My life 7
dedicated to my gals kim my gf, kylie, abbie, aimee, kara, tina
Hay im back i know its been really long since i wrote alots happened with my self got in to
many arguments with most of my close friends workmates you name it ive been fighting with
them not the physical kind but the yelling and its getting to me alot sometimes i dont even
know what day of the week it is or date everyone seems to think i need attention but you
know what i need its time and space alot of it because no one knows whats it like to be me
some say i may have a gift i say its a fucking curse i read people to much i test them for
my own insecurity's when my close friends say how amazing i am or special or what other
stuff they wanna say it goes over my head because i look in the mirror and all i see is a
frailer a fuck up a sorry excuse for a person a waste of space i know that when they read
this there gonna wonder whats happened for me to say this i tell you whats happened i was
born that is why im like this i live in a family where your the odd one out the middle
child but if they once stopped to see that im crying for help then maybe i could be helped
but i cant be so for thos of you that reads this you cant help me its 5:18am by the time
any of you chat to me i'll be in a very different mood it could be good or bad but what
ever it is i will be in one its like when i say im not in the mood to chat then listen to
me when i say that coz if you dont you learn the hard way and that is a person you could
never wanna see ive done it before to my bezzie kylie bless her all she wants to do is
help me but she cant only i can do that underneath the laughs the smiles the jokes the
cocky me there is a girl and all she wants is to be normal and i know what your all saying
what is normal or i cant believe she just said that well deal with it people coz i just
did this is who i am im not a fake im just me what you see is what you get i moan i yell
its because im hurting and its come to the point that i dont even know why im hurting
anymore all i know is that i have this burning in my heart and no matter what i do it
wont leave me alone i keep thinking about everything my future my family my friends and
i just dont know what i want to do i work so i dont have to think about whats going on
with me because its like a boring cd on repeat and no matter how many times i try to
change the cd the same shit keeps playing i cry coz my life is messed up i look at the
outside world and think where am i in that but then i realize im not in that world i
dont belong in that world so where do i belong?
hay star i wanna meet you
let me know what you think
sophie xxx
hay sounds good im moving
to manchester fancy meeting?
xxxx
wow so quick but im gonna go for it
hay sounds good text me time
place location chat soon star
xxxxx
its been a couple of days since then im now on a bus to meet star so nervous
i just need to feel that i belong and meetin star could help i get of the bus
and walk to a park this is where she wants to meet i sit by a tree reading a
book i hear twigs breaking but never taking my eyes of the book
star: hay sophie
for abit i sit there no words i know that voice i know it any where i look up
and there she is she was beautiful when i last saw her but now now that took
my breath away
me: sian?
hope you liked it xxxxxxxxxx