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All the emotions we once felt,
Ran down the drain along with my heart.
Now long after all the fights.
Long after the tears.
After the forgotten heartaches.
You have come back into my life.
You enter as if you're welcomed.
You once had the whole me,
You were my everything.
I gave you everything.
The final goodbye,
Was difficult.
To see you happy.
Even with the tears that rolled onto my cheeks,
You ignored the way i clutched your hand,
How I embraced that hug,
Made the last k.i.s.s last.
Thanks for the way you acted as if it was nothing.
Acting like I meant nothing.
Everything I did for you or gave you,
That was nothing.
You made me feel so loved.
So used.
So cheap.
The saddest thing of all,
I think I still l.o.v.e you.
Your eyes still make me drink all of your posion.
That smile,
Make me melt the ice sheild covering my heart.
I feel that deep burning of fire in my heart.
The fire that once burned for you.
Temptations are all around me.
Their embracing me in that ugly way they do.
Contemplating what I want from you,
What I want out of anything.
Do I want the same shit?
Its not that I wasnt happy,
(I would be l.y.i.n.g if I said I wasnt.)
It's just so hard to want to subject myself to the pain I'll suffer if this doesn't work out.
I l.o.v.e you so much,
That I'd do anything.
I just want you to l.o.v.e me too.
For once,
Just once.