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I've never been one to just "give up" on something but there's a first time for everything. I'm telling you this right now: If this doesn't work, I am NEVER doing it again.
We are doing something called Micro IVF this week. Less money and less drugs than full blown IVF but more than the futile inseminations I was doing. It's been brutal. The drugs are hideous. I spent Monday crying. My husband is fearing for his life. And frankly, so should my bosses because they'd be the first to go. I have a lump under my belly button from one injection that is so sore, it wakes me up when I roll over at night. I am bloated and my face is a mess. I have 6 whopper zits. I feel like I am going to explode. Physically and mentally. I can't imagine how someone takes this stuff 4 times a day for WEEKS! I am not that strong. It really is killing me. I can't get my mind around anything and with Christmas coming...I have soooo much to do.
BUT.
We got two eggs. TWO!! And BOTH fertilized. BOTH!!! That is HUGE! I am scheduled to go in Friday morning for implatation. Hopefully both will make it until then and beyond. Then we bite our nails for two weeks before we get results. This is harder than I ever imagined it to be. And I know, if it works, it'll be worth it. But it is sooo hard. And I am sooo scared. Scared it won't work. Scared it will.
So maybe we'll have a Merry Christmas. Maybe we won't.
We are doing something called Micro IVF this week. Less money and less drugs than full blown IVF but more than the futile inseminations I was doing. It's been brutal. The drugs are hideous. I spent Monday crying. My husband is fearing for his life. And frankly, so should my bosses because they'd be the first to go. I have a lump under my belly button from one injection that is so sore, it wakes me up when I roll over at night. I am bloated and my face is a mess. I have 6 whopper zits. I feel like I am going to explode. Physically and mentally. I can't imagine how someone takes this stuff 4 times a day for WEEKS! I am not that strong. It really is killing me. I can't get my mind around anything and with Christmas coming...I have soooo much to do.
BUT.
We got two eggs. TWO!! And BOTH fertilized. BOTH!!! That is HUGE! I am scheduled to go in Friday morning for implatation. Hopefully both will make it until then and beyond. Then we bite our nails for two weeks before we get results. This is harder than I ever imagined it to be. And I know, if it works, it'll be worth it. But it is sooo hard. And I am sooo scared. Scared it won't work. Scared it will.
So maybe we'll have a Merry Christmas. Maybe we won't.