My life 3
My life 3
Once i sorted my self out i went out it was lunch time i saw sian and jade sitting on our bench
i just walked off i just wanted to be alone i heard someone calling me but my legs kept moving
not wanting to stop suddenly i felt a hand grab me i turned round
Sophie: GET YOUR FUCKING HANDS OFF ME
it was my girlfriend Kacey i felt bad but i could not tell her how do you tell your girlfriend
that you dont want to be with them because of whats happened or that i just dont love her i mean
i do but not like i love sian kacey looked at me hurt
kacey: what did i do sophie?
i looked away she was such a lovely person i just did not want her to get hurt so i did what was
best
sophie: kacey i wanna break up
she looked at me tears in her eyes
kacey: you dont mean that look at me sophie
i looked in her brown eyes
sophie: its finished
and i walked off i wanted to be with her but kirsty made dame sure that if i ever dated a girl
again would i be safe thats what went through my head i liked both men and women i looked at
a guy and thought yer his cute but dated one scared me to death thats why i turned more for
women now i did not trust anyone i went home that night and i layed in the bath i got my dads
shaver and started cutting my tummy i felt numb i needed to feel and seeing the blood mix with
the water it felt good once i got out the bath i sat in me room my phone rang no number i left
it after 2 hours off non stop ringing i picked up
sophie: hello?
tj: hay you did you miss me hahahahaha
i threw my phone on the floor how did he get my number i was shaking my heart felt like it was
gonna burst out i grabbed a compass and cut up me arms after a while i feel asleep i opened my
eyes i was tied up on a bed tj looked down at me i felt him inside me i tried to yell but my
mouth was taped i saw in the corner of my eye kirsty she liked what she saw then i felt some
thing sharp on my neck he had a knife he showed me it then i felt the knife going up my leg
as it got closer i screamed thats when i woke up soaked through for some reason i was in pain
down below i ran to the toilet i pulled down my underwear and saw blood i knew it was a dream
and that i must have started my period but it still scared me the next day i walked into
school i saw jade and sian talking then out of nowhere kacey slapped me i looked at her in
shock
kacey: I CANT BELIEVE YOU CHEATED ON ME KIRSTY TOLD ME SOPHIE ABOUT YOUR SEXY NIGHT TOGETHER
i was shocked kirsty thought it was something i wanted i just looked at kacey then pushed past
her jade came over to me and pulled me into a hug i pushed her off
sophie: DONT FUCKING TOUCH ME
and i stormed of i ran to the toilets sat by the window and cried
sian: hay
i jumped when i heard her voice i looked at her she looked like a kid scared to do something
incase i crack i held my hand out to her she looked at me surprised but i really needed her
she took my hand i pulled her towards me i turned her around as she sat infront of me i put
my head on her shoulder as we looked out the window this was fine i did not feel frighten as i
felt i was in control with her infront of me
sian: ive missed you soph you need to talk to someone
sophie: no sian i cant ok its to hard
my voice broke she turned her head our faces inches tears falling from my eyes she looked at
me then before i knew it her lips were on mine i pushed her of me and ran to the door
sian: SOPH WAIT PLEASE
i turned round and walked back to her a tear rolled down her cheek i wiped it away as i kept
my hand on her cheek
sophie: why did you kiss me sian?
sian looked down she was hinding something apart of me hoped that she loved me but that was to
good to be true she looked back into my eyes
sian: im leaving soph im moving away
was i hearing right my sian was leaving me when i needed her the most
sophie: what no you cant leave me
sian: soph do you really think i want to my mum got a job we dont even know where were going
till we get to the airport
i looked at her and i just could not believe it she was leaving and i may never see her again
i lent forward clashing our lips i wanted to show her how much i loved her in that kiss and
she kissed me to she then put her hand on my neck i pulled away and looked down
sian: im sorry i no you dont like to be touched but i need my teddybear hug
she smiled i smiled i loved thos hugs but after everything could i but i had to this was gonna
be the last time i would feel her in my arms i opened my arms out and she came to me my heart
was beating so fast after abit she pulled away
sian: i know it was hard i could hear your heart beat
sophie: im sorry i just
sian: you dont have to explain soph ok its fine your always gonna be my best mate ok
i just nodded after that day sian was gone i started hanging out with jade she was just i dont
even know at first she seemed nice but as i got to know her she started to hit me it when on
as time when by i closed me self off to every one i worked Saturdays and even my workmates
said i show no emotions im like a closed book after a couple of months i left school and stared
college i met some new people 2 girls eleni and maria they were greek i called them the twins
then there was charlie the guy thats gay but just does not know it yet then there was kylie
we went school together we was not close but i knew of her i met her friends and she met mine
as time went on i met Chas she was new charlie decided to add her into our little gang as it
were after a while they dated i fell for her i did not mean to but i did yer i still thought
of sian but we just lost each other after a while i told chas how i felt bout her she was
cool but said she would never like girls well that did not last long i put my past in the
back of my head i stayed round hers and it just started from there we kissed i touched her
but she never touched me thats how it was i took control but she was very flat chested then
one day chas said do i wanna meet her sister i said no not really but it was to late sarah
was like a goth but with out the white makeup she was beautiful but we hated eachother after
a while she found out i was kinda with her sister even tho she was seeing charlie i did not
care i was just not being me i hated who i was so i made this whole different person who did
not care about others feelings but that changed one night when i started looking at sarah
she was 15 i was 17 that night we made out all night it felt great but after a while she
messed me about so i stayed clear for abit then she told me she loved me and i felt it to
so we started to date in secret as i was falling more i dumped chas but before i did i told
charlie how she cheated on him with me after awhile he found himself and now his gay and
proud me and sarah lasted 9 months together about 6 months into our relationship we went
round a mates got stoned i asked her to marry me and she said yes then a month and a few
weeks later my family went away as i had to work my uncle stayed with me so all would be
ok i heard a knock me and my uncle looked at eachother as i opened the door it was sarah
she stayed with me for thos 2 weeks we did stuff well i did to her i told her my past
so she understood after the two weeks my and her parents ban us from eachother after a month
i got a phone call it was a mate who knew of me and sarah she was crying my heart droped
sophie: mel whats wrong?
mel: its....its....sarah
that was it i felt like a knife went threw my heart something happened to sarah
sophie: mel just tell me
mel: shes dead sophie they found her in her room she cut her self everywhere she bled to
death
i droped the phone how could this be i lost sian and now i lost sarah after that day i never
dated again i did date but it was long distance people i would never meet there was charlie
from swedon he was great for a while but so was his twin sister kat after a while that just
faded then i just started chatting random peeps went on cam and flash my tits i did not care
what i did till one day i was chattin to a long distance gf and saw her display pic it was
me flashing since that day i blocked everyone who i had fun with and all i did was just work
go home and do more work i had no friends just let work take over me after 6 years i went on
a site where peeps write storys i met alot of great people on there had a relationship with
one but after a month she dumped me i was hurt but then i met someone new and we just
clicked so maybe life is gonna get better after all who knows
thanks for read hope u like it if not oh well lol xxxxxx