there was no talk of dreams as we laid, as we bathed our [restless] night's wounds in pools of summer that are made on unmade beds. no trace of comfort left in our silences; no trace of solace left in our touching. the suffocation of words unsaid writhes, caught within the distance neither one of us cares to breach. we've become mirrors and all ( Read more... )

i try not to blame myself. i try not to hate myself. but apparently i don't try hard enough because today i do. and its bad.

A heart is in the right place when it is nowhere.

Asia's grandfather had a stroke on Thursday. I tried comforting her when she cried but I think I'm bad at that. So I made her laugh instead. Then I had her play checkers. Wiping the board with someone's ass made her forget for a while ( Read more... )

.in one fell swoop.you can't escape who you are and you are who you are and no one can take that from you but sometimes you wish someone would because somewhere along the way or perhaps since the very beginning the songs only you seem to hear and the sights only you seem to see have imprisoned your being and set you apart too many times now the ( Read more... )

It stings to know that soon after an argument with my father or brother, my mom can be found laughing with them because it usually takes a week for her to even look in my direction after one with me.

she said how perfect and ( Read more... )

- Dinner party thing was this past Saturday. It seems not all appetites were as strong as I had anticipated, but the leftover food allowed mum to take a break from cooking for a couple of days, so it was positive in that aspect. Perhaps next time, if there is a next time, I'll request that all the guests minimize they're eating for a couple of ( Read more... )

I wish I had someone to pounce.

Dilemna: Having this deep rooted craving to create a bountiful 3-course meal but afraid disordered eating habits won't let me touch a thing, or worse, afraid disordered eating habits will have be devouring everything last bite.

Solution: Inviting 17 year old brother, all of his 17 year old friends and their 17 year old appetites to an elaborate ( Read more... )