Comments | nihilism1994: the shit hit the fans...

nihilism1994

the shit hit the fans...

Mar 04, 2004 18:59

sup

i guess i shoulda seen this comin. EVERYTHING has been blown to hell. of course. my luck, again. im jus destined to b alone. its ok tho. i jus wish i would seen it sooner. i dont kno y, but i always ending up lettin my guard down n gettin fuckd in the end. i jus dont understand y this ALWAYS happens to me. im not a bad person am i? but wat ( Read more... )

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...</3 anonymous March 4 2004, 16:17:22 UTC

the only thing that isnt true, is wut u think. if u wanted to know how i felt, you should have asked me. its not that much of a request. i liked you. i like you. a lot. i cant explain it. i cant define it. but i do. i dont cry over people ive known 3 weeks. i dont stay up in hours of the morning and think about such illogical things because they SEEM right... im not angry... im not anything but empty...

--- i will always be sorry for losing you---

Re: ...</3 nihilism1994 March 4 2004, 16:45:34 UTC

am i rele wrong? honestly. put urself in my shoes n c how u would feel. to b honest, i still jus dont understand. u say u like me n i act on it n i get rejected. how am i supposed to feel? do u expect me to throw a party?
i knew this would happen. ide end up likin u alot n somehow, it would get fucked up. i dont understand it tho. try n explain y i SHOULDNT feel like i was led on cuz rite now, thats EXACTLY how i feel. i guess its my fault for thinkin that wat i felt was somethin real. guess the jokes on me. o well.

ouch calmlikecaliber March 5 2004, 04:51:51 UTC

the subject says it all. you know im super duper sorry. im here for ya bro...

...</3... anonymous March 5 2004, 11:36:34 UTC

"if we can, we will leave a letter and this song for you ( ... )

Re: ...</3... nihilism1994 March 5 2004, 11:54:00 UTC

c, thats where u were wrong. i wasnt scared. i was willing to run the risk of either moving wat we had to the nxt step or ruining it. but as the saying goes, this time, the reward was bigger than the risk. i wanted to move to the next step. i was never scared. i NEVER for 1 second doubted how i felt. its U who wasnt rede. its u who wasnt willing to take a risk. n as u said, its u who was scared here, not me. i was willing to take everything further than it had already gone without ever looking back. but u didnt want that. thats not my fault. but wat i dont understand is y did u make me believe that that was wat u wanted? neither of us would be in the spot we r now, neither of us would feel like shit rite now if u had just been strait with me. tell me wat it was that u wanted before i made an ass out of myself n, in the end, fucked everything up for both of us? answer that 4 me. im still completly confused this time...

...</3... anonymous March 5 2004, 11:41:10 UTC

by the way, if it makes u feel any better to be angry and throw your words at me, throw away...ill be a still standing target, but if for some reason, you stop your fire, and get over feeling angry, ill be standing there still, waiting to say sumthing kind.

Re: ...</3... nihilism1994 March 5 2004, 12:05:02 UTC

u think this shit makes me happy? r u fuckin kidding me? the only things that im sayin r things that i believe r true. u think i ENJOY wats goin on? i feel like shit rite now. ive felt like shit for a few days now. but if u wanna think that this is makin me happy, go rite ahead. im not gonna stop u

...</3... anonymous March 5 2004, 12:34:46 UTC

stop saying i lead you on. stop assuming you know wut i want. you havent known me long enough to predict anything. your incredibly wrong. i made a mistake, ok? i told you, if i could take it back and just say yes, then i would. i DO like you. stop saying that i dont. and i dont believe your the least bit upset over this, because, if that were true, you would feel like me. or maybe its just that you dont give a damn. maybe you just wanted to be with anyone, not me in particular... yes, i WAS scared. i was scared because i thought that i had finally found the right thing. i was so scared that i would do sumthing to fuck it up. if u MUST know, i only told you that we should wait longer, because the next god damn day, i was telling the only other person ive even thought about dating, that it wasnt going to happen, because i had found you. gahd. i hope your fucking happy feeling the way that you do, because i seriously tried. ... you cant be lead on if the other person really cares, kyle, so stop saying that ( ... )

Re: ...</3... nihilism1994 March 5 2004, 12:56:49 UTC

fuck it. im tired of this. i know that i dont kno wat u want ( ... )

Re: ...</3... nihilism1994 March 5 2004, 13:58:33 UTC

so if u have nething else to say, lets hear it, since were bein all out in the open with eachother now