so much for updating more often....

[nihilo]

I had this dream where me and some guy were sitting on top of this insanely high poll, on this traditional school desk, he was my music manager of some sort, and sitting on the desk bit, and I was sitting in the chair itself. While discussing the music video we were going to make I became very much aware of the height at which we were precariously

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[toso]

Doesn't sound like you're having the best time but it doesn't sound like things are falling apart. Its good to see you writing again either way.

[nihilo]

Not the best time no, a crossroads one might say, and I'm trying to prepare for whatever comes, but as usual, preparation doesn't matter so much so I end up pissing it up to avoid the inevitable. Not as bad as it sounds though. I actually feel great, but at 27 I'm feeling the pull to be an 'adult' without quite knowing what that is. hehehe

How are you? Back not doing so well? I hope everything is well. : )

[toso]

I know what you're talking about. I don't think I could have written it that well though. It'll all work out. You tend to do well in the regard.

I'm doing ok I guess. My back has been better but I think its because I haven't been doing any riding. I'll get back to that on my birthday. Other than that, not much has changed. Kinda sad. Oh well, I was always boring that way :)

[axo]

are those tatts on your face?

[nihilo]

hahaha, no, face paint. Maybe someday I'll be "hardcore" enough to get some tats that are readily visible, but I doubt it, being as out of work as I am!!!!

I hope all is well Eric. Congrats on the nuptials, I've been absent too long.

[axo]

all is relatively well. Married life strongly resembles long-term relationship cohabitation life at this point. :) I think it's your innate sweetness and level-headedness that leads us all to dismiss the fact that your posts may be about getting trashed and boy-complexes, because your intrinsic nature transcends that stuff.

[nihilo]

I've always written/ lived about the pissed boy or girl obsessed lifestyle cause

1- what better way to avoid what's really wrong!!!! ie: stagnation

2- It's only when I'm drunk and at home bored enough to think about some boy or girl that I write here, to my own detriment and social alienation.

3- what else is there to life but booze and butterflies!!!

lots, I know, but I'm waiting for the uk border agency to give me the okay on the rest so I'm doing what I can in the meantime!!!!

I think that if I showed up tomorrow in LA you probably wouldn't recognize the personality that has taken shape here, I'm unfortunately still me, but a more bitchy and outspoken me. No one ever said we get better with time!

I'm glad you are doing well, and keeping up on your political posts as usual... useful, as I've been so out of the loop.

[rivetgeek]

Glad to see you're still alive and kickin over there. If it helps any, you're still missed over here.

[nihilo]

Awwwww, I would hope so, as I still miss all of you. Though I probably just constitute a sideline remark every now and again!

I think back a lot though.... and with the prospect of returning I think a lot of what it might be like now. Especially how much everyone would laugh at me cause of my silly Scottish accent!

[rivetgeek]

Pfft you'd be beating the boys (and girls) away with a stick and you know it ;p

You should get on aim or google chat or something some day. Cant exactly go out for a coffee to catch up these days ;D

[mata_hari_]

I wish you the best in whatever you do! I hope that someday I'll see you again, I'd really like for my son to meet you.
I love you

[nihilo]

Thank you! I would certainly love to meet your son as well!!! I love you too.

[rachelbadger]

Gosh I miss you lady! Everything will sort it's self out don't worry in that regard...life has a way of placing us exactly where we belong. If you end up on the east coast for any reason (I'm not that far from NY) make sure you let me know...and you are of course always welcome here for as long as you like.

[nihilo]

As long as I like eh? hehehe I will take you up on that when I next go back to the states as there is no way I could pass up seeing you again and that beautiful daughter of yours! Love