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How horrible of a feeling is it, knowing how much stronger a guy is then a girl. Physically it would have been tough to fight this boy last night, even with two on one, he was a buff kid - did construction for Timothy Park.
I cant stop thinking about how terrified I was, when i realized he could get violent with us. About 20 sinarios went through my head in one second, at the same time praying and praying for help. Its such a helpless feeling when you have to fear for your safety because one man is drunk (or high on whatever). Imagine living with that, fearing for the minute your husband walks through the door - home from the bars. Ugh.
Its funny how one single guy can make me so extremely terrified, yet seeing justin and kyle was the best feeling last night. Knowing that I could call up one of them, having that "they came to our rescue" feeling, is so comforting, even because we didnt tell them to come over, in the first place - that made me smile.
I hope Mike doesnt hate me, we were going to hang out last night - but it fell through and i didnt have a chance to call him. So maybe we can hang out tonight :) I hate the fact that I know im flakey when it comes to calling people. ick.
ALSO...my dad just called. He remembered my birthday - this is me surprised. I feel like crying - i dont want to go to his wedding, I dont want to feel so extremely uncomfortable, I highly dont want to see that side of the family, but I dont want to be an ass about it either. December 6th it is...
and here i was thinking it had already happened. hmm.