I feel like crap! I am soo weak. My body hates me right now. It suffers to even type. I slept all day when I came home today. I'm not sure if I'm going to school tomorrow. I have to though. Ahh AP is killing me literally!my fever is like 100 right now. It's insane.

i hate everything right now. why does shit like this have to happen to me? i don't understand. i hate it when he says shit ilke that to me. especially when he is piss ass drunk. not collin. someone else. damn. now i am blocking him out of my life. i am not answering his 50 missed calls. nor his apologies. screw him. i can't fix him. he thinks that ( Read more... )

so my mother is actin extremely weird. she told me that she wants to get married again. whatever. shes already been married twice. she said she didn't want to get old alone. i understand i just hate the way she is approaching this. her ways of looking for someone is not approving to me. i hate it because she has made this mistake once and she is ( Read more... )

i hate being scared of doing something wrong. I'm scared that I'm going to fuck things up. Why do I have to feel like this when everything is perfect right now? I really hate it. Why do I feel like everything I do is going to screw everything over? Please someone tell me why I have these feelings because he is everything I ever wanted. He's amazing ( Read more... )

sooo. this is what's going down. when i graduate i am moving the fuck out of my mother's house! i can not stand her one bit! i mean it's like this. like we used to be like awesome friends i would tell her everything. i know its weird but thats how it was and now shes bitching at me all the time! anyways. i really hate it. blah. blah. i deleted my ( Read more... )

so i went to the doctor today and they said that i just have a virus but ive never gotten a virus this bad... whatever. they gave me medicine.. anyways i really feel like crap. blah. like ive been so depressed lately its insane. i totally crapped on the PSAT im not improving on my APQs this sucks. i really hate it. i need to do something about that ( Read more... )

ok soo there are really good things going on in my life and bad but i think that its mostly good. so I hate my disease. jeez i sound so pathetic. anyways yeah its this disease called Cold Urticaria and i only have an acute case of it. i can prevent from breaking out in hives but ill still have it. anyways. so Nicole is amazing! we have 3 classes! ( Read more... )

so i am in love with jasmine tea! seriously. anyways today is collins bday and i feel really bad becuase i got him sick and he had to stay home! on his freaking bday!!!!! ahh i hate it i knew he should have never same over when i was sick. its so bobo. but anyways im so excited becuase i finally get to meet andy! anyways so memoirs of a geisha is ( Read more... )

sometimes i feel really lonely.. idk why.. i just do. i have been feeling really down lately. i really dont want to go back to school but i dont want to stay home either. whatever. i guess i just have to keep doing the same old stuff. nothing exciting really will happen. i mean good things happen but whatever. i just don't know what's going on ( Read more... )

so today was pretty ok.. catie and collin came over and they brought me panera! i was so happy.. dang i really need to get out of the house. it really sucks! oh well.. well i hope that i will be out of here soon.. damn i have to start reaidng all the kings men. shit. oh well at least i have lots of time on hand. peace out.