Comments | nickolas_carter: I'll probably never mention this again

nickolas_carter

I'll probably never mention this again

Dec 20, 2006 22:12

I've been dreaming about you a lot lately and I don't know why. Maybe it's being here again or maybe I'm just lonely and that's forcing you into my head, but whatever it is is torture. Last night we were at the beach, that one spot we used to go to all the time, and George was there and you were throwing bread at him trying to get him to eat it ( Read more... )

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vivian_sinamor December 21 2006, 23:25:44 UTC

This makes me really sad.

nickolas_carter December 22 2006, 03:45:56 UTC

Me too, but it feels better having it off of my chest now.

vivian_sinamor December 22 2006, 12:41:39 UTC

I can understand that. Sometimes the best thing to do is to just write it out no matter how much it hurts.

m_gyllenhaal December 22 2006, 15:15:37 UTC

I love you so much and I'm sure he dreams about you.

nickolas_carter December 22 2006, 18:55:24 UTC

I love you too, Scooter.

brianlittrell December 23 2006, 03:50:33 UTC

I'm glad you could get this off your chest some as I know it's been bothering you. I'm sorry things are still so hard for you. But I think you are strong enough to rise above it and yeah it's not going to be easy. But if you ever need to talk or vent about the way you are feeling or the thoughts you have. Call me and talk to me, I'll listen though I may not be able to help much. You are a good guy, Nick. You'll find someone worth it again.

hunnamc December 29 2006, 02:36:05 UTC

We've never spoken, and I realise that it isn't your most recent entry, but something about this really struck a chord with me, and I just wanted to tell you that. I'm newly back myself, and it seems like the idea of actually being around, being back, was easier than actually being present is. I don't know if I'll have the guts to say as much in my own journal, so I'm just going to comment to you here and say cheers. Reading this got a little of the weight off of my chest.

nickolas_carter December 29 2006, 03:09:17 UTC

The idea really was a lot easier than actually being around has been. I didn't know it was going to be this hard, and that makes me wonder if I would've been so willing to come back had I known. I don't know. But I'm glad reading this helped you even if it was only a little bit. That makes me feel good, so thank you for commenting.