Another dream

[nicopasse]

yeah, another one. this one's super vague too, so it won't last long, but i suppose its better than never updating. so i dreamed that i guess this big, scary guy followed me home from somewhere. even when i got home, went inside, and locked all the doors did he not leave me alone. he broke into the house and tried to break down my bedroom door. i

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interpretation by an old witch

[lady_luthian]

Wow that IS a scarey dream. I think that it is a combination of several fears. Fuirst off the obvious fear of any type of sexual contact because of your bladder. Then theres the fear of rape which most women that have had it happen before always have. Then there's the fact that you are trying to get away from something dangerous and you're parents are not only not helping you, they're makeing things worse for you. You exspect them to protect you and helpyou and they're failing miserabley. So you have to protect yourself all alone without haveing been given any tools to do it with. Then when you finally DO get your moms attention and pleed (in your own way) for her help, she not only does nothing to help you, she doesn't even seem phased by you're pain of distress, once again leaving you all alone to try and pick yourself up when you can't, and shouldn't be exspected to. Sounds very much to me like it's a reflection of what you're going through with your bladder problems and your mental things (from the baby, and from being

Re: interpretation by an old witch

[nicopasse]

yeah... i'd say that sounds about right, though i'm still not sure my parents are neglecting me. and i wonder, if i confronted them, would they just lay a guilt trip on me for still living with them when they should be retiring (which they sorta have a point).... and i also wonder if that one, first night with Syndael since he was with you has a bit to do with the fear of rape. i was pretty damned vulnerable and he just refused to accept "no"