Just keeps hurting me
and i dont know what to do
i love her to much i think
i want something she doesnt

i feel cheated out of something
like something in my life is supposed to happen 
that isnt happening
im moving foward on so much
and yet i feel like
i am at a stand still

what more can i do with my life 
other then get my licence and a car
nothing really
finish school
go to college

what a life 
not really
i want to do something amazing
something that 
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there is just
soo much  
going on 
its over whelming

its flunted 
its showed off
its bragged about
and with ease
no problem at all

is it ever going to be 
enough

am i ever going to catch a break

im becoming a recluse

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it really does get harder
knowing theres someone else
know the feelings 
\the butterflies
the intense moments
knowing that theres attetion there but its not from me
i tried

its just 
i really have some 
like hardcore 
like intense 
i dont even know how to word this

i give up 

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