my day went well.... nothing special.... i havent talk to autumn for almost 2 days it seem she doesnt want to do anything with me.... who cares...but im going to see her at work on sat night... what am i going to do??? be asshole to her or nice and flirty?? well today my brother is going to jail for 70 days sigh... may he make new friends... i ( Read more... )

this is my last so... good bye

"i have live my life without regert" frank sintara

well since i was in a shitty and most horrible feeling in the world... i felt i was worthless.. i decided to take a razor blade and cut my torso up.. and now i have about close enought to 20 scars and its bleeding bad......yet it relives me away from all the horrible ... and now i just realized that it was stupid but yet it was worth cuz i was ( Read more... )

im beyond nauseated.... im pissed.... im sad.... im hateful .... i want to say fuck this world i fucking hate every inchs of the world and every inchs of human being.. 'they are all born with destiny to bring misery to others"-psycho mantis ( Read more... )

well this morning i woke up took shower and shaved my face.....called autumn to see if wanna do something but she already had plan with steven so and ended up agrue with amber.....was thinking about getting my eyebrow piereced... so went out and walk from my home to borders that was like 5 or 6 miles walk and look for book to read so i found good ( Read more... )

i am starting to feel some hate inside me its growing i just felt the first sparkle of hate growing in my stomach in my heart.... but its toward unknown source right now...i looked back in my past my life my childhood and i realized how much it went by quickly...amd i want to tell thanks to many people out there.....my parents..... for that they ( Read more... )

today is my birthday... i feel no difference.... i had a lot talk with amber and autumn which was good things... cuz we open ourselves more... to tell each other how we really feel for each other and what we expect from other...we didnt talk three way i talked to them individually...very soon things will be different...i will update in future and ( Read more... )

tomorrow is my birthday im turning 25 and i got nothing to do that day i guess i proably just sit and stare at white wall and maybe see some invisiable blood words that say "redrum".....what i really really want to do is spend time with autumn on my birthday... but since knowing her that well enough.. she will not do it... for some reason im slowly ( Read more... )

going to dps to get my id renew cuz my expired about 2 years ago...and its illegal to use it ... oh well lucky i havent been caught yet...went to my school at acc yesterday it was awesome... i get to draw for like 5 hours and 40 minutes!!!!! yay...... and i met 2 new guys one in the morning on bus way to acc and other one on way back home weird ( Read more... )

well, my day went okay.. had a good talk with friend.... and had kinda rough night with my amber... its really hard with her...my birthday is coming up next week on monday.. ill be turning 25 and this sucks...i think im going through some crisis.... and i start school in 2 days... and i quit working in next 2 weeks... alot of shit happening..... ( Read more... )