i've made a mess of things. now i have no idea how to fix it or where to go from here.

it's hard to deal with your stuff and be there for other people.

please pray for us. big decisions to make.

i'm being increadibly emotional right now ( Read more... )

so i will warn you all that this entry will be me whining about the past few days ( Read more... )

it's been a long week. but a really good one. today was day number 4 of not talking to kyle. i'm okay with it. it was my choice. i need to step back and distance myself since he is not helping place distace at all. after being hurt and angry i really looked at the situation. i don't need or deserve what i was going through. and he really isn't the ( Read more... )

i'm frustrated. i used to be able to fully vent to my LJ but i've found that some people up here read it. i knew that two of my closest friends read it, but that's okay cuz i tell them everything anyway. but one of my recent posts showed me that other people read it so i can't fully vent like i want to right now ( Read more... )

5 days after i hung up crying, i've yet to get a call back. this hurts so much.

i'm tired of crying over him. i don't want to do it anymore.

if i didn't care so much, i could move on. if i didn't care so much, i wouldn't be crying.

it's been so nice being home. it's making things easier.

too tired to write more than that.

i now one of those girls who cries over a boy...

this is not where i ever wanted to be. it's a feeling i never wanted to feel. i don't know where to go from here or what to do now.

it will be okay i know... it's just going to take time.

this is ridiculos. you say you can't help not being here, well don't make a huge deal out of what you miss out on. we cannot help it that you are not around. this is crap. there is no reason for this. what you're missing is nothing more than what you missed the two nights you were here, us spending time together talking about things and being there ( Read more... )

*this part has been edited ( Read more... )

so much is going on... but it's mostly on the inside ( Read more... )