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nines_the_squal

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Nov 28, 2005 00:44

I feel so unwelcome everywhere i go,
I am so fucking tired of that.
I just want to curl up in a cave and live there forever.
And when they fuck with my shit I am going to destroy everything they know and love, so they too can share my feelings. I shall give them all the gift of despair.

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0nm10wn2feet November 28 2005, 13:20:37 UTC

Ok, forget the other comments I left, they were basically pointless anyway. I want you to know, exactly, how the whole 'tarot card,' lack of trust business came about. It isn't that we don't TRUST you. I don't pay any attention to what the cards say after the first two or three yes/no readings - because my cards get pissed off if you ask too many questions on the same subject. They've always been that way. But Jess was trying to make a point about how important it was to her that you come over for the film festival and she didn't think clearly about how she was going about it. Instead of helping you see how badly she wanted you to come, she succeeded in making you believe that you are not welcome here. We JUST went through that a couple weeks ago and I thought then that you understood that she is not the best PRIMARY source of information about the rest of the household. I certainly realized that, when she says anything about you, I will have to take it with a grain of salt until I can talk to you personally.

Sweetie, you ( ... )

You are always alright... maverickpiscean November 29 2005, 02:40:21 UTC

I'm sure. Not only are you swearing, you most definitely sound angry, and it sure seems to me like you might be lashing out in a way. Hmm... I meant it, when I asked if you were alright. You once spoke of the many masks I wear.... don't you think it's time to take yours down as well? I'm sorry you are feeling this way, it's something I only wish upon those who deserve it most, and you definitely don't deserve it. What are you going to do with all of this energy? I'm here for you, whether or not you ever decide to take advantage of my friendship, it's here.

0nm10wn2feet November 29 2005, 03:27:16 UTC

I'm sorry, but I tend to agree with Ashlea. I would give the "energy" a different name, however ... its true name ... PAIN. When are you going to let go of all the pain you are squashing down? Before or AFTER it engulfs you?? Yes, dear, I know, you're "good." You'll be "good" on your deathbed, I'm sure, but that still isn't going to help what's eating at you right now. Please, kiddo, before it gets to be too much for even YOU to handle ... LET someone help. ALLOW someone to get close enough to help. Give others the opportunity to repay you for some of what you've given them ... a shoulder, a smile, a hug, a kind word, an "I sorry," or even a stupid DUTY REPORT.
Contrary to your belief, it will NOT kill you. A man is never so strong as when he allows others into his life; it takes a lot more strength to trust than it does to hide. And that is what it is going to take - you are going to have to learn to trust that some people WILL always be there for you. Some people WILL keep their promises. You are not a rock, nor are you ( ... )

Humored nines_the_squal November 29 2005, 16:33:14 UTC

Ok well pretend it is pain. NObody can help it. I dont need a shoulder or anyone to talk to it wont make my issues and problems go away.

Re: Humored nines_the_squal February 21 2006, 22:17:52 UTC

Dude you totally zinged em down.

- this is yourself, only from the future, by the way.