You're Mine - Chapter Nine
Title: Ch.09 - The Truth Comes Out
Pairing: Kato/?
Rating: NC-17
Length: Chapter
Genre: Slash, chapter, mystery, first person.
Disclaimer: I do not own anything or anyone related to JE. These are only ideas floating around my head that I decided to write about.
Summary: Shige begins to get strange notes from an anonymous source. He doesn't know if they're a prank, or if they're for real. Most of all though, he has no idea who it is that's leaving the notes for him.
A/N: In preparation for writing this chapter I went back and read through 1-8 again. Lol, I just wanted to really make sure I didn't leave any loose threads. Plus it helped me get into a great writing frame of mind for it. I really wanted this chapter to come out well, so I hope everyone enjoys it. And I hope no one is too disappointed by the results. I really couldn't see it any other way, even if there were times I would have liked to think of it being someone else ;) Anyway, please let me know what you think of it! I was originally unsure whether I wanted to make this one chapter or two, but I ended up going with just one. I hope no one was too upset by the extra couple of days it took to get this out, and I hope everyone enjoys it!
I heard the door shut behind me as soon as I lifted my foot onto the first step. Along with it my heart seemed to skip a beat. I was on my way up to the roof where I would ultimately find out the identity of the person who had started leaving me notes a few weeks ago. Although it hadn't even been a whole month it felt like it had been forever ago that I found the first one. Taking a deep breath, I started to climb. Luckily it wasn't a really high building. There were a few floors though, so I had plenty of time to let my nerves race through my body, making me feel almost like I was shaking as I took each step.
When I finally got to the top, I stopped at the door. My heart was beating so fast. I took a shaky breath and my mind raced back over the possible outcomes. Yamapi being at the bottom of the stairs. Did that mean anything? Would he have really done that if he were the one? Or how likely was it for him to do it if he weren't? Why had he even cared that much? No matter what I didn't think that really made a difference in the way my thoughts were going. Whether it was Ryo or Yamapi, they wouldn't have been waiting for me up on the roof yet anyway. I figured that since I had left the room before them I would get to the roof first. It was just whoever came up after me. But even with all of that, I knew who I expected to see on the roof. My mind raced back over the clues I used to reassure myself that it would be him. Not that I really disliked the other one, and might have even been okay with it at one point. But there was one major hint that I got from the notes, and from my interactions with him. Only one person out of the two made me feel the same way the notes did. Only one person was a mix of the right personality that came through in the words. He was the only one who made me angry, excited, nervous, edgy, and even content at the same time. He made my emotions go in so many different directions that I had no idea what to make of it, until now. Now I knew that I could channel all of those feelings into one outlet. It had to be him. In my mind, there was nobody else it could be.
I could have stood there all day trying to build up my resolve and confidence about the outcome if I hadn't suddenly heard the door at the bottom of the stairs open. My stomach flipped in surprise. He must be on his way, and I thought it would be really odd for him to find me standing there. Taking a deep breath, I decided I needed to head to the roof. I could still think there after all. Reaching my hand out I gripped the doorknob and turned. Pulling the door open, I wondered if he could hear it from down there, and then stepped through. The daylight hit my eyes and I squinted for a moment as they adjusted. I took a step forward before stopping dead in my tracks. I wasn't the first one up there.
Turning to face me, two dark eyes lit up and an almost childishly confident smile formed on his lips. I had the immediate thought that he wasn't even worried about my reaction. He must have expected me to want it to be him.
"I thought," I felt the words tumble out of my mouth without really thinking about it as he moved closer to me. "How did you get up here first?"
His grin widened as he came to a stop only inches away, too close to be normal and close enough to make my heart beat faster. "There was a stairway on the other side of the building too. It was closer so I could get here first. Not to mention you were really slow."
I frowned a little, thinking he'd been playing with me again, but it was okay. I kind of liked the way he kept making my heart jump from surprise. No one had ever made me feel like that before. "When I saw Yamapi downstairs it kind of confused me."
Ryo frowned for a second. "He met you down there? Oh well, I still enjoyed the look on your face when you saw me." He stepped closer and I felt myself take an automatic step back, feeling my back hit the door. He smirked and put his hand up against the wall. He was close, closer than we'd ever been. At least it felt closer, and I could barely hear over the blood pounding in my ears.
"I don't understand. Did Yamapi know from the start? There are so many things I don't know," I stopped speaking when I felt Ryo's finger pressing against my lips.
"You're talking too much. Let's just enjoy the moment." His lips tilted into a smirk as his hand dropped and pressed against my waist. I felt my breathing speed up at the way he touched me, at what he might have been thinking, and before I could even think enough to say something else he was leaning closer. In one quick, fluid movement his lips were pressed against mine. I felt my eyes widen in surprise. It was the first time I'd ever kissed another man. It didn't feel bad or wrong, but his lips felt nice against mine and after only a moment of it registering I stopped thinking about it being another man and just thought about the fact that Ryo was kissing me.
He pulled back for a second and our gazes met. I felt my heart skip a beat again and I wondered if it was a bad thing for that to happen too often. But then he was leaning back in and kissing me more demandingly. I felt my blood race as his tongue ran across my lips, urging them open so he could kiss me more deeply. It moved so quickly that I didn't have time to think about whether or not I wanted it. But I never had a negative reaction to it or the way it felt. He stepped closer and pressed his body against mine, pinning me tightly against the door. My body reacted so easily that it was almost surprising. A moan slipped from my throat that would have been embarrassing if it hadn't been so quickly followed by Ryo pressing against me harder and growling low in his throat.
His tongue pushed into my mouth, and I shivered a little in response as it slipped across the roof of my mouth. I moved my own tongue to experimentally brush against his. I tilted my head a little, opening my mouth further against him, pushing my own tongue into his mouth. Moving my arms around his neck, I held him tightly against me. Letting a hand fall down his back, I pressed my fingers into his back harder and harder. He breathed in sharply before breaking away and pressing his face against the side of my head, so that his lips were right by my ear.
"Shige," I could almost feel him smirking against my skin. I knew he was because I could hear it in his voice. "You really got into that."
I frowned and moved my hands to his waist, pushing him back lightly. Even though we were alone on the roof it wasn't the smartest thing to make out with another guy there. It wasn't exactly safe, but I guessed that being with a guy would make me never feel exactly safe in that kind of way. He looked at me and pulled his bottom lip into his mouth, something that drew my attention to that area. "Yeah, well you were into it from the start."
He smirked in response and took a step back. "That's true. So, how long have you known it was me? I'm guessing not very long. I thought you might have figured it out when I gave you the sixth letter, you know when I told you to take your shirt off, but I don't think it's been that long."
I looked at him, a little puzzled. "Why then?"
He shook his head lightly. "So you didn't pick up on that hint. I thought you might have thought about it when I said the necklaces could be our secret code, but I guess that's not such an abnormal word to use."
I frowned for a second before realization hit me. "Oh." There it was. The part where Ryo made me feel stupid, one of the many things that had assured me he was the writer. How he could be so harsh and sharp, but then turn around and be so gentle. I was looking forward to experiencing something like what he'd said in the notes in person, although I wasn't sure if he was the type to say something romantic out loud. Maybe he wouldn't be comfortable talking about it face-to-face.
Letting my lips curl up into a smile, I stepped away from the door. I thought I would ask him about it later. "Well if I would have found out back then things might have gone differently. Still, I don't think I would have disliked the results even then."
Ryo smiled back at me. His hand twitched as if he wanted to do something, but then he bit his lip. "I want to come over to your place tonight."
I nodded slowly, thinking it didn't sound like a request at all. I thought Ryo might come over even if I wasn't completely okay with it. I wasn't sure because I suddenly felt really nervous about it, but at the same time I really wanted it. "Okay." I looked around before adding, "We shouldn't stay up here much longer I guess."
A frown appeared on Ryo's face. "Yeah," he looked over my shoulder, possibly thinking about going back down to the other guys. "I guess half the group will know we're together. That could make things easier or more difficult. We don't have to tell the other two though."
I smiled a little, thinking it was kind of an odd situation. "I don't think the two who know will mind, but the others might find out at some point."
Ryo nodded before looking back at me and smiling. "Oh well. I don't give a fuck. As long as you're mine." He stepped closer and pressed his lips against mine again, wrapping an arm tightly around my waist.
I gasped against him before turning my head to the side. "Ryo."
He groaned, letting his lips stay lightly against my cheek. "It sounds sexy when you say my name."
My blood rushed, but I tried not to let myself get carried away again. Ryo might just be crazy enough to try more. A soft sigh left his lips, tickling my skin. "I'm going to drive you so fucking crazy tonight," he whispered before pulling away again. My stomach tightened, making me wish it were already that night even though I was still nervous about it.
We stood there for a minute before Ryo nodded and took a step to the door. "Let's go, sexy." He put an arm around my shoulder and pulled me with him. It was weird to hear that coming from Ryo. The way he spoke to me, the things he said, the way it made me feel were all so new and seemed to come so naturally to him. It was good that he was so comfortable because I had no idea what I was doing. We didn't completely break apart until we were downstairs, in the hallway. He let his hand drop from me and we walked back to the room, mostly in silence.
"I wonder if they're already working, or if they waited for us."
Ryo snorted. "Better be working." I looked at him out of the corner of my eye and smiled when I saw he was as well. It was kind of cute, how much of a brat Ryo was. It had gotten on my nerves plenty of time before, and I was sure it would again. But it was okay right now because I couldn't have found him more amazing or attractive than I did at that moment. Any of his qualities seemed not only manageable, but also in some way desirable. I felt like I really, really liked him. It was really odd to suddenly feel that way about someone I had known so long, but it also felt right.
When we walked back into the room, Yamapi looked up and smiled knowingly. Tegoshi gave us an uncertain look that said he still wasn't completely comfortable with what was going on. The other two didn't seem to pay any unusual attention.
"There you two are. We were wondering if you were coming back anytime soon," Koyama said as he smiled at me. I thought that a couple of them probably weren't really wondering where we were since they knew, although they might have been wondering what we were doing. I took the seat next to Koyama and smiled. There was no reason to act any different than usual, and Ryo seemed to have the same idea because he didn't try to shove anyone out of the way to get a spot next to me. That definitely would have looked weird. At that moment our manager came over and started talking about the first concert that would begin in mere days. It was funny because that wasn't even what I'd been nervous about for the last few weeks, but now it started to make me feel nervous. I'd been so preoccupied that I wondered if I'd done enough to prepare for it. I was determined to put full effort into it, although I was sure I'd still be somewhat distracted by Ryo.
Later Tegoshi found me as I was putting my things away. "How'd it go?" I heard the question before realizing he was there. I looked around to make sure no one else was around.
"Good. I guess it went pretty great. I mean so far I like it."
He nodded slowly, pressing his lips together. "Okay. Well, good luck then. I hope you and him are happy together." A small smile tilted his lips up. "I'll try to not get involved anymore. I'm sorry about sticking my nose in your business before. I'm not sorry to Ryo, but to you I can see maybe I crossed the line a little."
I shook my head. "No, it's okay. I don't really blame you." I kind of felt like things were a little unresolved with Tegoshi somehow, and I didn't want to pry, but I didn't want to feel weird. "Are you really okay with it? I mean, was it just the letters that made you angry? There isn't anything else, right?" I could feel a little nervous, my mind jumping to possibilities I hadn't let it before.
Tegoshi looked at me for a long moment before shaking his head. "The letters were mostly the problem. Like I said though, I didn't like the way he went about it. I was afraid it would end up hurting you. But what really matters is that you two want to be together. So, that's the way it should be. Just be careful, and don't let him push you around anymore."
I nodded slowly. "Yeah, of course." I definitely didn't plan to let him push me around, but I also didn't think what Ryo had done was as bad as Tegoshi seemed to think it was. "So," I added slowly, "it's not that you just don't want me and him to be together, for some reason?"
He crossed his arms and sighed. "Didn't you hear what I just said?" He reached out and mussed my hair, something that I thought was both cute and slightly annoying. "You're reading too deep into things."
I took a slow breath. "Okay, as long as everything is cool."
Tegoshi nodded and smiled. "You're such a dork, worrying so much. But that's what makes you so lovable," he cooed in a voice that made me think he was picking at me. "I bet Ryo thinks so too," he added raising his eyebrows suggestively. His eyes seemed to catch something over my shoulder and he looked back at me. "Guess I'll be heading off myself then. Have fun." He turned and walked toward the exit of the building. I felt my insides flutter at what Tegoshi had probably been looking at.
Turning, my eyes caught sight of Ryo and Yamapi, who smiled before patting Ryo on the shoulder and heading for the exit himself. He jogged slightly, maybe to catch up with Tegoshi. I really hoped they'd forget about whatever happened when they were arguing and all be cool with each other again.
Ryo smirked and walked over to me. "What did he say?"
"Just asked how things went and wished me luck." I felt my heart beating faster at the thought of being a my place, alone with Ryo.
"He's such a brat," Ryo added, sounding almost fond of the fact. Well, it was something they seemed to have in common. In my mind anyway. "But I guess he's cool enough with it to not make a big deal."
I nodded slowly. "Yeah, I think we're cool." Ryo looked at me and nodded himself before grinning.
"Let's go then."
"Eh? You're coming right over?" I asked, surprised.
"Yeah, why not? It would be a hassle to go to my place just to turn around and go to yours."
I frowned and thought about what my place looked like. "But what if I wanted to clean up a little."
Smirking, Ryo raised and lowered his eyebrows suggestively. "We can clean ourselves together."
"I meant the apartment," I responded, although I couldn't help but smile a little. "But okay. It does make sense that way I guess."
"Good. I wouldn't have it any other way." Leaning a little closer, he added in a whisper. "I want as much time with you tonight as I can get."
I felt a blush creep onto my face, so I turned to walk towards the door before anyone else might walk by and think something weird, and hopefully before Ryo noticed my blush. His quiet laugh as he followed behind me made me think I hadn't been quite fast enough for that.
In the cab Ryo and I sat on opposite sides of the seat. It was really weird since only hours earlier he'd been pressed up against me so intimately, but now we had to pretend like that had never happened. When other people were around we couldn't just act however we wanted. But it didn't really bother me because I knew we would be at my place soon, and then we could do whatever we wanted. My stomach knotted up at the thought, but I tried to not think about it too much.
The ride felt extremely long, but eventually my apartment came into view. I felt my stomach leap with tension, and I had to refrain from looking over at Ryo. I paid the driver and we stepped out and walked to the door. It wasn't too weird to have another guy over, especially one of the other guys in the group. But I'd never had any guy over for the same reason as I was now for Ryo. It was a really odd feeling, but I wanted it. I wanted him.
I led him into my apartment, a place he hadn't been to before. He looked around himself as we took our shoes off. I motioned to the shoe rack I had and he placed his in a free spot. I stepped further in, feeling my nerves tighten with uncertainty. What now? I felt completely unprepared for whatever was going to happen. I hadn't gone to work thinking he'd tell me that day, and now that he had all that was left were things I'd barely let myself think about before.
Suddenly two arms wrapped around my waist and Ryo was pressing his lips against my neck. "This is nice and all, but I want you to take me to your room first. We can hang out after I get to touch you thoroughly. I felt my blood race and I could only nod in response. He loosened his hold so that I could step forward, although he followed close behind me, keeping a hand on my waist. My door was open so it was easy to walk in. There were only a few clothes scattered and a little bit of junk laying out. I looked around to see the smirk on Ryo's face as he noticed those things. "I bet your place isn't perfect either," I muttered testily.
"My place. No, it's a lot worse than this." He grinned and I couldn't help but smile back. My amusement was quickly replaced by surprise when Ryo quickly stepped forward, placing his hands on my waist and jerking me to him. Our bodies collided roughly and his lips didn't wait any longer than that to attack my own. I felt like I melted into his hold as he continued what we had started earlier that day. Suddenly the thoughts of the dream he'd had flashed through my mind. The bed was only a few feet behind us and I wondered if he would do what he'd described then. If he would push me back and press his body into mine. I really wanted it, so much that without realizing it I had taken a step back. Our lips broke apart and he looked at me with an amused expression.
"You're really eager to get to that bed, huh?" He looked around me at it and I felt blood rush to my face. Well, I was kind of but he didn't have to say it like that. "I don't blame you. It looks like a really sexy bed." He took a step too, catching up with me. His hands on my waist started to push me back as he continued speaking, "It would be even sexier if we were on it though."
I nodded, a small smile curving the corners of my lips up, which only seemed to encourage him to push me harder. I stepped back until my legs hit the edge of the bed. He smirked before moving his hands up a little and using enough force to push me back onto the bed. I looked up at him and nervously wet my lips with my tongue. Reaching down, Ryo gripped the bottom of his shirt and pulled it up over his head. My eyes jumped to his chest and I took a slow breath. I'd never looked at him shirtless like this before. Reaching my hands up I hesitantly pressed my fingers against his clavicle. He watched me with a patience that was almost surprising. Slowly running my hands down I thought about how his skin felt under my fingers. Letting them travel over to his nipples, I brushed the tips of my index fingers over them. He moaned almost too quietly for me to hear. That encouraged me, making me want to touch him more. Leaning closer I pressed my mouth against his stomach, kissing his bellybutton before slipping my tongue out to run across the top of it. He moaned louder and reached a hand out to sink his fingers into my hair.
"It feels like you're trying to tease me," he pulled my hair a little as he spoke, making me tilt my head back. Our gazes met and I smiled, making a look appear on his face that looked almost predatory. Leaning over, Ryo pressed his lips against mine briefly as he grabbed my shirt and started to pull it up, breaking away to jerk it over my head. He tossed it away without a care and pushed me, urging me further back onto the bed. My nerves raced again as I thought about where this was going, but I tried not to let them get the best of me.
Following my movement, Ryo crawled onto the bed and lowered himself on top of me. I felt my body tighten with desire as he slowly pressed himself against me, moving his lips to mine at the same time. His tongue pushed into my mouth and I moaned against it as he pressed his hips harder against me. The kiss deepened as our tongues moved against each other needily. I pushed up against him, feeling the heat in my body drop to my cock.
"Ryo," I gasped as he moved his mouth away to kiss down my neck. I pressed my hands into his back and pushed up against him again, the movement allowing only a little stimulation for me. Moving my leg I pressed it between his, pushing my thigh up against him. I could feel that he was hard too, and it made excitement rush through my body. He growled and pushed down against my leg before shifting so that he could move a hand down. I could feel his hand moving until I realized he was undoing his pants. I looked down and pressed my lips together. After a moment he leaned back and started to pull them off his hips, raising himself up so he could get them off.
Grabbing my hand, Ryo moved it down to press against him. I felt my stomach jump in surprise when I touched it, even through the material of his boxers. It wasn't unusual for me to touch a penis because I had one of my own, but I'd never touched another guy's like that before, and the way he pressed into my hand was really hot. He leaned back over, keeping his hand down there too so that he could more slowly start to undo my pants. I felt my body tighten with frustration and not being able to be touched too, but I also didn't mind because I liked being able to really feel him. I ran my hand across his penis, feeling its size and shape before moving my hand to trace over his hip and down to the edge of his boxers, where I slipped my finger up into it. His hot skin against my fingers felt really good and I wanted to be able to touch more. Pushing my hand into the boxers enough I felt my hand brush against his cock. He moaned as he kissed my collarbone and pulled the zipper on my pants down.
"That feels good, Shige." I licked my lips and moved my hand to more fully wrap around it, stroking him up and down the length. I could feel him breathing heavier against my skin. "I want to fuck you so bad."
At the statement my eyes widened and my hand stilled. It was something I'd thought about a little, but I'd never been fucked by a guy before. He moved his face to look at me for a moment before adding, "What? Don't you know how to do that?"
I frowned. "Of course I know how. I just haven't done it before."
He nodded slowly. "I wondered about that. Well, I'll be gentle with you then," the way he smiled when he spoke made me wonder how gentle he was actually planning on being. But really I had no idea what to expect. I knew how it worked, I just didn't know how it would really feel to me.
Leaning back, Ryo moved his hands so that he could pull my at my pants. "Lift your hips," he commanded, pulling them down and then off when I did so. It was so weird to suddenly be almost naked with Ryo. The fact that we were doing this kept hitting me like it was a new thing every time. But it wasn't a bad feeling, since I wanted to do it.
I gasped when Ryo's hand went to press against my erection through my boxers. "Ryo," the name slipped from my lips in a quiet plea for more. A smirk curled onto his face and he reached up to pull at the hem of my boxers. I lifted my hips automatically this time, letting him pull them completely off too. He looked down at me and bit his bottom lip suggestively.
His fingers played across the skin of my cock almost teasingly, making me moan and toss my head in irritation. "Ryo," I said again, more demandingly this time. He smirked at my reaction, but instead of teasing me more, he wrapped his hand fully around me, moving it up and down the length. At the top he pulled his thumb over the tip, making me shiver with pleasure. When a moan slipped from my mouth he stopped, and I looked up at him questioningly.
"Hold on," he said before pulling off me a little and reaching for his pants. He pulled his wallet out and dug out some lubricant. "I said I'd make this easy on you." He smirked as he opened the cap and squeezed some out onto his finger. Using his other hand he spread my legs, moving between them. He pressed his finger against the skin directly behind my balls, making me shiver at the coolness of the lube. Slowly he moved his fingers down until they brushed against my entrance. I gasped when he suddenly pushed one finger in just past the tip.
It was definitely a different feeling, and I felt my mind trying to wrap around it as the muscles tightened. "Relax," came Ryo's voice, soft and comforting sounding even. His other hand reached up and ran lightly across my stomach, moving in a circular pattern that felt really nice and soothing. I felt myself relax a little more, and he slowly started pushing the finger in further. He pulled it back out and pressed in a little faster, working his pace up before starting to twist it a little. It kept stretching, but I found my body slowly getting accustomed to the way it felt. Just when I started feeling a little more comfortable, he pressed another finger against my entrance and started pushing it in too.
"So, what do you think so far?" He suddenly asked as he spread his fingers inside me. My jaw clenched and I had to force myself to relax again.
"It's not too bad," I answered with a small smile. It really wasn't bad, just different.
With a smirk, Ryo leaned over me, pressing a kiss against my mouth. "Just wait," he breathed before moving his fingers and pressing them in harder against me, hitting a spot that made my eyes roll back and my hips jerk up a little.
"Ryo," I moaned, realizing he'd hit my prostate. "That felt good," I added, wanting more of that feeling. He kept looking at me with that knowing smirk as he brushed his fingers against it again before lining a third one up and pushing it in too. I gasped and closed my eyes tightly. I'd never felt anything quite like it before, the way it stretched. He pushed them in and out a few times before pulling them all out. I felt myself let out a breath I hadn't realized I was holding as the pressure suddenly leaving made me feeling oddly empty.
I watched as he finished pulling his boxers off. Ryo was still really hard and being able to see what I felt earlier was really hot. He reached down and wrapped his own hand around it, holding it for a moment, almost as if he were showing it off. I smirked up at him, thinking it was both amusing and sexy. He caught my expression and returned the look with one of his own. I wasn't surprised that he wasn't ashamed of his actions. He was really obnoxious sometimes, always calling himself sexy. Of course there were some obvious airs about the way he did it. I also thought it was true. Ryo was a sexy Osaka man.
Pressing himself between my legs, Ryo leaned over and kissed my neck. "You're mine, right?"
I felt curious about him asking that suddenly, but instead of trying to find out why I just slowly nodded. "Yeah, I guess I am."
He pulled back and looked at me seriously. "You guess? Tell me if you do."
I frowned for a second before taking a breath. "I'm yours."
A smile formed on Ryo's lips before he leaned closer and kissed me again, swiping his tongue between my lips as he used his hand to line himself up with my entrance. My stomach tightened with expectation, and then he was pushing in. I gasped into his mouth, raising my legs to wrap around his waist almost automatically. He let go of his penis when it was far enough in and moved his hand to rest against the top of my thigh and pressed the other one into the mattress by my head. He pressed his weight against my legs a little, something I didn't mind, as he pushed in further. I felt like he kept going in forever and then suddenly he was in all the way and I could feel him pressing against me in so many places.
Ryo looked at me carefully, as if to gauge my level of comfort, before pulling back and pushing in again faster. He didn't stop this time though. I moaned at the way it felt, and it didn't take long for me to feel like I was enjoying it. Then he started moving faster and his cock hit my prostate. I moaned louder and gripped the sheets beneath me in a fist. His hand moved to wrap around my penis, stroking me slowly as he pushed in and out, going faster each time. I bucked my hips up against him, trying to catch his rhythm. He moaned as I pressed against him, making him push deeper into me.
"Shige," my name slipped raggedly from his lips. His hand dropped from me for a moment and he grabbed my hips as he started to move faster, pumping in and out of me. My breath came heavy and I dug my head back against the bed, moving my own hand to find my aching cock, stroking it as Ryo pushed into me over and over. His movement quickly started to grow faster until he was moving with an almost unbelievable feeling speed. I moaned loudly as he pounded against my sweet spot.
"Ryo," I gasped as pleasure wracked my body. My hand moved faster and before I knew it, I had tightened and gone over the edge without even realizing how close I was. I looked up at Ryo who was staring down at me with lust filled eyes as he continued to pound into me. He bit down on his lip before leaning back to give himself better leverage and started pushing into me again, this time faster. I moaned because of how it felt inside me. I couldn't take my eyes off of him as he fucked me until he was coming too. His body arched and I stared up at him in wonder, almost unable to believe how gorgeous the man on top of me looked. Maybe it had something to do with the post orgasm bliss that had taken over my body, but I was captivated by the way his whole body reacted to the orgasm.
When it was over he slowly looked down at me, taking deep breaths. Pulling out of me, Ryo leaned back and crawled over my legs so he was by my side. "Mmm, you were so sexy just then," he said, moving his arm around my waist and tugging me to him in a way that felt both possessive and kind of cute.
"So were you," I said, trying not to feel awkward about being in bed with another guy. It wasn't that I didn't like it. I just wasn't sure how I was supposed to act. Ryo just looked at me with the most content, laid back expression I had ever seen on his face. "You look nice right now."
He smiled a little and shrugged. "Yeah, I've heard I'm at my best after good sex."
"Oh really?" I asked, wondering who all had experienced his post orgasm attitude. But I supposed it didn't really matter because he was with me now. Maybe I didn't really even want to know. His slow nod made me smile a little, which got me a smile in return. That in turn made me think of the letters.
"So, now you get to see me smile for you whenever you want. Like you wanted," I said, moving my hands to lightly press my fingers against his side. He jerked a little as if it tickled, making me grin.
"Shige," he almost whined, pressing his face against my neck. I thought for sure it made him a little uncomfortable to be romantic in person, but I thought maybe I could work that out of him a little. I smiled, thinking it was okay because just the way he was smiling against the skin of my neck was enough to let me know that he meant it and liked that I had smiled for him.
I wasn't sure when I had drifted off to sleep or if Ryo had fallen asleep first or second, but I remember waking up with his arm still tightly around me. His eyes were half lidded and really sleepy looking. I almost laughed at how cute and slightly creepy he looked with his hair all messy and his face half asleep.
"Morning," he said, his voice a little scratchy.
"Good morning," I said in reply before moving to sit up. He pulled me back down though before I was even up all the way.
"Just stay here for another second. We don't have to be in for another couple of hours."
"Really?" I asked, surprised. I looked over at my alarm clock before nodding. I figured it wouldn't hurt to stay there a little longer with him.
Showering and grabbing some breakfast out of my kitchen with Ryo was really fun and new. I was a little reluctant to see him go, but he had to run by his apartment and I had to finish getting ready for work. It wasn't too bad anyway, because I would see him again in a few hours. It was just that I wasn't sure when the next time we'd be able to be alone would be.
Work wasn't too weird even though I had a big secret to deal with now. Well, I suppose it wasn't exactly a new secret, it was just different now. Tegoshi seemed like his normal, bright self and even acted as though he'd made up with the other two. Ryo still seemed a little snippy at first, but warmed up to him before the day was over. Ryo and I made plans to see each other again privately before the week was over and before the concerts started, even though we both had our own things to do. I tried to focus on my work after that.
At the end of the day I was packing up and getting ready to leave when Koyama came up to me, his expression almost scarily serious. I looked at him uncertainly as he stared at me. "Shige, I need to talk to you for a second." I saw him pull a red note out of his pocket and I felt my eyes widen. I took the note from his outstretched hand, opening it to see that it was the second note Ryo had left me.
At that moment Tegoshi walked by. He seemed to catch sight of the note and a small, amused smile curved onto his lips when he saw Koyama's expression. The brat. Why had I forgotten to take the notes out of my bag that morning? My life seemed like an endless sequence of trials at that point.
"I think it might have fallen from your bag earlier. Shige," Koyama's face looked almost comically shocked, his eyes as wide as they could be. At his next words I almost wanted to roll my eyes and Tegoshi looked ready to burst into a fit of laughter. "I think you have a stalker."
Author's Ending Note: Since this is the end of the fic I wanted to leave a last note here. I really, really loved writing this fic! I think it's the first chapter fic I have finished, although until recently I haven't written fanfiction in years. This was also the first time I've written smut in first person. It was a challenge, and I think I ended up doing okay. First person isn't something I do often, and I probably won't do it again for a while at least. I like the way it worked into this fic though, so I hope everyone else enjoyed it too! The ending was something I thought of a few chapters back. I thought it would be fun to end it on kind of a light, comical note since the previous chapters have ended so heavy all the time. And lol, Koyama is just too cute. Poor thing, and poor Shige. His troubles will never end ^_^ Mwuahaha. <<; But it's not supposed to be anything dire, so don't worry about the poor babe. Koyama's just being a mama *grin* And I had to slip in some bratty Tego at the end too, because I can't get enough.
And thank you to all my readers and all the wonderful people I've met and talked to because of this fic. I'm really glad to be friends with the people who friended me ^_^ I hope to talk to you more in the future of course! Something I was thinking about was making this both a personal journal and a fic journal, but just keeping the personal stuff f-locked. I don't know though. Lol. I kind of feel hesitant about putting anything other than fics or drawings here. Like it doesn't belong or something. Maybe I'm just being kind of weird. Yeah, but I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has read and commented. You really made me happy on some days when I felt really bad, as I've been dealing with being sick for over two weeks now and school is so stressful all the time! Lol, but I look forward to writing more and reading more with you guys in the future! I'm about to go check out the JE Trick or Treat fic thing and see if anything catches my eye. Well, something kind of already has but I'm still keeping my options open for a little bit ^_^ Later!
Pairing: Kato/?
Rating: NC-17
Length: Chapter
Genre: Slash, chapter, mystery, first person.
Disclaimer: I do not own anything or anyone related to JE. These are only ideas floating around my head that I decided to write about.
Summary: Shige begins to get strange notes from an anonymous source. He doesn't know if they're a prank, or if they're for real. Most of all though, he has no idea who it is that's leaving the notes for him.
A/N: In preparation for writing this chapter I went back and read through 1-8 again. Lol, I just wanted to really make sure I didn't leave any loose threads. Plus it helped me get into a great writing frame of mind for it. I really wanted this chapter to come out well, so I hope everyone enjoys it. And I hope no one is too disappointed by the results. I really couldn't see it any other way, even if there were times I would have liked to think of it being someone else ;) Anyway, please let me know what you think of it! I was originally unsure whether I wanted to make this one chapter or two, but I ended up going with just one. I hope no one was too upset by the extra couple of days it took to get this out, and I hope everyone enjoys it!
I heard the door shut behind me as soon as I lifted my foot onto the first step. Along with it my heart seemed to skip a beat. I was on my way up to the roof where I would ultimately find out the identity of the person who had started leaving me notes a few weeks ago. Although it hadn't even been a whole month it felt like it had been forever ago that I found the first one. Taking a deep breath, I started to climb. Luckily it wasn't a really high building. There were a few floors though, so I had plenty of time to let my nerves race through my body, making me feel almost like I was shaking as I took each step.
When I finally got to the top, I stopped at the door. My heart was beating so fast. I took a shaky breath and my mind raced back over the possible outcomes. Yamapi being at the bottom of the stairs. Did that mean anything? Would he have really done that if he were the one? Or how likely was it for him to do it if he weren't? Why had he even cared that much? No matter what I didn't think that really made a difference in the way my thoughts were going. Whether it was Ryo or Yamapi, they wouldn't have been waiting for me up on the roof yet anyway. I figured that since I had left the room before them I would get to the roof first. It was just whoever came up after me. But even with all of that, I knew who I expected to see on the roof. My mind raced back over the clues I used to reassure myself that it would be him. Not that I really disliked the other one, and might have even been okay with it at one point. But there was one major hint that I got from the notes, and from my interactions with him. Only one person out of the two made me feel the same way the notes did. Only one person was a mix of the right personality that came through in the words. He was the only one who made me angry, excited, nervous, edgy, and even content at the same time. He made my emotions go in so many different directions that I had no idea what to make of it, until now. Now I knew that I could channel all of those feelings into one outlet. It had to be him. In my mind, there was nobody else it could be.
I could have stood there all day trying to build up my resolve and confidence about the outcome if I hadn't suddenly heard the door at the bottom of the stairs open. My stomach flipped in surprise. He must be on his way, and I thought it would be really odd for him to find me standing there. Taking a deep breath, I decided I needed to head to the roof. I could still think there after all. Reaching my hand out I gripped the doorknob and turned. Pulling the door open, I wondered if he could hear it from down there, and then stepped through. The daylight hit my eyes and I squinted for a moment as they adjusted. I took a step forward before stopping dead in my tracks. I wasn't the first one up there.
Turning to face me, two dark eyes lit up and an almost childishly confident smile formed on his lips. I had the immediate thought that he wasn't even worried about my reaction. He must have expected me to want it to be him.
"I thought," I felt the words tumble out of my mouth without really thinking about it as he moved closer to me. "How did you get up here first?"
His grin widened as he came to a stop only inches away, too close to be normal and close enough to make my heart beat faster. "There was a stairway on the other side of the building too. It was closer so I could get here first. Not to mention you were really slow."
I frowned a little, thinking he'd been playing with me again, but it was okay. I kind of liked the way he kept making my heart jump from surprise. No one had ever made me feel like that before. "When I saw Yamapi downstairs it kind of confused me."
Ryo frowned for a second. "He met you down there? Oh well, I still enjoyed the look on your face when you saw me." He stepped closer and I felt myself take an automatic step back, feeling my back hit the door. He smirked and put his hand up against the wall. He was close, closer than we'd ever been. At least it felt closer, and I could barely hear over the blood pounding in my ears.
"I don't understand. Did Yamapi know from the start? There are so many things I don't know," I stopped speaking when I felt Ryo's finger pressing against my lips.
"You're talking too much. Let's just enjoy the moment." His lips tilted into a smirk as his hand dropped and pressed against my waist. I felt my breathing speed up at the way he touched me, at what he might have been thinking, and before I could even think enough to say something else he was leaning closer. In one quick, fluid movement his lips were pressed against mine. I felt my eyes widen in surprise. It was the first time I'd ever kissed another man. It didn't feel bad or wrong, but his lips felt nice against mine and after only a moment of it registering I stopped thinking about it being another man and just thought about the fact that Ryo was kissing me.
He pulled back for a second and our gazes met. I felt my heart skip a beat again and I wondered if it was a bad thing for that to happen too often. But then he was leaning back in and kissing me more demandingly. I felt my blood race as his tongue ran across my lips, urging them open so he could kiss me more deeply. It moved so quickly that I didn't have time to think about whether or not I wanted it. But I never had a negative reaction to it or the way it felt. He stepped closer and pressed his body against mine, pinning me tightly against the door. My body reacted so easily that it was almost surprising. A moan slipped from my throat that would have been embarrassing if it hadn't been so quickly followed by Ryo pressing against me harder and growling low in his throat.
His tongue pushed into my mouth, and I shivered a little in response as it slipped across the roof of my mouth. I moved my own tongue to experimentally brush against his. I tilted my head a little, opening my mouth further against him, pushing my own tongue into his mouth. Moving my arms around his neck, I held him tightly against me. Letting a hand fall down his back, I pressed my fingers into his back harder and harder. He breathed in sharply before breaking away and pressing his face against the side of my head, so that his lips were right by my ear.
"Shige," I could almost feel him smirking against my skin. I knew he was because I could hear it in his voice. "You really got into that."
I frowned and moved my hands to his waist, pushing him back lightly. Even though we were alone on the roof it wasn't the smartest thing to make out with another guy there. It wasn't exactly safe, but I guessed that being with a guy would make me never feel exactly safe in that kind of way. He looked at me and pulled his bottom lip into his mouth, something that drew my attention to that area. "Yeah, well you were into it from the start."
He smirked in response and took a step back. "That's true. So, how long have you known it was me? I'm guessing not very long. I thought you might have figured it out when I gave you the sixth letter, you know when I told you to take your shirt off, but I don't think it's been that long."
I looked at him, a little puzzled. "Why then?"
He shook his head lightly. "So you didn't pick up on that hint. I thought you might have thought about it when I said the necklaces could be our secret code, but I guess that's not such an abnormal word to use."
I frowned for a second before realization hit me. "Oh." There it was. The part where Ryo made me feel stupid, one of the many things that had assured me he was the writer. How he could be so harsh and sharp, but then turn around and be so gentle. I was looking forward to experiencing something like what he'd said in the notes in person, although I wasn't sure if he was the type to say something romantic out loud. Maybe he wouldn't be comfortable talking about it face-to-face.
Letting my lips curl up into a smile, I stepped away from the door. I thought I would ask him about it later. "Well if I would have found out back then things might have gone differently. Still, I don't think I would have disliked the results even then."
Ryo smiled back at me. His hand twitched as if he wanted to do something, but then he bit his lip. "I want to come over to your place tonight."
I nodded slowly, thinking it didn't sound like a request at all. I thought Ryo might come over even if I wasn't completely okay with it. I wasn't sure because I suddenly felt really nervous about it, but at the same time I really wanted it. "Okay." I looked around before adding, "We shouldn't stay up here much longer I guess."
A frown appeared on Ryo's face. "Yeah," he looked over my shoulder, possibly thinking about going back down to the other guys. "I guess half the group will know we're together. That could make things easier or more difficult. We don't have to tell the other two though."
I smiled a little, thinking it was kind of an odd situation. "I don't think the two who know will mind, but the others might find out at some point."
Ryo nodded before looking back at me and smiling. "Oh well. I don't give a fuck. As long as you're mine." He stepped closer and pressed his lips against mine again, wrapping an arm tightly around my waist.
I gasped against him before turning my head to the side. "Ryo."
He groaned, letting his lips stay lightly against my cheek. "It sounds sexy when you say my name."
My blood rushed, but I tried not to let myself get carried away again. Ryo might just be crazy enough to try more. A soft sigh left his lips, tickling my skin. "I'm going to drive you so fucking crazy tonight," he whispered before pulling away again. My stomach tightened, making me wish it were already that night even though I was still nervous about it.
We stood there for a minute before Ryo nodded and took a step to the door. "Let's go, sexy." He put an arm around my shoulder and pulled me with him. It was weird to hear that coming from Ryo. The way he spoke to me, the things he said, the way it made me feel were all so new and seemed to come so naturally to him. It was good that he was so comfortable because I had no idea what I was doing. We didn't completely break apart until we were downstairs, in the hallway. He let his hand drop from me and we walked back to the room, mostly in silence.
"I wonder if they're already working, or if they waited for us."
Ryo snorted. "Better be working." I looked at him out of the corner of my eye and smiled when I saw he was as well. It was kind of cute, how much of a brat Ryo was. It had gotten on my nerves plenty of time before, and I was sure it would again. But it was okay right now because I couldn't have found him more amazing or attractive than I did at that moment. Any of his qualities seemed not only manageable, but also in some way desirable. I felt like I really, really liked him. It was really odd to suddenly feel that way about someone I had known so long, but it also felt right.
When we walked back into the room, Yamapi looked up and smiled knowingly. Tegoshi gave us an uncertain look that said he still wasn't completely comfortable with what was going on. The other two didn't seem to pay any unusual attention.
"There you two are. We were wondering if you were coming back anytime soon," Koyama said as he smiled at me. I thought that a couple of them probably weren't really wondering where we were since they knew, although they might have been wondering what we were doing. I took the seat next to Koyama and smiled. There was no reason to act any different than usual, and Ryo seemed to have the same idea because he didn't try to shove anyone out of the way to get a spot next to me. That definitely would have looked weird. At that moment our manager came over and started talking about the first concert that would begin in mere days. It was funny because that wasn't even what I'd been nervous about for the last few weeks, but now it started to make me feel nervous. I'd been so preoccupied that I wondered if I'd done enough to prepare for it. I was determined to put full effort into it, although I was sure I'd still be somewhat distracted by Ryo.
Later Tegoshi found me as I was putting my things away. "How'd it go?" I heard the question before realizing he was there. I looked around to make sure no one else was around.
"Good. I guess it went pretty great. I mean so far I like it."
He nodded slowly, pressing his lips together. "Okay. Well, good luck then. I hope you and him are happy together." A small smile tilted his lips up. "I'll try to not get involved anymore. I'm sorry about sticking my nose in your business before. I'm not sorry to Ryo, but to you I can see maybe I crossed the line a little."
I shook my head. "No, it's okay. I don't really blame you." I kind of felt like things were a little unresolved with Tegoshi somehow, and I didn't want to pry, but I didn't want to feel weird. "Are you really okay with it? I mean, was it just the letters that made you angry? There isn't anything else, right?" I could feel a little nervous, my mind jumping to possibilities I hadn't let it before.
Tegoshi looked at me for a long moment before shaking his head. "The letters were mostly the problem. Like I said though, I didn't like the way he went about it. I was afraid it would end up hurting you. But what really matters is that you two want to be together. So, that's the way it should be. Just be careful, and don't let him push you around anymore."
I nodded slowly. "Yeah, of course." I definitely didn't plan to let him push me around, but I also didn't think what Ryo had done was as bad as Tegoshi seemed to think it was. "So," I added slowly, "it's not that you just don't want me and him to be together, for some reason?"
He crossed his arms and sighed. "Didn't you hear what I just said?" He reached out and mussed my hair, something that I thought was both cute and slightly annoying. "You're reading too deep into things."
I took a slow breath. "Okay, as long as everything is cool."
Tegoshi nodded and smiled. "You're such a dork, worrying so much. But that's what makes you so lovable," he cooed in a voice that made me think he was picking at me. "I bet Ryo thinks so too," he added raising his eyebrows suggestively. His eyes seemed to catch something over my shoulder and he looked back at me. "Guess I'll be heading off myself then. Have fun." He turned and walked toward the exit of the building. I felt my insides flutter at what Tegoshi had probably been looking at.
Turning, my eyes caught sight of Ryo and Yamapi, who smiled before patting Ryo on the shoulder and heading for the exit himself. He jogged slightly, maybe to catch up with Tegoshi. I really hoped they'd forget about whatever happened when they were arguing and all be cool with each other again.
Ryo smirked and walked over to me. "What did he say?"
"Just asked how things went and wished me luck." I felt my heart beating faster at the thought of being a my place, alone with Ryo.
"He's such a brat," Ryo added, sounding almost fond of the fact. Well, it was something they seemed to have in common. In my mind anyway. "But I guess he's cool enough with it to not make a big deal."
I nodded slowly. "Yeah, I think we're cool." Ryo looked at me and nodded himself before grinning.
"Let's go then."
"Eh? You're coming right over?" I asked, surprised.
"Yeah, why not? It would be a hassle to go to my place just to turn around and go to yours."
I frowned and thought about what my place looked like. "But what if I wanted to clean up a little."
Smirking, Ryo raised and lowered his eyebrows suggestively. "We can clean ourselves together."
"I meant the apartment," I responded, although I couldn't help but smile a little. "But okay. It does make sense that way I guess."
"Good. I wouldn't have it any other way." Leaning a little closer, he added in a whisper. "I want as much time with you tonight as I can get."
I felt a blush creep onto my face, so I turned to walk towards the door before anyone else might walk by and think something weird, and hopefully before Ryo noticed my blush. His quiet laugh as he followed behind me made me think I hadn't been quite fast enough for that.
In the cab Ryo and I sat on opposite sides of the seat. It was really weird since only hours earlier he'd been pressed up against me so intimately, but now we had to pretend like that had never happened. When other people were around we couldn't just act however we wanted. But it didn't really bother me because I knew we would be at my place soon, and then we could do whatever we wanted. My stomach knotted up at the thought, but I tried to not think about it too much.
The ride felt extremely long, but eventually my apartment came into view. I felt my stomach leap with tension, and I had to refrain from looking over at Ryo. I paid the driver and we stepped out and walked to the door. It wasn't too weird to have another guy over, especially one of the other guys in the group. But I'd never had any guy over for the same reason as I was now for Ryo. It was a really odd feeling, but I wanted it. I wanted him.
I led him into my apartment, a place he hadn't been to before. He looked around himself as we took our shoes off. I motioned to the shoe rack I had and he placed his in a free spot. I stepped further in, feeling my nerves tighten with uncertainty. What now? I felt completely unprepared for whatever was going to happen. I hadn't gone to work thinking he'd tell me that day, and now that he had all that was left were things I'd barely let myself think about before.
Suddenly two arms wrapped around my waist and Ryo was pressing his lips against my neck. "This is nice and all, but I want you to take me to your room first. We can hang out after I get to touch you thoroughly. I felt my blood race and I could only nod in response. He loosened his hold so that I could step forward, although he followed close behind me, keeping a hand on my waist. My door was open so it was easy to walk in. There were only a few clothes scattered and a little bit of junk laying out. I looked around to see the smirk on Ryo's face as he noticed those things. "I bet your place isn't perfect either," I muttered testily.
"My place. No, it's a lot worse than this." He grinned and I couldn't help but smile back. My amusement was quickly replaced by surprise when Ryo quickly stepped forward, placing his hands on my waist and jerking me to him. Our bodies collided roughly and his lips didn't wait any longer than that to attack my own. I felt like I melted into his hold as he continued what we had started earlier that day. Suddenly the thoughts of the dream he'd had flashed through my mind. The bed was only a few feet behind us and I wondered if he would do what he'd described then. If he would push me back and press his body into mine. I really wanted it, so much that without realizing it I had taken a step back. Our lips broke apart and he looked at me with an amused expression.
"You're really eager to get to that bed, huh?" He looked around me at it and I felt blood rush to my face. Well, I was kind of but he didn't have to say it like that. "I don't blame you. It looks like a really sexy bed." He took a step too, catching up with me. His hands on my waist started to push me back as he continued speaking, "It would be even sexier if we were on it though."
I nodded, a small smile curving the corners of my lips up, which only seemed to encourage him to push me harder. I stepped back until my legs hit the edge of the bed. He smirked before moving his hands up a little and using enough force to push me back onto the bed. I looked up at him and nervously wet my lips with my tongue. Reaching down, Ryo gripped the bottom of his shirt and pulled it up over his head. My eyes jumped to his chest and I took a slow breath. I'd never looked at him shirtless like this before. Reaching my hands up I hesitantly pressed my fingers against his clavicle. He watched me with a patience that was almost surprising. Slowly running my hands down I thought about how his skin felt under my fingers. Letting them travel over to his nipples, I brushed the tips of my index fingers over them. He moaned almost too quietly for me to hear. That encouraged me, making me want to touch him more. Leaning closer I pressed my mouth against his stomach, kissing his bellybutton before slipping my tongue out to run across the top of it. He moaned louder and reached a hand out to sink his fingers into my hair.
"It feels like you're trying to tease me," he pulled my hair a little as he spoke, making me tilt my head back. Our gazes met and I smiled, making a look appear on his face that looked almost predatory. Leaning over, Ryo pressed his lips against mine briefly as he grabbed my shirt and started to pull it up, breaking away to jerk it over my head. He tossed it away without a care and pushed me, urging me further back onto the bed. My nerves raced again as I thought about where this was going, but I tried not to let them get the best of me.
Following my movement, Ryo crawled onto the bed and lowered himself on top of me. I felt my body tighten with desire as he slowly pressed himself against me, moving his lips to mine at the same time. His tongue pushed into my mouth and I moaned against it as he pressed his hips harder against me. The kiss deepened as our tongues moved against each other needily. I pushed up against him, feeling the heat in my body drop to my cock.
"Ryo," I gasped as he moved his mouth away to kiss down my neck. I pressed my hands into his back and pushed up against him again, the movement allowing only a little stimulation for me. Moving my leg I pressed it between his, pushing my thigh up against him. I could feel that he was hard too, and it made excitement rush through my body. He growled and pushed down against my leg before shifting so that he could move a hand down. I could feel his hand moving until I realized he was undoing his pants. I looked down and pressed my lips together. After a moment he leaned back and started to pull them off his hips, raising himself up so he could get them off.
Grabbing my hand, Ryo moved it down to press against him. I felt my stomach jump in surprise when I touched it, even through the material of his boxers. It wasn't unusual for me to touch a penis because I had one of my own, but I'd never touched another guy's like that before, and the way he pressed into my hand was really hot. He leaned back over, keeping his hand down there too so that he could more slowly start to undo my pants. I felt my body tighten with frustration and not being able to be touched too, but I also didn't mind because I liked being able to really feel him. I ran my hand across his penis, feeling its size and shape before moving my hand to trace over his hip and down to the edge of his boxers, where I slipped my finger up into it. His hot skin against my fingers felt really good and I wanted to be able to touch more. Pushing my hand into the boxers enough I felt my hand brush against his cock. He moaned as he kissed my collarbone and pulled the zipper on my pants down.
"That feels good, Shige." I licked my lips and moved my hand to more fully wrap around it, stroking him up and down the length. I could feel him breathing heavier against my skin. "I want to fuck you so bad."
At the statement my eyes widened and my hand stilled. It was something I'd thought about a little, but I'd never been fucked by a guy before. He moved his face to look at me for a moment before adding, "What? Don't you know how to do that?"
I frowned. "Of course I know how. I just haven't done it before."
He nodded slowly. "I wondered about that. Well, I'll be gentle with you then," the way he smiled when he spoke made me wonder how gentle he was actually planning on being. But really I had no idea what to expect. I knew how it worked, I just didn't know how it would really feel to me.
Leaning back, Ryo moved his hands so that he could pull my at my pants. "Lift your hips," he commanded, pulling them down and then off when I did so. It was so weird to suddenly be almost naked with Ryo. The fact that we were doing this kept hitting me like it was a new thing every time. But it wasn't a bad feeling, since I wanted to do it.
I gasped when Ryo's hand went to press against my erection through my boxers. "Ryo," the name slipped from my lips in a quiet plea for more. A smirk curled onto his face and he reached up to pull at the hem of my boxers. I lifted my hips automatically this time, letting him pull them completely off too. He looked down at me and bit his bottom lip suggestively.
His fingers played across the skin of my cock almost teasingly, making me moan and toss my head in irritation. "Ryo," I said again, more demandingly this time. He smirked at my reaction, but instead of teasing me more, he wrapped his hand fully around me, moving it up and down the length. At the top he pulled his thumb over the tip, making me shiver with pleasure. When a moan slipped from my mouth he stopped, and I looked up at him questioningly.
"Hold on," he said before pulling off me a little and reaching for his pants. He pulled his wallet out and dug out some lubricant. "I said I'd make this easy on you." He smirked as he opened the cap and squeezed some out onto his finger. Using his other hand he spread my legs, moving between them. He pressed his finger against the skin directly behind my balls, making me shiver at the coolness of the lube. Slowly he moved his fingers down until they brushed against my entrance. I gasped when he suddenly pushed one finger in just past the tip.
It was definitely a different feeling, and I felt my mind trying to wrap around it as the muscles tightened. "Relax," came Ryo's voice, soft and comforting sounding even. His other hand reached up and ran lightly across my stomach, moving in a circular pattern that felt really nice and soothing. I felt myself relax a little more, and he slowly started pushing the finger in further. He pulled it back out and pressed in a little faster, working his pace up before starting to twist it a little. It kept stretching, but I found my body slowly getting accustomed to the way it felt. Just when I started feeling a little more comfortable, he pressed another finger against my entrance and started pushing it in too.
"So, what do you think so far?" He suddenly asked as he spread his fingers inside me. My jaw clenched and I had to force myself to relax again.
"It's not too bad," I answered with a small smile. It really wasn't bad, just different.
With a smirk, Ryo leaned over me, pressing a kiss against my mouth. "Just wait," he breathed before moving his fingers and pressing them in harder against me, hitting a spot that made my eyes roll back and my hips jerk up a little.
"Ryo," I moaned, realizing he'd hit my prostate. "That felt good," I added, wanting more of that feeling. He kept looking at me with that knowing smirk as he brushed his fingers against it again before lining a third one up and pushing it in too. I gasped and closed my eyes tightly. I'd never felt anything quite like it before, the way it stretched. He pushed them in and out a few times before pulling them all out. I felt myself let out a breath I hadn't realized I was holding as the pressure suddenly leaving made me feeling oddly empty.
I watched as he finished pulling his boxers off. Ryo was still really hard and being able to see what I felt earlier was really hot. He reached down and wrapped his own hand around it, holding it for a moment, almost as if he were showing it off. I smirked up at him, thinking it was both amusing and sexy. He caught my expression and returned the look with one of his own. I wasn't surprised that he wasn't ashamed of his actions. He was really obnoxious sometimes, always calling himself sexy. Of course there were some obvious airs about the way he did it. I also thought it was true. Ryo was a sexy Osaka man.
Pressing himself between my legs, Ryo leaned over and kissed my neck. "You're mine, right?"
I felt curious about him asking that suddenly, but instead of trying to find out why I just slowly nodded. "Yeah, I guess I am."
He pulled back and looked at me seriously. "You guess? Tell me if you do."
I frowned for a second before taking a breath. "I'm yours."
A smile formed on Ryo's lips before he leaned closer and kissed me again, swiping his tongue between my lips as he used his hand to line himself up with my entrance. My stomach tightened with expectation, and then he was pushing in. I gasped into his mouth, raising my legs to wrap around his waist almost automatically. He let go of his penis when it was far enough in and moved his hand to rest against the top of my thigh and pressed the other one into the mattress by my head. He pressed his weight against my legs a little, something I didn't mind, as he pushed in further. I felt like he kept going in forever and then suddenly he was in all the way and I could feel him pressing against me in so many places.
Ryo looked at me carefully, as if to gauge my level of comfort, before pulling back and pushing in again faster. He didn't stop this time though. I moaned at the way it felt, and it didn't take long for me to feel like I was enjoying it. Then he started moving faster and his cock hit my prostate. I moaned louder and gripped the sheets beneath me in a fist. His hand moved to wrap around my penis, stroking me slowly as he pushed in and out, going faster each time. I bucked my hips up against him, trying to catch his rhythm. He moaned as I pressed against him, making him push deeper into me.
"Shige," my name slipped raggedly from his lips. His hand dropped from me for a moment and he grabbed my hips as he started to move faster, pumping in and out of me. My breath came heavy and I dug my head back against the bed, moving my own hand to find my aching cock, stroking it as Ryo pushed into me over and over. His movement quickly started to grow faster until he was moving with an almost unbelievable feeling speed. I moaned loudly as he pounded against my sweet spot.
"Ryo," I gasped as pleasure wracked my body. My hand moved faster and before I knew it, I had tightened and gone over the edge without even realizing how close I was. I looked up at Ryo who was staring down at me with lust filled eyes as he continued to pound into me. He bit down on his lip before leaning back to give himself better leverage and started pushing into me again, this time faster. I moaned because of how it felt inside me. I couldn't take my eyes off of him as he fucked me until he was coming too. His body arched and I stared up at him in wonder, almost unable to believe how gorgeous the man on top of me looked. Maybe it had something to do with the post orgasm bliss that had taken over my body, but I was captivated by the way his whole body reacted to the orgasm.
When it was over he slowly looked down at me, taking deep breaths. Pulling out of me, Ryo leaned back and crawled over my legs so he was by my side. "Mmm, you were so sexy just then," he said, moving his arm around my waist and tugging me to him in a way that felt both possessive and kind of cute.
"So were you," I said, trying not to feel awkward about being in bed with another guy. It wasn't that I didn't like it. I just wasn't sure how I was supposed to act. Ryo just looked at me with the most content, laid back expression I had ever seen on his face. "You look nice right now."
He smiled a little and shrugged. "Yeah, I've heard I'm at my best after good sex."
"Oh really?" I asked, wondering who all had experienced his post orgasm attitude. But I supposed it didn't really matter because he was with me now. Maybe I didn't really even want to know. His slow nod made me smile a little, which got me a smile in return. That in turn made me think of the letters.
"So, now you get to see me smile for you whenever you want. Like you wanted," I said, moving my hands to lightly press my fingers against his side. He jerked a little as if it tickled, making me grin.
"Shige," he almost whined, pressing his face against my neck. I thought for sure it made him a little uncomfortable to be romantic in person, but I thought maybe I could work that out of him a little. I smiled, thinking it was okay because just the way he was smiling against the skin of my neck was enough to let me know that he meant it and liked that I had smiled for him.
I wasn't sure when I had drifted off to sleep or if Ryo had fallen asleep first or second, but I remember waking up with his arm still tightly around me. His eyes were half lidded and really sleepy looking. I almost laughed at how cute and slightly creepy he looked with his hair all messy and his face half asleep.
"Morning," he said, his voice a little scratchy.
"Good morning," I said in reply before moving to sit up. He pulled me back down though before I was even up all the way.
"Just stay here for another second. We don't have to be in for another couple of hours."
"Really?" I asked, surprised. I looked over at my alarm clock before nodding. I figured it wouldn't hurt to stay there a little longer with him.
Showering and grabbing some breakfast out of my kitchen with Ryo was really fun and new. I was a little reluctant to see him go, but he had to run by his apartment and I had to finish getting ready for work. It wasn't too bad anyway, because I would see him again in a few hours. It was just that I wasn't sure when the next time we'd be able to be alone would be.
Work wasn't too weird even though I had a big secret to deal with now. Well, I suppose it wasn't exactly a new secret, it was just different now. Tegoshi seemed like his normal, bright self and even acted as though he'd made up with the other two. Ryo still seemed a little snippy at first, but warmed up to him before the day was over. Ryo and I made plans to see each other again privately before the week was over and before the concerts started, even though we both had our own things to do. I tried to focus on my work after that.
At the end of the day I was packing up and getting ready to leave when Koyama came up to me, his expression almost scarily serious. I looked at him uncertainly as he stared at me. "Shige, I need to talk to you for a second." I saw him pull a red note out of his pocket and I felt my eyes widen. I took the note from his outstretched hand, opening it to see that it was the second note Ryo had left me.
At that moment Tegoshi walked by. He seemed to catch sight of the note and a small, amused smile curved onto his lips when he saw Koyama's expression. The brat. Why had I forgotten to take the notes out of my bag that morning? My life seemed like an endless sequence of trials at that point.
"I think it might have fallen from your bag earlier. Shige," Koyama's face looked almost comically shocked, his eyes as wide as they could be. At his next words I almost wanted to roll my eyes and Tegoshi looked ready to burst into a fit of laughter. "I think you have a stalker."
Author's Ending Note: Since this is the end of the fic I wanted to leave a last note here. I really, really loved writing this fic! I think it's the first chapter fic I have finished, although until recently I haven't written fanfiction in years. This was also the first time I've written smut in first person. It was a challenge, and I think I ended up doing okay. First person isn't something I do often, and I probably won't do it again for a while at least. I like the way it worked into this fic though, so I hope everyone else enjoyed it too! The ending was something I thought of a few chapters back. I thought it would be fun to end it on kind of a light, comical note since the previous chapters have ended so heavy all the time. And lol, Koyama is just too cute. Poor thing, and poor Shige. His troubles will never end ^_^ Mwuahaha. <<; But it's not supposed to be anything dire, so don't worry about the poor babe. Koyama's just being a mama *grin* And I had to slip in some bratty Tego at the end too, because I can't get enough.
And thank you to all my readers and all the wonderful people I've met and talked to because of this fic. I'm really glad to be friends with the people who friended me ^_^ I hope to talk to you more in the future of course! Something I was thinking about was making this both a personal journal and a fic journal, but just keeping the personal stuff f-locked. I don't know though. Lol. I kind of feel hesitant about putting anything other than fics or drawings here. Like it doesn't belong or something. Maybe I'm just being kind of weird. Yeah, but I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has read and commented. You really made me happy on some days when I felt really bad, as I've been dealing with being sick for over two weeks now and school is so stressful all the time! Lol, but I look forward to writing more and reading more with you guys in the future! I'm about to go check out the JE Trick or Treat fic thing and see if anything catches my eye. Well, something kind of already has but I'm still keeping my options open for a little bit ^_^ Later!