Hun, I understand that you need some time to be by yourself. But we need to talk to each other. This is ridiculous that we are both pulling this "you never ask" bullshit. Why can't we just tell? I did something stupid, really fucking stupid, and hypocritical of everything I always say. And I need to tell you, I need you, my best friend. And I am not trying to be selfish here, I need to to talk to me and to let me know what is going on in your life. We owe that to each other. 9 years of friendship and we can't tell each other shit, why? I want to go and have coffee with you, just you, to some place that we are not even going to have a chance to run into someone we know. I will buy you the coffee and I will do nothing but listen to you. I want to soak in what you are facing. Please. I will be in town tomorrow night and possibly Friday. Please call me if you can. Or text me. Or email or post something. Please Please Please talk to me.
Get out of the county, out of this state, Just you and your car and drive. And when you run low on cash work. There is more, and peace cannot be found when your looking, cannot be found when your working for it, Peaces comes to you. When you are ready.
i was told from the get go that the whole point to this journal was about you and i. at this point i can't believe that any bit of that is true anymore. you've been with other people and dealt with other things (far mor dramatic i'm sure) that something like two specific people being together isn't a big deal
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I know you didn't ask me to...elmvalleyfarmMarch 12 2006, 17:48:33 UTC
I'm just a friend. I think a pretty damn good one too. We've talked and talked about how you feel about this and I think for sure there is some connection, but neither one of you has given it a chance. Nina or "isaidfuckingno" call each other. Make a date. Let me hear about it after word "good or bad". There is more to life than this journal. And hey, your both miles from ugly. And Nina or ISFN don't be stupid, don't cry over spilled milk. Clean it up and make it happen. If I was years younger and it was me I'd would jump on this. Love, Michele
woah,woah,woah....holy crap everyone....calm down!!!ninabeckfordMarch 14 2006, 21:16:04 UTC
k. first of all, it's awesome that you finally told me what you needed to.being friends with you is all i've been wanting for quite some time now, so i don't know why all of this has to be so dramatic.i told you a while ago that i miss having you in my life.and it's weird because i did send an e-mail, but if you say you didn't get it, then my dumbass probably sent it to the wrong address.yes, this journal, the first entry i ever put in it (which I quickly erased) was to get through to you because due to situations that were obviously understandably "awkward" on your behalf, I wasn't worthy of a phone call.i was seriously worried that i'd never see you again. stupid. i know. however, everything written in here otherwise is me expressing myself, and i'm sorry and hurt if you think that it takes an "arrogant" person to feel the way i do about some of the things i've recently written. but it's the truth. i don't lie, and i don't sugarcoat. i'm sorry you don't know me well enough to know how insecure i really am. but i guess i could never
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Whatever you do in life. Of course is all you.
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We all deserve better, a chance to grow and learn. without drama, and suffering.
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