I haven't updated in so long I dreaded it.

I don't know whether to give a rundown of my life or just pour out some emotions...likely a mix of both.

( my emotional breakdown (its long) )

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lemonsalt created my header. She rocks, not I.

And I don't like feeling rejected. Even if technically I wasn't. But who knows the night is still young?!?

I don't understand why I do these things to myself. Like continue to talk to people I have had relationships (relations, its all relative) with. This Florida Tech thing is sitting in the back of my mind, haunting me as well. I got in, but ( Read more... )

Sitting in my underoos listening to Bright Eyes makes me happy.

New clothes make me happy.

Colored long-sleeve tees make me happy.

Candy-colored underoos from Vicky's make me happy.

Friends that love me makes me happy.

But you,

you make me sad.

Lift up your shirt, but the wound isn't there... I guess you're kind of truth, darlin, is just the ( Read more... )

( sentimental schtuff... )

So today is your birthday.

Want to know what I did in celebration?  What did you do?

Spent last nite with someone that is not you. Who were you with?

Thanks to you, I fear everyone I date from now on (or rather everyone I become involved with...) is going to do the same thing to me.

Going to screw around behind my back. And am I ever going to be ( Read more... )

So I told myself that I was not going to buy The Notebook when it came out. I would wait a month or so until Blockbuster had it pre-viewed on DVD.

But... then Walmart had it for 14.87$. And thats a great price brand-new.

So I bought it yesterday. And watched it last nite with my suitemates. As usual, Caitlin and I are in love with this movie.

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I understood that, finally and absolutely, I alone exist. All the rest, I saw, is merely what pushes me, or what I push against, blindly---as blindly as all that is not myself pushes back. I create the whole universe, blink by blink...

In retrospect, it was all a bad idea.

Right?

This song I am listening to. Is one of the best ever.

I have nothing ( Read more... )

Okay.

Perhaps I should not go home again. Seriously ever.

Because the last two adventures home, on the way back to Raleigh, horrible things have happened.

Like tonite. I hit a deer. With Amanda in the car. So you know we were devastated.

But the Jimmy is okay. no noticeable anythings.

And then the last time, the ticket. Argh.

Totally called Ben ( Read more... )