single's love

make an effort to set your expectations and preconceptions about a certain situation or person aside. if you can see it for what it is -- and let it evolve naturally -- all will end up as it should.

"she prays for him every night, she hopes that he can hear her..."

single love

A muddle, a jumble, a mess -- however you want to describe it, things aren't looking too tidy in the love department at the moment. All you can do is be clear on your end. It'll all work out one way or another!

Get ya shoulder shawty

all's well. not. wtf. i can't seem to snap back into the real world.

ever since she left, shit's gotten worse. unless it's always been this bad and now there's just nothing to mask the truth.

i don't know what to do. it's still like a horrible nightmare. and i have issues because all i do when i'm sober is cry.
cry until my face is numb from the tears ( Read more... )

i close up and lash out.
and i regret...all of it.
but i can't. i can't take it. 
i don't know how to let it out.
and no one understands. 
same chapter, differnt page.

without the glue, it falls apart.

and the waters weathering it...faster.

february 14th, 2007. 6:30 a.m.
i love you forever.

and thru all this...
i still can't depend on family.

i did it
and it felt fucking awesome

fuck you

when i'm alone, i think alot. like most of the population..
my brain becomes an empty reception hall of thoughts echoing, and memories of a brighter time...

the countdown was never started.
it actually never existed..
yet, to her, it has...

since then i hear it ticking in my head.
like one of those stupid cuckoo clocks. UGH!

numbing its the only way i ( Read more... )

so the jist of it.
is that she's not going to make it..

which has made stress worse..
her catscan was monday.
results. friday.

i work 11-4 now.

i got a job.
and what niggas!

start monday at 730.