eyes.” I finally said it. Her eyes widened. I knew it was awfully a wrong time to say such flirty thing that moment. She didn’t say any word, I suddenly regretted for what I just said. I faced down to the ground, I didn’t dare looking straight to her eyes.
“Tomo-kun …” finally she said something.
“Y-yes?”
“Please be with me tonight.” I was speechless, I knew she probably just feeling lonely but I didn’t care. I pulled her to my embrace and kissed her passionately.
***
I wake up the next morning with a huge smile, last night was unforgettable. I turned to my left side, ready to give her a good morning kiss, but then I just realized it’s already empty. I looked around, hoping to see her somewhere in this hotel room, but I couldn’t feel her presence. I looked down to the floor only to find my clothes there. Where was she?
I got dressed and went to the bathroom with a big hope to find her there, but again it’s empty. There’s even no sign it’s being used at all, everything was so clean and neat just like when we checked in last night. I started to worry that she already left and I would never see her again. I shook my head, “No, don’t be so negative, she already promised that she won’t leave me ever again!” I knew I should prepare for the worst but I haven’t ready for it yet. I still hoped I could find her at the hospital.
I sped my car to the hospital, I searched the nurse who always had taken care of her mother.
“Ahh Yamashita-san, Reiko said you are kinda busy this morning, so you can’t attend the ceremony.”
“Where’s Reiko?” I blurted out.
“Oh she left already, she decided to have cremation instead of the funeral, she said she wanted to be near her mother.” My jaw dropped. How could she do this to me? Am I nothing to her? I felt so angry, disappointed and worried, all in one. If the nurse weren’t in front of me, I would fist the wall in frustration already.
“But she left something for you.” She smiled and handed me an envelope.
“Thanks, Nurse Misora!” she nodded and left me alone in the hallway.
I ripped the edge of the envelope impatiently, my hands were shaking when I read her short letter.
“Dear Tomo-kun,
I’m sorry, I break my promises, I can’t stay by your side, I can’t tell you what’s going on. All I know, you don’t deserve me. Please forget me. Take care and thank you for everything. Reiko”
That’s it, that short letter made me realized that I lost her forever. I cried. I even hadn’t got a chance to say I love her.
Baby set me free from this misery,
I can’t take it no more,
Since you ran away,
Nothing’s been the same,
Don’t know what I’m living for.
Here I am so alone,
And there’s nothing in this world I can do.
Until you back here baby,
Miss you, want you, need you so,
Until you back here baby, yeah,
There’s a feeling inside I want you to know,
You are the one and I can’t let you go.
- lyrics : Back Here by BB Mak.
***
TBC
more A/N : uhm yeah, finally an update after months ^^;; i have no inspiration T_T but i will surely finish this fic, one more chapter, ganbatte atashi! ohyes, Eto sensei and Nurse Misora, all N's Aoi fans must be familiar with them LOL! err if u hard to imagine the crying scene at the parking lot it supposed to be like the scene in Dragon Zakura when Naobu cried in Yajima's chest, i'm suck with my limited english, sowrieeee! T_T
pairing : Yamapi x OC (Reiko)
rating : PG-13
disclaimer : i don't own Yamapi, if i do, i'd married by him already LOL!
a/n : it's the first time i ever write a POV (Point Of View) story, so excuse me if it's not good enough, and english isn't my mother tongue languange so please bear with my poor grammar etc.the prologue setting is taken in 6 years from now. so the rest of chapters are flashback which happening around year 2005 - 2006.
Chapter 12
Her mother condition wasn’t getting any better but stable, though the doctors couldn’t tell when she would get off from the hospital. Her heart was still weak therefore we should really careful on anything that might shock her, as Eto sensei warned us. We nodded and we went inside to room again to excuse ourselves since the visiting hours almost over and her mother needed the rest.
“Okasan, I’m leaving now, but I will be back tomorrow. Rest well ne?” said Reiko and kissed her forehead gently.
“Don’t think much of me, you also need rest. Yamashita-kun, please remind her to eat and sleep well.” her mother looked at me.
“Eh, sure, I will do that.” I replied nervously.
“Oh, can you come closer?” I hesitantly walked to the bed.
“Thank you for always taking care my Reiko.” said her mother and patted my hand.
“Iie, don’t mention it! She’s my best friend, I will always protect her.”
“If I’m gone, please continue look after her, she has no one else beside me.”
“Okasan! Don’t say that!” cried Reiko.
“I will!” I surely replied.
“Arigatou, Yamashita-kun! Nee Reiko, stop crying! You promise before, no more cry.” Reiko nodded and wiped her tears. She gave her mother last kisses and hugs before waving hand and saying goodbye.
We finally left the room and headed home.
***
After dinner, Reiko went to Rina’s room to sleep, she was really silence ever since we left the hospital, and I didn’t want to be nosy, she needed time to be alone and rest anyway. I was about to turn off the TV and also headed to my own room, when the phone rang. I cringed as I looked into the clock, it was almost 10 pm, who would crazy enough to call at this hour?
I lazily picked it up.
“Moshi moshi! Yamashita residence here.”
“Moshi moshi! May I speak with Miyamoto Reiko? It’s from Tokyo Hospital.”
“Oh chotto matte ne!” I rushed went upstairs and banged Rina’s door, I suddenly had bad feeling about the phone call, it must be emergency, if not why would they call so late like this, I thought.
Rina opened the door and gave me her deadly glare, I ignored her and went inside, Reiko hasn’t slept yet, she turned her head to me with question look on her face.
“Rei-chan, a call from hospital, hurry!” she reacted quite fast and followed me downstairs.
“Moshi moshi? This is Reiko!” I waited beside her and prayed it’s not a bad news. She listened carefully and then her eyes expanded, by that moment, I knew something bad has happened. I could only assumed the worst.
“It’s not a joke right? How come? She was so fine this afternoon when we left her!” shot Reiko hysterically, tears started falling from her eyes.
“A letter? Hai, ima sugu!” she ended the phone call, turned to me and cried in my embrace.
“O-okasan … okasan is gone.” she sobbed. I knew it though I didn’t understand why, Reiko was right, her mother was fine before we left her, it’s impossible her condition suddenly has gotten worst without any cause.
“The-the nurse said after receive a letter from her relative she … she …” Reiko couldn’t continue no more.
“Let's go to the hospital to find out ok?” I calmed her. She stopped crying and nodded helplessly, we changed our clothes and rushed to the hospital, another long night, I sighed.
***
We arrived at her mother room and found that her mother was covered with white sheet already. Reiko couldn’t hold her tears anymore, she ran to the bed and cried hysterically.
I could only calm her and stayed beside her. The nurses and doctors just stood there and watched us with their concern and sympathy looks.
Few moments later, Eto sensei approached us and bowed, we nodded as reply.
“I’m terrible sorry, it’s beyond our hands, we tried our best to save your mother, but he condition was really weak, and we lost her.” regretted Eto sensei.
Reiko bit her lips.
“Anoo, Reiko said about the letter, what is it?” I asked, as I knew Reiko wasn’t able to do anything that moment.
“Ohh, right after you two left, there’s a guy came in and passed me a letter, he said he’s a relative, this is the letter, we didn’t read it.” said a nurse and passed me the letter. Reiko grabbed it from my hand, and she went out, I wanted to chase her but the doctors came to me and asked about the funeral etc. I looked at Reiko’s back helplessly, a nurse assured me that she would be just fine. And she was right, 10 minutes later she came back. But her expression has changed, more like upset than sad.
“Rei-chan, what’s inside the letter?” I asked curiously.
“Oh nothing, a cousin just wrote okasan a family matter.” She answered it in nervous tone, I couldn’t tell if it’s a lie or not.
“Oh, maybe your mother was shocked and she couldn’t handle the news?” I wondered.
“Maybe …” replied Reiko shortly.
“Are you alright?”
“I’m fine, don’t worry about me! Oh I haven’t asked about the funeral!” exclaimed her.
“I have taken care of it, tomorrow morning we can make small ceremony for her. There’s nothing we can do now, it’s late.”
“Thanks Tomo-kun.”
“Let’s go home, shall we? You need rest.” and replied by her nod.
***
We walked to the parking lot, all the sudden she stopped and bent down crying. I fully understood, she just lost the most precious person in her heart. If I were in her situation I would also cry endlessly. I helped her stand up and offered her a hanky, she looked at me with her fluffy face, instead of grabbing the hanky, she held my hand and sobbed in my chest. I was thankful it was already midnight, no one could see my red face. I hoped she didn’t notice that my heart just beat 100x faster than usual.
Few minutes later, she released her head from my chest, once again I offered her my hanky, this time she accepted it and wiped her tears.
“Uh, I hope this tears will stop, sorry you have to see me like this.”
“I fully understand.”
“I must be look like shit right now!” she let out a bitter smile.
“No no, I don’t see anything different with you! You are still the same … “ I hesitated to continue, but she gazed me curiously.
“ … beautiful person in my eyes.” I finally said it. Her eyes widened. I knew it was awfully a wrong time to say such flirty thing that moment. She didn’t say any word, I suddenly regretted for what I just said. I faced down to the ground, I didn’t dare looking straight to her eyes.
“Tomo-kun …” finally she said something.
“Y-yes?”
“Please be with me tonight.” I was speechless, I knew she probably just feeling lonely but I didn’t care. I pulled her to my embrace and kissed her passionately.
***
I wake up the next morning with a huge smile, last night was unforgettable. I turned to my left side, ready to give her a good morning kiss, but then I just realized it’s already empty. I looked around, hoping to see her somewhere in this hotel room, but I couldn’t feel her presence. I looked down to the floor only to find my clothes there. Where was she?
I got dressed and went to the bathroom with a big hope to find her there, but again it’s empty. There’s even no sign it’s being used at all, everything was so clean and neat just like when we checked in last night. I started to worry that she already left and I would never see her again. I shook my head, “No, don’t be so negative, she already promised that she won’t leave me ever again!” I knew I should prepare for the worst but I haven’t ready for it yet. I still hoped I could find her at the hospital.
I sped my car to the hospital, I searched the nurse who always had taken care of her mother.
“Ahh Yamashita-san, Reiko said you are kinda busy this morning, so you can’t attend the ceremony.”
“Where’s Reiko?” I blurted out.
“Oh she left already, she decided to have cremation instead of the funeral, she said she wanted to be near her mother.” My jaw dropped. How could she do this to me? Am I nothing to her? I felt so angry, disappointed and worried, all in one. If the nurse weren’t in front of me, I would fist the wall in frustration already.
“But she left something for you.” She smiled and handed me an envelope.
“Thanks, Nurse Misora!” she nodded and left me alone in the hallway.
I ripped the edge of the envelope impatiently, my hands were shaking when I read her short letter.
“Dear Tomo-kun,
I’m sorry, I break my promises, I can’t stay by your side, I can’t tell you what’s going on. All I know, you don’t deserve me. Please forget me. Take care and thank you for everything. Reiko”
That’s it, that short letter made me realized that I lost her forever. I cried. I even hadn’t got a chance to say I love her.
Baby set me free from this misery,
I can’t take it no more,
Since you ran away,
Nothing’s been the same,
Don’t know what I’m living for.
Here I am so alone,
And there’s nothing in this world I can do.
Until you back here baby,
Miss you, want you, need you so,
Until you back here baby, yeah,
There’s a feeling inside I want you to know,
You are the one and I can’t let you go.
- lyrics : Back Here by BB Mak.
***
TBC
more A/N : uhm yeah, finally an update after months ^^;; i have no inspiration T_T but i will surely finish this fic, one more chapter, ganbatte atashi! ohyes, Eto sensei and Nurse Misora, all N's Aoi fans must be familiar with them LOL! err if u hard to imagine the crying scene at the parking lot it supposed to be like the scene in Dragon Zakura when Naobu cried in Yajima's chest, i'm suck with my limited english, sowrieeee! T_T