But I don't know how to have it.

        "Doreen is dissolving, Lenny Shepard is dissolving, Frankie is dissolving, New York is dissolving, they are all dissolving away and none of them matter any more. I don't know them, I have never known them and I am very pure. All that liquor and those sticky kisses I saw and the dirt that settled on my skin on the way back is turning to ( Read more... )

(One with no negative space and an all-eyes-on stare.)

I have become infatuated with the wrong things -- the wrong people ( Read more... )

"I took a
      deep breath and
                         listened
 to the
         old brag
                  of my heart.
I am, I am, I am."

"I thought I would swim out
until I was too tired to swim back.
          As I paddled on,
my heartbeat boomed like a
 dull motor in my
ears.

I am, I am, I am."

i don't know anything.
i don't know what i want at all.
anything at all.

im sick of being mixed up in my own head.
i can't sleep thinking like this
(no i can't)

6 hour train + Christmas cactus + "green apple splatter" jokes + grandma perfume + my "RAINMAN 00" journalisim hoodie + free Wild Berry smoothie via super-cool ["Steaming Cup Of"] Joe = great post-layout fun.

I believe you.
I'll stop being bad to my body and mind soon.

( See You Sometime. )

an uncomfortable scrounging for the pieces of ourselves we think we've left
behind somewhere,
and since these animal's natural habitats are the places
most hospitable to their growth,
we look into those most like ourselves, or,
into those who's qualities we wish were our own,
but only stronger;
grown with foreign soil.

To find out they are not ( Read more... )

Don't like American Idol.