Just some rant funtimes.
So christmas break is almost over. Heading back to college soon.
I'm basically thrilled/depressed. I absolutely adore being home with my family and all, but something about college... I dunno. At this moment, I can't really explain how I feel about the fact that I won't be home for another few months. Part of me is just absolutely ecstatic that I'm going back to my friends at college who (in a way) I feel know a different me than the ones at home do. I can't wait to see my boy again, and hang out with the people who are basically my family. And at the same time I'm kind of worried. It feels like I've been away for too long, and when I go back I'm worried I'll be the awkward person I was freshman year of high school, or my relationships will have to start over. I'm worried that since my boy and I haven't seen each other in a month, things might not be the same. I know most of these fears aren't well grounded or anything, it's just something that's I've been feeling more and more as break draws to an end. I feel safe at home- being here with my family and my sister and my high school friends is a pattern that I'm used to, and while I ADORE college, and everyone there, I'm unrealistically worried I've changed too much over this break to go back. Lol, even though the only thing that has changed is the fact that i have four less teeth attached to my jaw.I'm sooo excited to see my boy again. Seriously you have no idea. I'm basically emo-ing out and worrying he doesn't feel the same way. Bah. I'm just freaking out over the fact that I haven't talked to him as much as I'd like too since he's been working late. Meh.
TL;DR: Love college, afraid to go back, gonna miss peoples at home.
The more I think about it, maybe the way I'm feeling might be because I haven't really talked to my friends from college half as much as I'm used to. Probably I'm unrealistic, and the instant I go back, it'll feel like nothing ever changed. =]
Bah, I dunno. Must... resist... emo..urges.
Even More Pointless Rant:
Sooo, basically, I'm one of those girls who gets sucked into fandoms for books/games/manga/movies and obsess over them, write fanfiction. Blah. I'd like to think of myself as a more sane fangirl, although I'm sure I have my moments. I'm also a rather jealous fangirl, I've discovered, wishing I was as skilled a writer/artist as some are. But anyways, I digress. I'm contemplating whether or not my fangirl-ness is affected by other fans.
I know it really shouldn't be. Like, I shouldn't like Kingdom Hearts because because everyone and their sister is obsessed, and I shouldn't hate Dr. Horrible because people think it's stupid and sad. BECAUSE THEY ARE WRONG. about the stupid part. But I'm begining to question my impartiality to other fans when it comes to the Twilight series. BAH.
I'd like to say I liked Twilight before it was cool. to be realistic, I'll say I liked before people liked it to the point it became obnoxious. I was definitely a fan of the whole idea of cool vampires thing, girl falling in love, evil vampires trying to kill them, blahblah, I mean it made for a good story. But ever since everyone and their sister has been FAWNING over Edward Cullen, I've found excuses for it to be obnoxious.
For example: the writing style isn't that great. Every other paragraph is Bella whining/loving on Edward/being tortured/pretentious/ Edward being the oh-so-perfect-special-soul. And there's little to no character development with the main characters. Edward is ALWAYS perfect. The biggest jump is when he goes from wanting to eat Bella's face to being able to be near her. the rest of the time, he's the perfect gentleman, who never messes up, who only loves Bella,only does what's best for her, blah, blah blah STALE. And BELLA. GAH. I started off liking her, and then in New Moon I kinda wanted to punch her in the face a little for being such a man-dependent wimp, to liking her again at the end of new moon/eclipse. BUT OMG BREAKING DAWN WTF. THe whole first part of the book, it's EDWARD SMEX ME UP BB, and then the next, she's an ideal, oh-so-perfect vampire MARY FREAKING SUE. Doesn't attempt to eat people, has perfect control, has the ultimate shield, blows up and shows off when Jacob does something she doesn't like, is perfect and everyone loves her omg. There wasn't any drama. No, I take that back, there was all sorts of drama, but no good plot. Pointless build up. Bring in all the vampire allies, don't get to see them in action, blah. BLAH. IMO, Jacob is the only believable character, at least untill he imprints on Renesmee (I promise I won't rant about the name) and turns into a pansy like the rest of them. He's the only who actually undergoes any character development- goes from being a kid, to caring about Bella, gets legitimately angry and has some flaws, growing in understanding, and learning to be self sacrificing to help those he loves.
And really, I didn't even start being like this until everyone started ranting about how OMG I WANT AN EDWARD CULEN. I'M EDWARD CULLENS GIRLFRIEND. BLAH. And on facebook, every other flair/bumpersticker/anything is how I'M PINING FOR EDWARD CULLEN MY LIFE IS NOT COMPLETE WITHOUT HIM.
Blah. I dunno. Cause I still like the books, and the characters, and I think the vampires are awesome, and the werewolfs are a good idea, and the story is good, and yeah. I'm just freaking judgemental now, and I don't know if it's cause I'm sick and tired of everyone being OMG TWILIGHT = THE JESUS OF LITERATURE and I don't wanna be assosiated with it or if I really actually am starting to think the books are ick. Blah.
TL;DR: Fantards=BLAH
I'm basically thrilled/depressed. I absolutely adore being home with my family and all, but something about college... I dunno. At this moment, I can't really explain how I feel about the fact that I won't be home for another few months. Part of me is just absolutely ecstatic that I'm going back to my friends at college who (in a way) I feel know a different me than the ones at home do. I can't wait to see my boy again, and hang out with the people who are basically my family. And at the same time I'm kind of worried. It feels like I've been away for too long, and when I go back I'm worried I'll be the awkward person I was freshman year of high school, or my relationships will have to start over. I'm worried that since my boy and I haven't seen each other in a month, things might not be the same. I know most of these fears aren't well grounded or anything, it's just something that's I've been feeling more and more as break draws to an end. I feel safe at home- being here with my family and my sister and my high school friends is a pattern that I'm used to, and while I ADORE college, and everyone there, I'm unrealistically worried I've changed too much over this break to go back. Lol, even though the only thing that has changed is the fact that i have four less teeth attached to my jaw.I'm sooo excited to see my boy again. Seriously you have no idea. I'm basically emo-ing out and worrying he doesn't feel the same way. Bah. I'm just freaking out over the fact that I haven't talked to him as much as I'd like too since he's been working late. Meh.
TL;DR: Love college, afraid to go back, gonna miss peoples at home.
The more I think about it, maybe the way I'm feeling might be because I haven't really talked to my friends from college half as much as I'm used to. Probably I'm unrealistic, and the instant I go back, it'll feel like nothing ever changed. =]
Bah, I dunno. Must... resist... emo..urges.
Even More Pointless Rant:
Sooo, basically, I'm one of those girls who gets sucked into fandoms for books/games/manga/movies and obsess over them, write fanfiction. Blah. I'd like to think of myself as a more sane fangirl, although I'm sure I have my moments. I'm also a rather jealous fangirl, I've discovered, wishing I was as skilled a writer/artist as some are. But anyways, I digress. I'm contemplating whether or not my fangirl-ness is affected by other fans.
I know it really shouldn't be. Like, I shouldn't like Kingdom Hearts because because everyone and their sister is obsessed, and I shouldn't hate Dr. Horrible because people think it's stupid and sad. BECAUSE THEY ARE WRONG. about the stupid part. But I'm begining to question my impartiality to other fans when it comes to the Twilight series. BAH.
I'd like to say I liked Twilight before it was cool. to be realistic, I'll say I liked before people liked it to the point it became obnoxious. I was definitely a fan of the whole idea of cool vampires thing, girl falling in love, evil vampires trying to kill them, blahblah, I mean it made for a good story. But ever since everyone and their sister has been FAWNING over Edward Cullen, I've found excuses for it to be obnoxious.
For example: the writing style isn't that great. Every other paragraph is Bella whining/loving on Edward/being tortured/pretentious/ Edward being the oh-so-perfect-special-soul. And there's little to no character development with the main characters. Edward is ALWAYS perfect. The biggest jump is when he goes from wanting to eat Bella's face to being able to be near her. the rest of the time, he's the perfect gentleman, who never messes up, who only loves Bella,only does what's best for her, blah, blah blah STALE. And BELLA. GAH. I started off liking her, and then in New Moon I kinda wanted to punch her in the face a little for being such a man-dependent wimp, to liking her again at the end of new moon/eclipse. BUT OMG BREAKING DAWN WTF. THe whole first part of the book, it's EDWARD SMEX ME UP BB, and then the next, she's an ideal, oh-so-perfect vampire MARY FREAKING SUE. Doesn't attempt to eat people, has perfect control, has the ultimate shield, blows up and shows off when Jacob does something she doesn't like, is perfect and everyone loves her omg. There wasn't any drama. No, I take that back, there was all sorts of drama, but no good plot. Pointless build up. Bring in all the vampire allies, don't get to see them in action, blah. BLAH. IMO, Jacob is the only believable character, at least untill he imprints on Renesmee (I promise I won't rant about the name) and turns into a pansy like the rest of them. He's the only who actually undergoes any character development- goes from being a kid, to caring about Bella, gets legitimately angry and has some flaws, growing in understanding, and learning to be self sacrificing to help those he loves.
And really, I didn't even start being like this until everyone started ranting about how OMG I WANT AN EDWARD CULEN. I'M EDWARD CULLENS GIRLFRIEND. BLAH. And on facebook, every other flair/bumpersticker/anything is how I'M PINING FOR EDWARD CULLEN MY LIFE IS NOT COMPLETE WITHOUT HIM.
Blah. I dunno. Cause I still like the books, and the characters, and I think the vampires are awesome, and the werewolfs are a good idea, and the story is good, and yeah. I'm just freaking judgemental now, and I don't know if it's cause I'm sick and tired of everyone being OMG TWILIGHT = THE JESUS OF LITERATURE and I don't wanna be assosiated with it or if I really actually am starting to think the books are ick. Blah.
TL;DR: Fantards=BLAH