My little brother scored the only touchdown his team scored tonight, I can't believe that he turns 17 on monday, that's just crazy for me to comprehend. I've had a pretty good week, other than the Air Force stuff at 6am, even though I skipped it 2/3 times I had it :) And I didn't go to classes at all on monday or friday. Which would explain why ( Read more... )

So I feel older, but not to myself. Older like when other people see me, they're like, "He's Twenty." Maybe Freshman girls' eyes wil light up when they ask how old I am and I say "Twenty." Because 18 year old freshman girls like older boys, they like all boys, any boys. I did laundry today, just whites, cause I am twenty, I can do my own ( Read more... )

I just turned twenty about an hour and 40 min ago. I feel more grown up, I'm not exactly sure what that means, but I feel more grown up. This is the add-on to the tattoo I already had. I had the 'eye of horus' symbol in the middle last ummmmm, december or something.


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the meeting went well with my parents and my psych. Upped the lithium, went down with the lamictal, stayed with the zyprexa. It felt good to get all the stuff out on the table, like about the sex drive and about cutting on myself, stuff like that. So yeah, that felt pretty rad, and I just put the christmas lights up in my room, but they suck ( Read more... )

I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder for about 3 months now. I am on Lamictal, Lithium, and Zyprexa. Since I started medication, I have felt worse than I ever have before. The mania is gone, but the depression seems to be a constant theme, I still have urges to hurt myself and see suicide as an option (even though I have never made an ( Read more... )

( Bitching about life )

BEFORE MEDICATION


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I took my PFT (physical fitness test) this morning for the air force. Do as many situps as you can in 2 min, as many pushups as you can in 2 min, and 1.5 miles as fast as you can. You must do 42 pushups and 53 situps to max it out (if you do any more you don't receive extra points. I did 70 and 70. Max pushup is 80 max situp is 90. I ran 1.5 ( Read more... )

Jenandtonics posts a ton, so I think I will post more. So I got up at hour and a half before classes to eat breakfast and to post and what not, 8 hours is enuf sleep right? So now I am off to eat Cheerios and Strawberries AGAIN, and no I never get sick of them. I have to put on my uniform in an hour......yay. I love putting really really really lame corny ( Read more... )

bipolars check out jenandtonics last entry, or you can just read it ( here )