nothing is ever
too good to be true.
every amazing second
is destined to end.
and the bad times return
like a recurring nightmare
as a child.
and i feel like a child again
incapable,
lost,
alone.

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a whirlwind picks me up
sweeps me off my feet
carries me to paradise
and sets me there
right by your side

i understand now.
i never meant to hurt you,
i just didn't understand.
i knew you cared,
i just didn't get it.
i don't care what others think.
i needed to change the extent of my self involvment.
i listened to you before, but now
i hear you.
i will now make an effort.

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i hope he knows
that he matters to me.
i hope he knows
that he cartes.
i hope he knows
i listened to everything he said.
i hope he knows
that i'm taking it to heart.
i hope he knows
i listened to everything he said.
i hope he knows
that i know i'm not perfect.
i hope he knows
that i'm trying to be better.
i hope he knows,
i hope he knows.

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before i wake up,
in my moments
lying here alone,
my thoughts:
non-existant.
my worries:
all gone.
my doubts:
never had 'em.
all i know:
it's a new day.
the sun is shining,
the birds are chirping,
and i'm still breathing.