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ARGHHHHHH!
OHHHH please god send your angels to destroy the evil Puerto Ricans living above me. Their loud abnoxious ways have driven me to insanity for the last time. Ohh lord I should be asleep right now, but because of the Puerto Ricans that party every friggin night sleep is a dream that will haunt me for as long as they are living upstairs. I am sorry ( Read more... ) -
Friday night
SO I went out with some friends tonight. It was boring. Tomarrow im going to the Big E, I dont really want to go because well... im more of a small town country fair person and the Big E is more of just a giant corporate fair in the middle of a city. Thats just not where I want to be. So Im watching the tran siberian orchestra on PBS right now and ( Read more... ) -
Opera!
Oh Warfather on high ( Read more... ) -
Im so alone
Im sitting here looking out my window. Im bored out of my friggin mind and there is no one to talk to. The birdacge is on TV, I like that movie. For some reason my kitty is running around here like a friggin idiot with its head cut off. I really wish i had someone to talk too... I didnt eat anything tonight, for some reason i just didnt feel like ( Read more... ) -
whats going on?
SO Chris is in Japan. He still wont talk to me. I miss him so much. So after comeing out I now have about 5 friends left, one of which always makes stupid corny gay sex related comments all the time. They piss me off every time. But he stuck with me... when so many others didnt. I wish my parents would just talk to me. Right now i wish they would ( Read more... ) -
boring weekend
I took some pants out of my closet today and i tried them on because people keep saying that i am loosing weight. I put the pants on and i couldnt believe it. These pants are pants that my grandmother gave me for christmas but didnt even fit me in the slightest. But they not only fit but they are comfortable, so yay im loosintg weight. Im still ( Read more... ) -
Nothing left to loose
Its official, i now have nothing left to loose. After comeing out to my friends and my family. My parents and my brothers dont want me to contact them. All but two of my best friends ignore me. Ontop of that, after lieing to the man i fell in love with, i no longer have him in my life. He has asked me to never contact him again. I dont need anyone ( Read more... ) -
Its been so long
Its been so long since I have posted anything in my journal. So long that i might as well just start over. I came out. I told my friends and family that i am gay. Some people didnt take it well, some have stopped talking to me, others took it ok. Im depressed alot now. I dont have very many gay friends so I cant really talk to people about my ( Read more... ) -
things you wish you could forget
So many things i wish I could forget. I try to sleep but they come back to me in nightmare form. I still think of Trish, I still see her in my dreams. I cry alot whenever I think about her but she is someone I just dont want to forget and shouldnt. Her death was so hard but I need to let go. All my friends say I have to let go, but they cant let go ( Read more... ) -
whats going on in life?
ok sooooooooooo. anyways. I got to go to western ct state on friday to see jane goodall give a lecture. it was awsome i even got her autograph on one of he books. Wow she looks old. and on saterday i got to hang out all day cleaning my house and then i got to go to the opera with a friend, the pirates of pinzanz, i had no clue what they were saying ( Read more... )