My life 2
My life
As i sat there it was 3am and i just thought fuck it i have to see her so i knocked on the
door as it swang open sian looked at me confused
sian: Sophie its 3am whats wrong?
Sophie: sian i need you
and i burst into tears she pulled me in to her house she sat me down on her bed
sian: soph whats happened please tell me
Sophie: i...kirsty abused me
sian looked at me shocked she then went to hug me and i pushed her away and went to
the other side of the room sian looked at me confused
sian: soph what i was only going to hug you
sophie: please just dont touch me ok
sian walked closer to me
sophie: sian im telling you not to come near me please
sian: soph do you hear your self were been best mates for years and i cant give you a hug?
she looked at me hurt but i just got angry
sophie: you know what sian a couple of hours ago i was just with one of me best mates and
you know what she did she got drunk sian and then she pushed me on my back and she touched
me she touched me where jt did she made me go back to my nightmare and she was my friend so
yes sian i dont want a hug
sian: SO WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME SOPHIE HUH
sophie: I WANTED MY BEST MATE SIAN WHERE WAS YOU WHEN I NEEDED HUH YOU WAS TOO BUSY GOING
OUT WITH LADS OPENING YOUR FUCKING LEGS YOU CHOOSE TO SPEND TIME ON YOUR BACK I DID NOT WHERE
WERE YOU WHEN I ...NEEDED...YOU?
we both stood there in tears sian walked over to me i tryed to push her of but we both fell
to the floor crying
sophie: where was you sian when i needed you?
sian: im so sorry sophie
i pulled away and sat with my back on the wall looking at sian
sophie: im sorry but i cant be touched i just dont trust anyone and im sorry sian but not
even you
sian: soph im your best mate i could never hurt you
sophie: you know thats funny kirsty said the same thing now look at me look at me sian im
broken ive been used for others entertainment and you know whats worse jt and kirsty they
will be fine about it coz good old sophie can bare with all the memories of it all sian did
you know i dont sleep
sian looks at me confused
sophie: have you never wondered why i just stayed up late or leave it so i only get a few
hours sleep
sian: no i never realised
sophie: ha some friend you are
sian: soph thats not fair
sophie: THATS NOT FAIR WHAT IS NOT FAIR SIAN IS YOU THINKING YOU KNOW ME
sian: I DO KNOW YOU SOPHIE
sophie: YER IF YOU KNOW ME SO FUCKING WELL SIAN HOW COULD YOU NOT KNOW WHY I DONT FUCKING
SLEEP HUH I CANT SLEEP BECAUSE WHEN I DO I SEE HIS FACE SIAN I SEE JTS FACE HIM BREATHING
ON ME HIS HANDS EVERYWHERE DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW THAT FEELS NO YOU DONT AND YOU KNOW
WHATS WORSE
sian: what?
i looked into sians bright blue eyes and smiled
sophie: i can never hate you and its not because your my best mate its because i love you
sian
sian: i love you 2
sophie: NO SIAN IM INLOVE WITH YOU AND I COULD NEVER HAVE YOU
sian looks at me in shock i got up and went to the door sian put her hand on mine
hand that was on the door
sophie: sian take your hand of me
sian did what i asked
sian: please stay with me you can sleep on my bed and i will stay on the floor please
i turned and looked at her and nodded once we were settled we layed and chatted sian fell
asleep and then i was gone 2 when i opened my eyes i was not at sians i was in jts home
i could feel his breath on my neck feel him stroking my arms
sophie: dont touch me
jt: oh but you always liked me touching you sophie
sophie: i was young i did not know what to do
jt: yes you were now look at you all grown up i want you again sophie and i will
he spun me around as i came face to face he was smirking at me i tryed to fight him off
but he was strong and then we were both naked on the bed i looked up at him
sophie: please just let me go
he came to my ear and whispered
jt: its ok just make sure when you scream you say my name
he started to laugh as i felt him go inside me i screamed and then i was no longer in his
home i was at sians she was looking at me yelling
sian: SOPHIE YOUR DREAMING WAKE UP
i pushed her of me running to the toilet pukeing me guts up
sian stood there and watched she tryed to put her hand on me put i just told her to leave
me alone i stayed in the toilet for a while sobbing as sian just sat there and watched me
cry i felt bad she must of felt helpless after a while i cleaned up and went home i stayed
in me room for days as i had school i decided to try and sleep so i closed my eyes
then i was in a room this room i knew its only till i heard her voice i knew where i was
i turned to see kirsty and jt standing there laughing at me pointing
jt: im proud of you kirsty you did what i asked of you
kirsty looked at me and laughed
kirsty: oh please she was easy did not even fight me of
and they both laughed i ran at them then i looked around and i was on the floor in my room
great just when i thought my dream could not get any worst it did my alarm went off there
was no point i was awake i got to school i saw sian she walked beside me but then i stoped
sian looked at me confused but then she saw my face
sian: soph you ok youve gone white
sian looked to see where i was looking and there she was kirsty with her boyfriend sian started
to go to her
sophie: SIAN NO GO TO CLASS I WILL SEE YOU LATER OK
sian looked at me then nodded kirsty looked at sian then at me she walked over to me
sophie: stop dont come any closer
kirsty: sophie please we need to talk why have you not called or come to see me?
sophie: you what kirsty you...
i looked at anton he was a great mate i could not bare to have him know what i knew of kirsty
so i walked of later that day i went to the sixth form toilets i lit up a smoke god i needed
it i heard the door go i did not care i needed this
kirsty: can we chat
i froze we were alone in the toilets while everyone was in class i looked at her and i ran
past her she grabed me and pushed me to the wall
kirsty: you listen to me what ever you think happened that night it did not you hear me
i just nodded and then i was alone on the floor in tears she knew what she did and she was
not sorry
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